In general, Singaporean girls do not need their guys to open their doors nor pull our their chair but we're not going to deny that it feels good to be pampered once in a while. I must say i'm lucky because CT knows how to treat a girl right, not just me, guess it boils down to having 3 elder sisters who probably drilled him to walk the route leading to "the bright side". Well, he's got me, guess that's an incentive? For him at least? Oh crap...
My message is: "Singaporean boys in general (I STRESS, NOT ALL OF THEM), do not know how to treat a lady right." It doesn't have to be your sister, your girlfriend nor your Mom. Just gestures to know that you're still human enough to care about people around you. Take for example, my hands were full today with bags and such, the men just walked past me with no intention to open the heavy door for me and when they do it to let themselves in, they didn't bother to keep it open for 5 more seconds so that i can get it??!! WTF!
Guys, you've got to learn to be more gentlemanly. You'll never know who you're going to meet. You are constantly being observed and one day, it might hit back at you. When you're nice, you will be remembered. I never thought white guys were in any way superior and in fact, i've only dated Asian guys. Don't let the girls remember the white trash and leave you behind. Stop complaining Singaporean girls don't like Singaporean boys.
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Xiao Bai
Finally, "Xiao Bai" aka "Bunny" is here. I took it for a ride and you can really feel the turbo when the little meek looking car surged forward, it almost felt like someone installed rockets at the back of the car, pushing the car forward with the combustion. Yeah talking about combustion, it's probably not the most fuel efficient car around. Nonetheless, it's a good and fun drive. Well, "Monkey" and "CT" would find it hard to believe when i made a sharp turn of more than 90 degrees at a speed sedning your hair flying, technically in excess of 100km/h, it didn't prove to be so fun to them after all. But guys, trust me, i had my eyes opened all the time, i knew we're going to be safe and we could all feel the grip of the car alright? But when CT said, "Don't ever do that again... Well unless I'm drunk". That, freaked me out! I'll never be indecisive on the road again, although i drive like a bloody man.
Friday, March 23, 2007
Roadtrip, Yet Again.
Plans for Good Friday had been planned and changed yet again. The initial plans of going to Bangkok,then maybe Hong Kong, then became Bali then now, we're going to Malacca. It's like predestined i can't go anywhere too far, at most just across the Causeway. But we'll be going with "Monkey" and "Zhao Cai Mao" together with Monkey's colleagues. Guess it should be fun considering we'll be taking "Alibaba's" super bus so we'll all be crapping along the way. Simply can't wait...
We have so much plans on our palatte, i wonder when will we ever materialise them. Given by next year we wouldn't need to fork out some fixed expenses and possibly better remuneration along the way, we should be able to go for our Italian escape and Japanese retreat. Well unless i decide to do my NY bar, then i'll have to put it back to a later date. It's gonna cost me a bomb and i must say, i'm very tempted, as much as my current job doesn't require it, it will act like a safety net for me in case i'd ever want to go into practice, in fact, it'd help even if i were to go in-house.
I'm quite peeved at the moment with my work. Not that i'm not enjoying it, in fact i'm in tremendous joy to be moving forward. It has to boil down to the seating arrangement. Frankly, i'm alright here. However, a new colleague, well also a Aussie girl (maybe that's why), will be getting my favourite seat, the seat that i've always wanted. Window seat! Get it? And me, being here for these few months, working like a farm cow gets the everyone can see me, not so private seat. I'd love to reiterate, it's not that i'd go stuffs that i'm not allowed to do, it's just the ultimate discomfort of everyone looking into your screen. It's probably the first and only screen you can see when someone walk past the door. It's like big and bright staring right in your face when you step in. Fuck!
It's Natas fair this weekend, maybe i can start planning a small trip after "CT's" exams. We should take some time off this irritating and dog-eat-dog world.
I need to go for retail therapy...
We have so much plans on our palatte, i wonder when will we ever materialise them. Given by next year we wouldn't need to fork out some fixed expenses and possibly better remuneration along the way, we should be able to go for our Italian escape and Japanese retreat. Well unless i decide to do my NY bar, then i'll have to put it back to a later date. It's gonna cost me a bomb and i must say, i'm very tempted, as much as my current job doesn't require it, it will act like a safety net for me in case i'd ever want to go into practice, in fact, it'd help even if i were to go in-house.
I'm quite peeved at the moment with my work. Not that i'm not enjoying it, in fact i'm in tremendous joy to be moving forward. It has to boil down to the seating arrangement. Frankly, i'm alright here. However, a new colleague, well also a Aussie girl (maybe that's why), will be getting my favourite seat, the seat that i've always wanted. Window seat! Get it? And me, being here for these few months, working like a farm cow gets the everyone can see me, not so private seat. I'd love to reiterate, it's not that i'd go stuffs that i'm not allowed to do, it's just the ultimate discomfort of everyone looking into your screen. It's probably the first and only screen you can see when someone walk past the door. It's like big and bright staring right in your face when you step in. Fuck!
It's Natas fair this weekend, maybe i can start planning a small trip after "CT's" exams. We should take some time off this irritating and dog-eat-dog world.
I need to go for retail therapy...
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Intuition Kills
Have you girls ever felt when people interact, you get the "there's something between them" sort of feeling? Or could you girls feel the concern someone has for another in excess of a platonic relationship? Why am i just asking the girls? Simply because girls are the idiots who read too much and think too much and will more often than not, end up hurting only herself. I have to admit that i really felt it but i also have to come to terms that our intuition may not always be right. Even if it was, I've now chosen to think otherwise. It is not worth the while to destroy trust solely based on intuition. Intuition may sometime or one day, cause our doom. We've been too reliant on it for the largest part of our lives.
On an abnormal note, the burst of emotions can relief huge amounts of stressed piled up for some people. For me, i just remained too calm, too cold. I barely showed any emotion or shed a tear but inside me, i was just tearing up, entirely devastated by my own idiotic imagination. I felt that as per every other times, God was trying to take away things that doesn't belong to me, maybe because i don't deserve it, maybe i never had it, maybe... However, the love built in this short span has the elasticity and strength to withstand all these and it just emerged stronger. I'm enjoying more than ever. The joy of being in each other's arms just greatly increased in magnitude. The morning was grey and cloudy but the breeze was comfortable and you know, sunlight was just shining through without the heat. It felt good. You know the sun will shine through later.
On an abnormal note, the burst of emotions can relief huge amounts of stressed piled up for some people. For me, i just remained too calm, too cold. I barely showed any emotion or shed a tear but inside me, i was just tearing up, entirely devastated by my own idiotic imagination. I felt that as per every other times, God was trying to take away things that doesn't belong to me, maybe because i don't deserve it, maybe i never had it, maybe... However, the love built in this short span has the elasticity and strength to withstand all these and it just emerged stronger. I'm enjoying more than ever. The joy of being in each other's arms just greatly increased in magnitude. The morning was grey and cloudy but the breeze was comfortable and you know, sunlight was just shining through without the heat. It felt good. You know the sun will shine through later.
Friday, March 16, 2007
Anger Management
Arguements are inevitable in relationships and i'm glad we haven't got much to argue. We have our occasionally over the board, taken too far sort of jokes but we know this doesn't affect how we feel about each other. I must say that the fear did set in when the silence slowly creeps into the discomfort zone but i know that for the love we share, it will end soon. The end hug was one of the most comfortable ever, to know that there's someone there to bear my nonsense, untimely silence and inability to take serious jokes.
Like we promised each other, we should always talk it through. Don't ever coop those anger inside you. Speaking about which, just got this email from "DGJ" on anger management, Enjoy!
When you occasionally have a really bad day, and you just need to take it out on someone, don't take it out on someone you know, take it out on someone you don't know. I was sitting at my desk when I remembered a phone call I'd forgotten to make. I found the number and dialled it. A man answered, saying "Hello." I politely said, "This is David. Could I please speak with Robert Campbell ?"
Suddenly a manic voice yelled out in my ear "Get the right f*ckin number!" and the phone was slammed down on me. I couldn't believe that anyone could be so rude. When I tracked down Robert's correct number to call him, I found that I had accidentally transposed the last two digits.
After hanging up with him, I decided to call the 'wrong' number again. When the same guy answered the phone, I yelled " You're a C*nt!" and hung up. I wrote his number down with the word 'C*nt' next to it, and put it in my desk drawer. Every couple of weeks, when I was paying bills or had a really badday, I'd call him up and yell, " You're a C*nt!" It always cheered me up.
When Caller ID was introduced, I thought my therapeutic 'C*nt' calling would have to stop. So, I called his number and said, "Hi, this is John Smith from BT. I'm calling to see if you're familiar with our Caller ID Program?"
He yelled "NO!" and slammed down the phone. I quickly called him back and said, "That's because you're a C*nt!"
One day I was at Lakeside Shopping Centre, getting ready to pull into a parking spot. Some guy in a gunmetal grey Land Rover cut me off and pulled into the spot I had patiently waited for. I hit the horn and yelled that I'd been waiting for that spot, but the idiot ignored me.
I noticed a "For Sale" sign in his back window, so I wrote down his number.
A couple of days later, right after calling the first C*nt (I had his number on speed dial,) I thought that I'd better call the Land Rover C*nt, too. I said, "Is this the man with the gunmetal grey Land Rover for sale?"
"Yes, it is", he said. "Can you tell me where I can see it?" I asked.
"Yes, I live at 129 Alice Street, in Ilford. It's a terraced house, and the car's parked right out in front."
"What's your name?" I asked. "My name is Steve Hansen," he said.
"When's a good time to catch you, Steve?" "I'm home most days as I'm currently unemployed."
"Listen, Steve, can I tell you something?" "Yes?" "Steve, you're a C*nt!" Then I hung up, and added his number to my speed dial, too.
Now, when I had a problem, I had two arseholes to call. Then I came up with an idea. I called C*nt #1.
Hello." "You're a C*nt!" (But I didn't hang up.)
"Are you still there?" he asked.
"Yeah," I said.
"Stop calling me," he screamed.
"Make me," I said.
"Who are you?" he asked.
"My name is Steve Hansen."
"Yeah? Where do you live?"
"C*nt, I live at 129 Alice Street, Ilford, a terraced house, with my gunmetal grey Land Rover parked out the front."
He said, "I'm coming over right now, Steve. And you had better start saying your prayers."
I said, "Yeah, like I'm really scared, C*nt," and hung up.
Then I called C*nt #2. "Hello?" he said.
"Hello, C*nt," I said.
He yelled, "If I ever find out who you are..."
"You'll what?" I said.
"I'll kick your arse," he exclaimed.
I answered, "Well, C*nt, here's your chance. I'm coming over right now."
Then I hung up and immediately called the police, saying that I lived at 129 Alice Street, Ilford , and that I was on my way over there to kill my gay lover. Then I called Channel 5 News about the hoodie war going down in Alice Street, Ilford.
I quickly got into my car and headed over to Alice Street. I got there just in time to watch two C*nts beating the crap out of each other in front of six police cars, an overhead police helicopter and a news crew.
NOW I feel much better.
Anger management really works...
Like we promised each other, we should always talk it through. Don't ever coop those anger inside you. Speaking about which, just got this email from "DGJ" on anger management, Enjoy!
When you occasionally have a really bad day, and you just need to take it out on someone, don't take it out on someone you know, take it out on someone you don't know. I was sitting at my desk when I remembered a phone call I'd forgotten to make. I found the number and dialled it. A man answered, saying "Hello." I politely said, "This is David. Could I please speak with Robert Campbell ?"
Suddenly a manic voice yelled out in my ear "Get the right f*ckin number!" and the phone was slammed down on me. I couldn't believe that anyone could be so rude. When I tracked down Robert's correct number to call him, I found that I had accidentally transposed the last two digits.
After hanging up with him, I decided to call the 'wrong' number again. When the same guy answered the phone, I yelled " You're a C*nt!" and hung up. I wrote his number down with the word 'C*nt' next to it, and put it in my desk drawer. Every couple of weeks, when I was paying bills or had a really badday, I'd call him up and yell, " You're a C*nt!" It always cheered me up.
When Caller ID was introduced, I thought my therapeutic 'C*nt' calling would have to stop. So, I called his number and said, "Hi, this is John Smith from BT. I'm calling to see if you're familiar with our Caller ID Program?"
He yelled "NO!" and slammed down the phone. I quickly called him back and said, "That's because you're a C*nt!"
One day I was at Lakeside Shopping Centre, getting ready to pull into a parking spot. Some guy in a gunmetal grey Land Rover cut me off and pulled into the spot I had patiently waited for. I hit the horn and yelled that I'd been waiting for that spot, but the idiot ignored me.
I noticed a "For Sale" sign in his back window, so I wrote down his number.
A couple of days later, right after calling the first C*nt (I had his number on speed dial,) I thought that I'd better call the Land Rover C*nt, too. I said, "Is this the man with the gunmetal grey Land Rover for sale?"
"Yes, it is", he said. "Can you tell me where I can see it?" I asked.
"Yes, I live at 129 Alice Street, in Ilford. It's a terraced house, and the car's parked right out in front."
"What's your name?" I asked. "My name is Steve Hansen," he said.
"When's a good time to catch you, Steve?" "I'm home most days as I'm currently unemployed."
"Listen, Steve, can I tell you something?" "Yes?" "Steve, you're a C*nt!" Then I hung up, and added his number to my speed dial, too.
Now, when I had a problem, I had two arseholes to call. Then I came up with an idea. I called C*nt #1.
Hello." "You're a C*nt!" (But I didn't hang up.)
"Are you still there?" he asked.
"Yeah," I said.
"Stop calling me," he screamed.
"Make me," I said.
"Who are you?" he asked.
"My name is Steve Hansen."
"Yeah? Where do you live?"
"C*nt, I live at 129 Alice Street, Ilford, a terraced house, with my gunmetal grey Land Rover parked out the front."
He said, "I'm coming over right now, Steve. And you had better start saying your prayers."
I said, "Yeah, like I'm really scared, C*nt," and hung up.
Then I called C*nt #2. "Hello?" he said.
"Hello, C*nt," I said.
He yelled, "If I ever find out who you are..."
"You'll what?" I said.
"I'll kick your arse," he exclaimed.
I answered, "Well, C*nt, here's your chance. I'm coming over right now."
Then I hung up and immediately called the police, saying that I lived at 129 Alice Street, Ilford , and that I was on my way over there to kill my gay lover. Then I called Channel 5 News about the hoodie war going down in Alice Street, Ilford.
I quickly got into my car and headed over to Alice Street. I got there just in time to watch two C*nts beating the crap out of each other in front of six police cars, an overhead police helicopter and a news crew.
NOW I feel much better.
Anger management really works...
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Blown Up Glove
Have you ever found yourself waking up early in the morning with a smile and a hand that looks like a blown up surgeon's glove sliding down your face, complete with "good morning" filled with morning breath? And yet you simply feel like the luckiest girl on earth?
I feel vulnerable, not in a bad way but i have no idea if it'll ever grow into something really nasty. When you can't get enough of someone and are in constant need to see or be in the company of one particular person, you risk getting too sticky for comfort; but when two person are sort of willingly sinking into this "you asked for it" vulnerability, it's actually enjoyable. We both know one day we'll just not feel the need to see or feel each other constantly; but right now, we're both just sunken in deep and can't quite get out of it... Do we even want to?
Right now, i'm just enjoying the moments we spend in the car on the way to work, when i just refuse to wake up and make an enormous fuss when some stupid alarm just couldn't go off, torturing myself with cold cold showers early in the morning! By cold cold shower i don't quite mean the extinguishing kind, but more of the freezing cold unheated water. It's a torture but to be able to see that face with that gayish smile, it's all worth it. I'm loving every moment of this.
One day we're be driving our Grand Vitara and pointing our middle finger at some sore driver who can't drive properly. We'll do our one click signal turnings and irritate the shit out of the other road users. We'll just go to work together even if it means there's pure silence. But we're aware and we can feel, the silence is actually comfortable in the midst of the mutual synchronicity.
I feel vulnerable, not in a bad way but i have no idea if it'll ever grow into something really nasty. When you can't get enough of someone and are in constant need to see or be in the company of one particular person, you risk getting too sticky for comfort; but when two person are sort of willingly sinking into this "you asked for it" vulnerability, it's actually enjoyable. We both know one day we'll just not feel the need to see or feel each other constantly; but right now, we're both just sunken in deep and can't quite get out of it... Do we even want to?
Right now, i'm just enjoying the moments we spend in the car on the way to work, when i just refuse to wake up and make an enormous fuss when some stupid alarm just couldn't go off, torturing myself with cold cold showers early in the morning! By cold cold shower i don't quite mean the extinguishing kind, but more of the freezing cold unheated water. It's a torture but to be able to see that face with that gayish smile, it's all worth it. I'm loving every moment of this.
One day we're be driving our Grand Vitara and pointing our middle finger at some sore driver who can't drive properly. We'll do our one click signal turnings and irritate the shit out of the other road users. We'll just go to work together even if it means there's pure silence. But we're aware and we can feel, the silence is actually comfortable in the midst of the mutual synchronicity.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
New Seat - Bad Bad Bad
My seat has changed again.
Now I'm not facing the sun nor is my big boss facing my screen but it's far worse. The whole world is facing my screen now. I can't even check my emails in peace now. Having the largest screen in the office is not helping either. My privacy is all gone. They are unwilling to put me in my favourite window seat for stupid reasons and now taking my away from the other seat but even more silly reasons. I'm feeling miserable. The sun in my eye was bad enough, now i have a reflective UFO looking thing in my eye. It's not making things any better though. From where i was, at least the sun wasn't that strong. Now, it's right in my eye. How clever. Was just telling "DGJ" how interesting it is to tell them I'll be resigning one day and the reason being "I'm stuck in a bad seat".
Seriously, it's not because I'm fussing about it, now can you work while seated in the most uncomfortable place in the whole wide world? Besides, your loud colleague is just right in front of you. With his voice amplifying your face, I'm almost sure i can't hear myself over phonecalls nor think and type properly in my emails. If you've heard the corny remarks he makes, you really wouldn't wanna be laughing to them.
Now I'm not facing the sun nor is my big boss facing my screen but it's far worse. The whole world is facing my screen now. I can't even check my emails in peace now. Having the largest screen in the office is not helping either. My privacy is all gone. They are unwilling to put me in my favourite window seat for stupid reasons and now taking my away from the other seat but even more silly reasons. I'm feeling miserable. The sun in my eye was bad enough, now i have a reflective UFO looking thing in my eye. It's not making things any better though. From where i was, at least the sun wasn't that strong. Now, it's right in my eye. How clever. Was just telling "DGJ" how interesting it is to tell them I'll be resigning one day and the reason being "I'm stuck in a bad seat".
Seriously, it's not because I'm fussing about it, now can you work while seated in the most uncomfortable place in the whole wide world? Besides, your loud colleague is just right in front of you. With his voice amplifying your face, I'm almost sure i can't hear myself over phonecalls nor think and type properly in my emails. If you've heard the corny remarks he makes, you really wouldn't wanna be laughing to them.
Monday, March 12, 2007
Office Expansion
Guess it's good that my office has just doubled in terms of size over the weekend. That will also mean that I'll be doing real recruitment jobs and more people will be hired doing the support work. Frankly, I'm not exactly enjoying this. My back is facing the door, extremely bad fengshui, not that it matters but that will mean that I'm actually looking at the nice view with the sun in my eyes and after a while, i keep seeing stars. It's really bad for my eyes and i should be like wearing sunnies or something while I'm working. I hate it. I feel miserable. My big boss happen to be sitting right behind me as well, and really, haven't got much to hide just superbly uncomfortable to have everyone looking at your screen. It feels invasive and i feel bare. My heart is constantly beating real hard with fear that someone might just pounce up on me of a sudden. Now i know what it means by bad fengshui. You're so emotionally affected, you can't really work. I genuinely hate it. I never hated something so much for a long time. I'm risking my damned life to be blogging this but i don't care because this will be the last time I'm doing this. If I'm doing to be pinned for taking 5 mins doing what i want, I'd be out of the door sooner than you think.
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Music and Lyrics
I won't say that this movie is a must watch but unless you love Hugh Grant. Look, which girls don't actually take a second look at this guy, you've got to admit he looks fabbo for his age. At 40, all men should look like this. Then again, it'd be like a gay city. It's a relief to know he still like sex, with women of course. Behind closed doors may be that i would never know and have no intentions of finding out. The show is more of Hugh Grant than Drew Barrymore. Well at least to me, she's more like a support than the lead. Of course, i'm biased, he's cute and i can't resist a charming chiselled looking, blue eye bloke.
In modern times, we always look at songs as music plus lyrics but have we forgotten the Bach and Beethoven? Lyrics have played many crucial roles in the lives of you and me. Well at least to me, as you can see from the previous posts, i've never undermined the power of lyrics and the impact it creates. "Would you lie with me and just forget the world" talks about my inner desire yet came through when "Chubby Teddy" appeared and you wouldn't believe how much it digs into me and how strongly i feel for the meanings of the song on a different level. It's like a hidden yet blatant desire and now, fulfilled. I'm sorry i don't quite sound coherant right now and like many other times, i never try to be simply because i'm writing this blog like the way i feel at this instant and you should be able to imagine me telling you this as if i'm putting down a narration in black and white.
Music and lyrics are like Yin and Yang and it'll go hand in hand. Cheesy as it may sound, i'm sure there're lyrics to the most classical and instrumental pieces around. They all tell a story, whether we see it, feel it, relate to it, is a totally separate issue. They all have moods, emotions, up and downs, you just have to search within yourself for the lyrics that should go with the music of your heart.
I found my lyrics, have you found your music?
In modern times, we always look at songs as music plus lyrics but have we forgotten the Bach and Beethoven? Lyrics have played many crucial roles in the lives of you and me. Well at least to me, as you can see from the previous posts, i've never undermined the power of lyrics and the impact it creates. "Would you lie with me and just forget the world" talks about my inner desire yet came through when "Chubby Teddy" appeared and you wouldn't believe how much it digs into me and how strongly i feel for the meanings of the song on a different level. It's like a hidden yet blatant desire and now, fulfilled. I'm sorry i don't quite sound coherant right now and like many other times, i never try to be simply because i'm writing this blog like the way i feel at this instant and you should be able to imagine me telling you this as if i'm putting down a narration in black and white.
Music and lyrics are like Yin and Yang and it'll go hand in hand. Cheesy as it may sound, i'm sure there're lyrics to the most classical and instrumental pieces around. They all tell a story, whether we see it, feel it, relate to it, is a totally separate issue. They all have moods, emotions, up and downs, you just have to search within yourself for the lyrics that should go with the music of your heart.
I found my lyrics, have you found your music?
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Getting A Heart Attack!
To have steamboat for dinner is always comforting and satisfying. To have it with fun people just topped it in the charts. Found a fellow bottomless pit, while the others stare aimlessly into space with their tummies bloated with an overload of food, both of us just smiled and kept eating ignoring the boredom on their faces.
The steamboat happened the night before and the whole of yesterday since steamboat till now, i had this pain in my chest and i had difficulty breathing. Doctor told me it could just be bronchitis but i still gotta watch out for tingling sensation on my fingertips or on my left hand cuz that might mean i'm on my way to a cardiac arrest and should be at the A&E immediately.
Every morning should just start like this morning. Arriving early for work, seeing the person you love, get your daily supply of hugs and kisses, followed by good breakfast. It's all good till you get just one irritating bugger turning up the volume of the radio, not that the music is bad, but the selfish nature of not sparing a thought for other people, really pissed me off. How i wish some things remained the way it began. It doesn't affect me as much that some people leave a part of my life but it's the entrance of unwelcomed people. I tried to accept some things or people with an open heart but they just continue to prick you every now and then till you get unbearably pissed, you just switch off and ignore. Now, i can't be bothered. I'm just feeling more and more miserable as time passes.
Why can't we just have drinks on Friday?
The steamboat happened the night before and the whole of yesterday since steamboat till now, i had this pain in my chest and i had difficulty breathing. Doctor told me it could just be bronchitis but i still gotta watch out for tingling sensation on my fingertips or on my left hand cuz that might mean i'm on my way to a cardiac arrest and should be at the A&E immediately.
Every morning should just start like this morning. Arriving early for work, seeing the person you love, get your daily supply of hugs and kisses, followed by good breakfast. It's all good till you get just one irritating bugger turning up the volume of the radio, not that the music is bad, but the selfish nature of not sparing a thought for other people, really pissed me off. How i wish some things remained the way it began. It doesn't affect me as much that some people leave a part of my life but it's the entrance of unwelcomed people. I tried to accept some things or people with an open heart but they just continue to prick you every now and then till you get unbearably pissed, you just switch off and ignore. Now, i can't be bothered. I'm just feeling more and more miserable as time passes.
Why can't we just have drinks on Friday?
Monday, March 05, 2007
Yum Yum Lunch
We have a new colleague in our office today, our brand new admin assistant. Round of applause... For me! I'm so glad the load is slowly being removed from my puny shoulders. Talking about that, i need to do something about my stiff shoulders. I'm wondering would the culprit be my pillow, my sitting posture, my keyboard with super short wiring or my bra straps. Whatever it is, my shoulders are aching and i feel terrible. I'm going to get new pillows, new keyboard, new bras and make sure this situation improve. I can't possibly sit here for 10 hours bearing the unbelieveable ache, it's impossible and insane. Should you be aware of any other cause of aching neck, please tell me.
Lunch was alright today. As usual, with every new colleague joining us, we'll go out for lunch. Went to Fullerton today, wasn't my first visit there and knew exactly what i wanted before i even got there, i can't resist good beef. Will upload picture when i get home.
My plans to go Bangkok during the Good Friday weekend was almost changed when Monkey suggested, or rather, coerced us to go Hong Kong instead. Frankly, i'm tempted but the factors holding me back would be the cost and of course, i'll get to go to Hong Kong end of this year again with my company if my boss decide to fly us up again like they've been doing for the past 2 years (For me, last year). So we've decided to stick to our Bangkok plans for now.
Lunch was alright today. As usual, with every new colleague joining us, we'll go out for lunch. Went to Fullerton today, wasn't my first visit there and knew exactly what i wanted before i even got there, i can't resist good beef. Will upload picture when i get home.
My plans to go Bangkok during the Good Friday weekend was almost changed when Monkey suggested, or rather, coerced us to go Hong Kong instead. Frankly, i'm tempted but the factors holding me back would be the cost and of course, i'll get to go to Hong Kong end of this year again with my company if my boss decide to fly us up again like they've been doing for the past 2 years (For me, last year). So we've decided to stick to our Bangkok plans for now.
Sunday, March 04, 2007
My New Evo Looking Black iPod Nano
Sorry Jem, couldn't make it to hard rock last night. Promise it won't happen again. I feel so bad.
I slept really early last night, before i even got to brush my teeth, i simply dozed off. Meaning, i never intended to zzz off but was just too tired. It's been a hectic week but i'm enjoying every minute of it. Later in the morning, we're bringing "Purple Pony Princess" for breakfast and ice-cream yippee! Well, ice-cream for breakfast, doesn't it sound like somthing i always do? Haha, i've gotta admit, i'm a weirdo!
My new phone had been servicing me well for the past 24 hours and it's really fun. Well, i got myself into the "irritate myself to death" shit when i bought the idiotic, un-user friendly Samsung. I'm glad i'm back to my SonyEricsson.
BTW, i got my Nano! The 8gB black and fierce, Evo looking iPod. Haven't got a chance to use it yet but i thought it came as a great deal cuz they gave me a $64 voucher which i used it to get the earphones. Think it's way cool. Now, go out and get it!
Think i wanna go back and catch some zzzs before breakfast.
I slept really early last night, before i even got to brush my teeth, i simply dozed off. Meaning, i never intended to zzz off but was just too tired. It's been a hectic week but i'm enjoying every minute of it. Later in the morning, we're bringing "Purple Pony Princess" for breakfast and ice-cream yippee! Well, ice-cream for breakfast, doesn't it sound like somthing i always do? Haha, i've gotta admit, i'm a weirdo!
My new phone had been servicing me well for the past 24 hours and it's really fun. Well, i got myself into the "irritate myself to death" shit when i bought the idiotic, un-user friendly Samsung. I'm glad i'm back to my SonyEricsson.
BTW, i got my Nano! The 8gB black and fierce, Evo looking iPod. Haven't got a chance to use it yet but i thought it came as a great deal cuz they gave me a $64 voucher which i used it to get the earphones. Think it's way cool. Now, go out and get it!
Think i wanna go back and catch some zzzs before breakfast.
Friday, March 02, 2007
I'm Psychopathic!
| You Are 72% Abnormal |
 You are at high risk for being a psychopath. It is very likely that you have no soul. You are at high risk for having a borderline personality. It is very likely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at high risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is very likely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at high risk for having a social phobia. It is very likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer. |
| How You Are In Love |
 You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You give completely and unconditionally in relationships. You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. |
Care Bear Cousin: Playful Heart Monkey
Went for dinner with Dad, Mom, my favourite cousin and her two adorable daughters like night. Yes, the 2 of them were "the usual suspects". I hang out with them most of the time, well until "Chubby Teddy" took my weekends away from them. Well i didn't neglect them because of that, it's due to the discomfort of other factors now but i want you guys to know i still love you guys.
After dinner, we just shopped around and i came upon a huge, not gigantic but huge Monkey Care Bear. I've always loved Care Bear but never quite paid much attention to Care Bear cousins but the MONKEY!!! Well, FYI, i was born in the year of the Golden Monkey and i'm pretty much like a monkey. I can't keep still still and i can be relly mischeivous. I hate to say this but i'm as intelligent as well. Wahahaha!!! It's yellow and really caught my attention.
What really shocked me was Dad actually asked me if i wanted it. Dad had never quite gotten me toys and i really apreciate the gesture. Dad, being a fair Dad, will give my brother that amount in cash. I'm glad i got the toy because i've been looking for a nice toy which i can hug to sleep and this couldn't have came at a better time and for once i can say, "Dad got me this!". I love my Dad. Will post a picture on the toy once it's feasible.
After dinner, we just shopped around and i came upon a huge, not gigantic but huge Monkey Care Bear. I've always loved Care Bear but never quite paid much attention to Care Bear cousins but the MONKEY!!! Well, FYI, i was born in the year of the Golden Monkey and i'm pretty much like a monkey. I can't keep still still and i can be relly mischeivous. I hate to say this but i'm as intelligent as well. Wahahaha!!! It's yellow and really caught my attention.
What really shocked me was Dad actually asked me if i wanted it. Dad had never quite gotten me toys and i really apreciate the gesture. Dad, being a fair Dad, will give my brother that amount in cash. I'm glad i got the toy because i've been looking for a nice toy which i can hug to sleep and this couldn't have came at a better time and for once i can say, "Dad got me this!". I love my Dad. Will post a picture on the toy once it's feasible.
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
You Have Munchausen Syndrome!
You know who you are and you're suffering from this. I wish you never get to read this because i never intended for you to read my blog. But somehow, i think you do read my blog and you found out using some underhand, unscrupulous method to get here. I'm telling you that you're suffering from Munchausen Syndrome! I read about this syndrome during law school but forgot it actually existed. It suddenly came to me, there is such a syndrome and you're a victim of it. Go see a shrink!
For those of you who's wondering what the fuck is Munchausen Syndrome, it's a type of fictitious mental disorder. People suffering from Munchausen will feign disease or illness to fish for sympathy. It may not be entirely false but there's always plenty of room for exaggeration.
I know you're just full of shit and feigning it. I know that so stop trying to bullshit me and stop your constant need for sympathy. You do not fucking deserve it and i do not fucking care. Go fucking far away from me!
For those of you who's wondering what the fuck is Munchausen Syndrome, it's a type of fictitious mental disorder. People suffering from Munchausen will feign disease or illness to fish for sympathy. It may not be entirely false but there's always plenty of room for exaggeration.
I know you're just full of shit and feigning it. I know that so stop trying to bullshit me and stop your constant need for sympathy. You do not fucking deserve it and i do not fucking care. Go fucking far away from me!
Show Me The Money!
Once again, it's Mom's birthday. This year, we'll be having a scrumptious one with the usual suspects.
That's not the good news i've intended to deliver though. According to my boss, i'll be moving to do REAL work when the wall comes down end March but even better, i'm getting my own assistant. I'm thrilled!
Well, she'll technically be everyone's assistant but she's be taking over all my mundane jobs and i'll be moving on to do the big money making deals. I can so hear the ka-ching now. Then again, my credit card bill didn't quite succeed in surprising me this month. Well, it's not so much that i underspend because i've anticipated from the pre & post Chinese New Year shopping frenzy that i'll be on the gullotine real soon. Fortunately, i've got an unexpected little bonus and two big amounts from some merchants didn't quite meet off the cut off time set by our friend, Citibank, so it wasn't reflected on my current statement. However, "Chubby Teddy" gently reminded me that it's just like impending death, you'll just be like waiting for next month to die so i better not splurge my puny bonus on some state-of-the-art gadget. Maybe i'll just camp here for my iPhone.
Went to Jheraton last night and we ended up just bluetoothing each other. How exciting. If you think i've spelled Sheraton wrongly, that's not true. It's intentional. Well, we're all J so some monkey is going to name his kids, Jerk and Jitch oh and maybe Jee-bye. Wahaha i swear we were insane but i must say, it was fun. "Monkey" and "BR" can be so shitty but the fun that came with it, it's worth getting kicked on your shin!!!
That's not the good news i've intended to deliver though. According to my boss, i'll be moving to do REAL work when the wall comes down end March but even better, i'm getting my own assistant. I'm thrilled!
Well, she'll technically be everyone's assistant but she's be taking over all my mundane jobs and i'll be moving on to do the big money making deals. I can so hear the ka-ching now. Then again, my credit card bill didn't quite succeed in surprising me this month. Well, it's not so much that i underspend because i've anticipated from the pre & post Chinese New Year shopping frenzy that i'll be on the gullotine real soon. Fortunately, i've got an unexpected little bonus and two big amounts from some merchants didn't quite meet off the cut off time set by our friend, Citibank, so it wasn't reflected on my current statement. However, "Chubby Teddy" gently reminded me that it's just like impending death, you'll just be like waiting for next month to die so i better not splurge my puny bonus on some state-of-the-art gadget. Maybe i'll just camp here for my iPhone.
Went to Jheraton last night and we ended up just bluetoothing each other. How exciting. If you think i've spelled Sheraton wrongly, that's not true. It's intentional. Well, we're all J so some monkey is going to name his kids, Jerk and Jitch oh and maybe Jee-bye. Wahaha i swear we were insane but i must say, it was fun. "Monkey" and "BR" can be so shitty but the fun that came with it, it's worth getting kicked on your shin!!!
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
And I Thought I Was Like 99% Vainpot.
| You Are 62% Vain |
 You're a little vain, but you also work hard for your good looks. Just remember, everyone knows you are a total hottie. You don't have to remind them. |
Monday, February 26, 2007
The Pursuit Of Happyness
It's been such a typical Monday morning. Everything felt lazy and sedate until you click Send/Receive on your Outlook, only to get tons of emails coming in without a stopper. Subsequently, you'll go into this mad no break working frenzy then of a sudden, you'll realise, hey i need my breakfast or my morning tea. Getting those feet to walk to the pantry was torturous. Then i look back, how the weekend actually went, it sent a smile across my face. It wasn't exciting or exceptional, it was as sedate if not even more lethargic. All i wanted to do was to lie in bed and not get up. The temptation of McDonald's breakfast didn't quite succeed.
It can't get any better than waking up slowly to catch the next show and aptly titled, The Pursuit Of Happyness. It wasn't one of those superbly brilliant shows but I'll recommend it just because it's a touching story based on the real life of Chris Gardner. Will Smith did a great job together with his son Jaden. The most touching scene had to be the one they hid in the "cave", running away from the rest of the world seeking shelter in a toilet. It will trigger some soft spot if not your tears. Go watch it and tell me what you think.
I found my happyness by just staying in bed whole day long...
It can't get any better than waking up slowly to catch the next show and aptly titled, The Pursuit Of Happyness. It wasn't one of those superbly brilliant shows but I'll recommend it just because it's a touching story based on the real life of Chris Gardner. Will Smith did a great job together with his son Jaden. The most touching scene had to be the one they hid in the "cave", running away from the rest of the world seeking shelter in a toilet. It will trigger some soft spot if not your tears. Go watch it and tell me what you think.
I found my happyness by just staying in bed whole day long...
Bathroom Habits
| What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You |
 You are a very considerate person, but that doesn't mean you let people walk all over you. You spend a lot on clothes, and you tend to be a very dresser. However, it's hard for you to throw away trendy clothes when they go out of style. You are a very outgoing person. You are true to yourself, and you never hold back. In relationships, you tend to be very romantic and demanding. You'll treat your partner like gold, but you expect a lot in return. |
Friday, February 23, 2007
We Shall Go For Drinks...
Chinese New Year had always been alot of fun and endless gambling. This year was just weird. It's not so much that i can't go visiting or the drop in red packet collection, it's just lifeless. The gambling were boring, the people were all troubled and i eventually escaped to KL for a short break. KL was fine but i can't believe that i didn't even buy anything, not even a pair of shoes. I'm amazed with myself. I think the mood just wasn't right.
Few people came back for CNY. "Oscarised" and "Gentle Giant" were both stuck in Sydney. "NY Dweller" came back but i merely met him once to collect the shopping i managed to do sitting at home but needed him to lug it all back for me. It's weird to know that "Mr Bright" and "NY Dweller" were once schoolmates. I've always tried to keep in contact with "ND" by calling him during the weirdest hour and grumbling about everything. Until one day he went like, "you know i'm dating someone, don't you?". Well how am i suppose to know if you never mentioned it? Not like it really matter. The only difference was prior to any calls, i'll ask if he could speak. Sounds like an underground affair right. No, it's not. He's just got a ________(fill in the blank) girlfriend. If he doesn't pick up, i know his gf is just near him or he's over at her place. For God's sake, pick up the phone! I'm just a regular friend, making a regular phonecall to check if you're alright, not too stressed with work, not arguing with your gf or something.
Well he's back. We planned to meet up for dinner. Didn't quite work out. Might meet him for drinks, if he doesn't cancel it at the very last minute. According to him, i've got 2% of his time and it's a really GREAT deal. All i wanted was to catch up with you. Well, it might be better off just calling you fortnightly. At the evry least, you had time to talk.
Few people came back for CNY. "Oscarised" and "Gentle Giant" were both stuck in Sydney. "NY Dweller" came back but i merely met him once to collect the shopping i managed to do sitting at home but needed him to lug it all back for me. It's weird to know that "Mr Bright" and "NY Dweller" were once schoolmates. I've always tried to keep in contact with "ND" by calling him during the weirdest hour and grumbling about everything. Until one day he went like, "you know i'm dating someone, don't you?". Well how am i suppose to know if you never mentioned it? Not like it really matter. The only difference was prior to any calls, i'll ask if he could speak. Sounds like an underground affair right. No, it's not. He's just got a ________(fill in the blank) girlfriend. If he doesn't pick up, i know his gf is just near him or he's over at her place. For God's sake, pick up the phone! I'm just a regular friend, making a regular phonecall to check if you're alright, not too stressed with work, not arguing with your gf or something.
Well he's back. We planned to meet up for dinner. Didn't quite work out. Might meet him for drinks, if he doesn't cancel it at the very last minute. According to him, i've got 2% of his time and it's a really GREAT deal. All i wanted was to catch up with you. Well, it might be better off just calling you fortnightly. At the evry least, you had time to talk.
Monday, February 19, 2007
F.R.I.E.N.D.S
How many of us can actually hum to the tune of "I'll Be There For You"? How many of us can actually remember the episode that Ross went to the sun tan parlour to get a tan and ended like looking at a sun burnt Greek bloke? How about the episode which Chandler, while trying to get into the advertising industry, thought of all the funny taglines like "Donuts, Bagels but with a hole in the middle." or "Pen. Pencil but permanent." Well can't remember the exact line though... When we were younger, do the girls around you fight over who's going to be Monica or Rachel and who else is an absolute Phoebe? I'm sure at some point in time, we were all capable of singing "Smelly Cat".
When i was much younger, i used to discuss with my best friends, how our apartment is going to be like and the essence of having a common apartment was portrayed in FRIENDS, simply being with your closest friends and share your lives together and to grow up through endless arguements. This is just not realistic in real life due to the high cost of living and mundane stufs and the reality of arguements actually ruining the friendship overnight.
Even if i could live in an apartment with my bestest friends, i might not do it simply because it's tough to be staying under one roof and the conflicts that arises may not serve to build the friendster but may destroy it. I don't really have OCD but i can be very particular with the general cleanliness of the house and such. I'm sure it's not going to be easy. I'd rather stay alone, how ironic.
When i was much younger, i used to discuss with my best friends, how our apartment is going to be like and the essence of having a common apartment was portrayed in FRIENDS, simply being with your closest friends and share your lives together and to grow up through endless arguements. This is just not realistic in real life due to the high cost of living and mundane stufs and the reality of arguements actually ruining the friendship overnight.
Even if i could live in an apartment with my bestest friends, i might not do it simply because it's tough to be staying under one roof and the conflicts that arises may not serve to build the friendster but may destroy it. I don't really have OCD but i can be very particular with the general cleanliness of the house and such. I'm sure it's not going to be easy. I'd rather stay alone, how ironic.
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Is True Love Possible?
How many of us can actually remember our first love?
How many of us actually forget how beautiful it was?
How many of us actually face objections from everywhere but still determined to go on? Is it possible to just hang on? Do we hang on to prove the world or is it just true love? I just wanna give those of you who are facing difficulties in life or in love, to have a little courage to do what your heart tells you. I took a step forward. Now, i'm actually smiling, something i haven't quite done it genuinely for a very long time.
Like myself, some people just seem bubbly and chirpy all the time on the outside but in actual fact, the pain that's going through the person, you can only guess but never find out.
When you need to cry, you have to cry. There's always someone out there willing to lend you the much needed listening ear and the warm comfy shoulder to lean on. However, you will have to make the first step to get out there, recognise the problem and find the solution. Many times, there may not necessarily be solutions readily available but when there's hope, there's always a brighter day tomorrow. The sun will always shine for us.
How many of us actually forget how beautiful it was?
How many of us actually face objections from everywhere but still determined to go on? Is it possible to just hang on? Do we hang on to prove the world or is it just true love? I just wanna give those of you who are facing difficulties in life or in love, to have a little courage to do what your heart tells you. I took a step forward. Now, i'm actually smiling, something i haven't quite done it genuinely for a very long time.
Like myself, some people just seem bubbly and chirpy all the time on the outside but in actual fact, the pain that's going through the person, you can only guess but never find out.
When you need to cry, you have to cry. There's always someone out there willing to lend you the much needed listening ear and the warm comfy shoulder to lean on. However, you will have to make the first step to get out there, recognise the problem and find the solution. Many times, there may not necessarily be solutions readily available but when there's hope, there's always a brighter day tomorrow. The sun will always shine for us.
Thursday, February 15, 2007
JJJJJJeeeeggggiiieee Dai Gah Jhe
When i first came into my current company, i was the happiest camper ever. The best ever colleagues, the best ever boss, the best ever Dai Gah Jhe. "DGJ" used to be a practising lawyer and has always struck me as a superbly intelligent person, fun to be with, excellent cook and a great mentor only second to my ex-boss, "GooLeeEr". "DGJ" is like the big sister whom i've never had who looks after me, shoosh me when my untame mouth leaks, brings me yummy pavlovas and pull me to meetings simply to help me pick up stuffs i should be learning but am not.
When i found out that she was leaving, my tears just came down like a running tap. The office is going to be so different. "GooLeeEr" left and the office has already evolved to a form i can't even recognise and on some days, dread coming in. Now that "DGJ" is going leave, don't think the office will change vastly but to me, my world will be altered. I don't want her to leave but i know she'll be much happier somewhere else. I can see myself running down to Boat Quay to whine and wine with her.
"DGJ" has got the nicest dress sense. She's one of the best cook i've ever come across. But most importantly, she's my "stairwell" buddy. Without her, my world will just lose the "it" in stuffs. Who can i bitch and complain to when i go to the stairwell in future? I guess life just has to move on but one thing i'm sure of is, "Once a DGJ, always a DGJ"
When i found out that she was leaving, my tears just came down like a running tap. The office is going to be so different. "GooLeeEr" left and the office has already evolved to a form i can't even recognise and on some days, dread coming in. Now that "DGJ" is going leave, don't think the office will change vastly but to me, my world will be altered. I don't want her to leave but i know she'll be much happier somewhere else. I can see myself running down to Boat Quay to whine and wine with her.
"DGJ" has got the nicest dress sense. She's one of the best cook i've ever come across. But most importantly, she's my "stairwell" buddy. Without her, my world will just lose the "it" in stuffs. Who can i bitch and complain to when i go to the stairwell in future? I guess life just has to move on but one thing i'm sure of is, "Once a DGJ, always a DGJ"
Chris...
I wasn't grumpy or anything dear. I was just too tired from work. In actual fact, i was elated to get your message. Happy Valentines' babe. You know i'll always miss you and have time for you. I understand it's tough to be there alone, without your Dad, Mom, Sis, Oscar, MEEEE!!!! But i'll always be here if you need to talk or rather, i'll haunt you down when you need to talk. Will call you soon, i promise. I have so much to tell you...
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Happy Valentines' Day
Initially i was in anticipation, then i decided not to put my hopes high so i won't get disappointed. You came and conquered me. You were standing there at 12 midnight, with the flowers and chocolates, and that silly smile of yours simply tells me that i'm such a lucky girl. One of my nephew,"Didi" once told me, chocolates and flowers are on top of the most unwelcomed gift list and i agreed with him then, but now i do think differently. The sender and his/her sincerity is of utmost importance, i'm telling you from first hand experience. Thank you for all the love you've been showering on me and i'm happily drowning in it.
Receiving flowers doesn't automatically equates to happiness. Got a bouquet from "Domestic Help Royalty" this morning and i wasn't even happy. In actual fact, i was vexed. Doesn't he get the message? I don't reply his smses or emails. That says alot.
Valentines' Day remains a girls' night out. We're intending to stuff ourselves then do further damage to our livers. Right now, everyday feels like Valentines' Day to me.
Receiving flowers doesn't automatically equates to happiness. Got a bouquet from "Domestic Help Royalty" this morning and i wasn't even happy. In actual fact, i was vexed. Doesn't he get the message? I don't reply his smses or emails. That says alot.
Valentines' Day remains a girls' night out. We're intending to stuff ourselves then do further damage to our livers. Right now, everyday feels like Valentines' Day to me.
Monday, February 12, 2007
Chasing Cars
I couldn't stop smiling ever since last night.
It's like a Porsche Cayenne, it's weird, it's nice, it's like a monster consuming you but you just wanna be in it. When you're in it, you feel protected, lucky and loved.
It's been a long time since my heart had beaten faster than a helicopter's rotors. It felt good. Well if i don't die from tachycardia that is.
It's such a wonderful feeling to be wrapped up, snuggled up to and protected from the unpleasantness of the mundane world.
I could get used to this...
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things
Will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
It's like a Porsche Cayenne, it's weird, it's nice, it's like a monster consuming you but you just wanna be in it. When you're in it, you feel protected, lucky and loved.
It's been a long time since my heart had beaten faster than a helicopter's rotors. It felt good. Well if i don't die from tachycardia that is.
It's such a wonderful feeling to be wrapped up, snuggled up to and protected from the unpleasantness of the mundane world.
I could get used to this...
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things
Will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Haven't Smiled Like This For A Long Time...
Why am i working at 4.30am on a Saturday morning? Why am i bothered to be clearing my emails from home? I guess it's all due to the very fact that i was ridiculously late today. Don't think i should elaborate on it but for once, i felt genuinely apologetic. It's just a bad day and i began the day a really bad way. I hope i'll bedoing real work soon...
Something happened today and it felt like it had not happen to me for a long time. It's weird, in a positive way. I can't say i'm confused, maybe just trying to be careful when it comes to what i categorise as important decisions in my life. At the same time, it's not that i don't want to put myself in a new and vulnerable position, i guess i'm just afraid to get hurt in the process. Maybe i should be more adventurous and not think too much. Besides, at this moment, i know i'm smiling from inside.
I think i should try to sleep before Singapore Zoo sends their headhunter to my place in search of a new panda for the zoo.
Something happened today and it felt like it had not happen to me for a long time. It's weird, in a positive way. I can't say i'm confused, maybe just trying to be careful when it comes to what i categorise as important decisions in my life. At the same time, it's not that i don't want to put myself in a new and vulnerable position, i guess i'm just afraid to get hurt in the process. Maybe i should be more adventurous and not think too much. Besides, at this moment, i know i'm smiling from inside.
I think i should try to sleep before Singapore Zoo sends their headhunter to my place in search of a new panda for the zoo.
Friday, February 09, 2007
I Didn't Fish For This Catfish...
Do we enjoy fishing inevitably?
I met this "Domestic Help Royalty" at the gym recently and subsequently, we just for lunch twice. I should know he's interested and just siam right but i didn't and said yes to lunch. The first one was alright but the second one was a torture. He's just geeky and seriously, not my type. He kept asking, so when are you going to quit drinking? Are you going to quit this quit that? I've only met him for lunch the second time and he's asking if i wanna quit this and that? Alright, off to the bin you go. Well you can't believe how persistant he became. He sends me emails automatically updating me the status of his internet access, his work, his coming trip, his dinner with his friends and it kept coming even if i didn't reply. Then he insisted he needed to get a gift for me for my graduation but i do not want a gift, at least not from him.
Then he called. I was really pissed and busy because i came into work really late today and i had so much on my palate, let alone it's really tough to talk when my boss is sitting just one arm length away from me??!! For the rest of the day, he just texted me NON STOP! HELP! Is there a way to tell him that i do not want to go out with him tactfully? I only want a normal, lunchtime friend. I do not want a bf, not him at least. I wasn't even fishing him. I swear i never gave out or sent the wrong messages. I didn't really sms either. He's getting my my nerves!!!
I met this "Domestic Help Royalty" at the gym recently and subsequently, we just for lunch twice. I should know he's interested and just siam right but i didn't and said yes to lunch. The first one was alright but the second one was a torture. He's just geeky and seriously, not my type. He kept asking, so when are you going to quit drinking? Are you going to quit this quit that? I've only met him for lunch the second time and he's asking if i wanna quit this and that? Alright, off to the bin you go. Well you can't believe how persistant he became. He sends me emails automatically updating me the status of his internet access, his work, his coming trip, his dinner with his friends and it kept coming even if i didn't reply. Then he insisted he needed to get a gift for me for my graduation but i do not want a gift, at least not from him.
Then he called. I was really pissed and busy because i came into work really late today and i had so much on my palate, let alone it's really tough to talk when my boss is sitting just one arm length away from me??!! For the rest of the day, he just texted me NON STOP! HELP! Is there a way to tell him that i do not want to go out with him tactfully? I only want a normal, lunchtime friend. I do not want a bf, not him at least. I wasn't even fishing him. I swear i never gave out or sent the wrong messages. I didn't really sms either. He's getting my my nerves!!!
Thursday, February 08, 2007
THE FAT CLUB
I've blogged about "The Fat Club" some time ago while talking to "Jit Eh Knight" then my computer screwed up and it was all deleted. Totally pissed. It was a really really long entry with detailed descriptions of all my big big brothers. After having mid-night dim sum which i really regretted having but enjoyed it nonetheless, I'm going to try to recreate a similar post and add in additional comments and a picture of them when i get home. What has dim-sum gotta do with these people right? That's because i was talking to "Mr Bright" and talked about these guys and realise how much memories there are behind us. You might find new and interesting stuffs everytime you come back to this post to read it again since i'm going to add more stuffs within this one or two days.
Here's a picture of most of the members of "The Fat Club",
"Tua Tao" aka "Razor Ramon" (7th from the left of top row - The Groom) is well-known for his rubber-band time. He got married recently and is having a ball in Shanghai right now. "Red Bean Soup", his wife, had stopped working and is now a full time wife shopping away in Shanghai. I wish i can be there... His wife is like the perfect person for him. Apart from her, nobody can possibily take the ridiculous shit from him. Don't be mistaken, he's not a bad person, in fact i think he's one of the smartest and matured person in the entire group and relatively more considerate than some idiots among us. His sister was my buddy in primary school so i kinda know his entire family, er sort of. Got closer to him since... I guess since i knew "Ketaya" and we made it a point to meet everyone after work to probably catch a movie and have dinner. "Ketaya" and "Tua Tao" had been friends since forever!
"Ketaya" (Second from the 1st Row) is the king of "The Fat Club" until "Gor Gor" took over. "Ketaya" may be big but he's a softee inside. He's probably the sweetest person in the group or rather the sweetest person i've ever known. He doesn't show it like the way he shows off his hundreds of gigabytes of "colourful" videos but i know, he's a man with the heart in the right place. It's a pity that he continues to make little progress in his love life. He's a really attractive person. His personality makes him a very popular figure among this group. You've gotta love this gentle giant.
"Gor Gor" (3rd from left of 1st Row) is "Sleazy Sweetie"'s big brother, as in the blood related sort. "Gor Gor" has been almost like a real big brother to me and sayang me like his real baby sis. I still have a text message he sent me that went, "U know wat? I still think u r a very misunderstood & sweet gal despite wat others say abt u. Like an uncut diamond! I wld hv pamper u to death if u r my real baby sis." We'd go to the KTV and he'll just sit there to listen to me sing, it's fun but can be embarrassing but what the heck right, they're all my big brothers. I try to pick up a couple of Jolin Tsai's song just to please him since he's totally in love with Jolin Tsai. I know he loves me like a big brother but DON'T ever try to matchmake me. Well, unless they meet the cut of the ultimate stringent Fat Club test. Ha!
I used to hate "Sleazy Sweetie" (Not in the picture due to RESERVIST - HAHA!) to the max. He never fails to irritate me, poke fun at me, suan me, disturb me but i know, deep down, he seriously cares for me. Whenever i'm down and out with all sorts of problems, he's always there to give me the hug that i desperately need and console me. But of course at the very same time, he'll grumble as to how stupid i can be to fall into certain traps when this bunch of guys have already set the extreme examples of what sort of tricks guys pull and hope guys go about misleading girls and why guys are such. He'll just say that i never learn then hug me then send me home. I'm glad he found his little Thai girl and that he's a happy man now. You're always be my shoulder, right?
"Jit Eh Knight" (3rd from Right - 1st Row) is the kind of guy you wish he's your boyfriend because he's just so understanding, sweet, considerate... But you sort of fall into the "friends zone" with him very comfortably faster than you know it. Well at least he's got like the sweetest gf on earth. She's a gem. they look perfect together and well, equally funny. Although "Jit Eh Knight" cracks jokes that makes you wanna pull all your hair off, you learn to appreciate his sort of humour and take left nipple jokes like a pinch of salt. (Have to say this before he murders me, he's not fat!)
"Dog Lover Egg" (Second from Right - 1st Row) is someone i'll always have fun with. We blast down the KTVs in Singapore, we sing like we've just escaped from IMH, the fun we had in KTVs are beyond words. He's someone who will sing, scream, laugh with me, ALL THE TIME. At the same time, we're like food buddies. We love food, all sorts, the more fattening, the better it is. Haha. He's hell of a joker and never fails to crack me up. He's got a Maltese that won so many competitions and has so much money that it had to get it's own bank account and the dog's already enough sponsorship to last it's lifetime. Dog's life. How ridiculous.
The 1st on the left of both rows, they're an entity, "Tai Tai In Making" and "Prank Meister". They're the funniest couple you'll ever meet. We will always come up with some sort of prank or idiotic plans. During Tua Tao's wedding, when the above picture was taken, "Prank Meister" came up with this wonderful plan to fool "Black Sheep" (The Fat Chubby thing on the right of the picture).
Apparently, "Black Sheep" was interested in one of the waitresses and under peer pressure, he gave his number to the girl. "Prank Meister" got me to call him since the poor boy hasn't got my number. Well, you see, he hates me cuz i fight with him over the last chicken wing ALL THE TIME. Well this chubby thing actually believed that i'm his "Siew Ling" and he never stopped texting me for the next two days. But i felt so bad the next day that we had to do our usual Simpang thing, get him out and told him the truth. You will never believe how hard we laughed. Poor chap.
The 4th head from the right is "Mr Nice Guy". He's "Gor Gor"'s best friend and he's like this big brother always looking out for me. He's always there, without fail, to man my bag when i go socialising and drinking at Balaclava or when i needed people to listen to me. Ya he's a man of few words and he always listens.
The other fatties who aren't in this picture, apart from "Sleazy Sweetie" will be "Filipino Husband" and "Civic-ing".
I guess it's not too much to say i grew up around "Filipino Husband". I think i knew him since forever and he used to stay just almost right opposite me. So i just got to shout and he'll pop his head out of the window and we'll talk. But he's happily married now so don't know him well enough at this point in time to be able to comment on anything. I just wish that he's happy.
"Civic-ing" is the skinniest among all of them and he always say he's very fit for a 30 year old man and i must say, he is. As far as my memory serve me, he's always been driving a Civic and he's getting a new one soon! He's like my personal cabby, whenever i'm lost i'll just call him and he'll be screaming, "what building do you see now?". He's my buddy and i love hanging out with him cuz he makes me laugh all the time with his silly brainless humour. Whenever i feel lonely and needed someone to have dinner with me, he's always there. But he never joins us for Simpang nowadays... Because he lives in reality time and we're all living in borrowed nocturnal time. He's a good man and i know life will be good to him.
I've tried rewrite this as much as i can remember from history. It may not be very well written because i'm mentally and physically exhausted these couple of days. But all of the above that i wrote, truly came within the voice inside me. I love the bunch of you and you guys have created lovely prints in my life which i'd love to have it with me all my life. This bunch of Big Gor Gors have always taken very good care of me like a baby sister. They've saved me from many empty lonely voids that i'd have never gotten out of without them. You guys are the BEST!
Here's a picture of most of the members of "The Fat Club",
"Tua Tao" aka "Razor Ramon" (7th from the left of top row - The Groom) is well-known for his rubber-band time. He got married recently and is having a ball in Shanghai right now. "Red Bean Soup", his wife, had stopped working and is now a full time wife shopping away in Shanghai. I wish i can be there... His wife is like the perfect person for him. Apart from her, nobody can possibily take the ridiculous shit from him. Don't be mistaken, he's not a bad person, in fact i think he's one of the smartest and matured person in the entire group and relatively more considerate than some idiots among us. His sister was my buddy in primary school so i kinda know his entire family, er sort of. Got closer to him since... I guess since i knew "Ketaya" and we made it a point to meet everyone after work to probably catch a movie and have dinner. "Ketaya" and "Tua Tao" had been friends since forever!
"Ketaya" (Second from the 1st Row) is the king of "The Fat Club" until "Gor Gor" took over. "Ketaya" may be big but he's a softee inside. He's probably the sweetest person in the group or rather the sweetest person i've ever known. He doesn't show it like the way he shows off his hundreds of gigabytes of "colourful" videos but i know, he's a man with the heart in the right place. It's a pity that he continues to make little progress in his love life. He's a really attractive person. His personality makes him a very popular figure among this group. You've gotta love this gentle giant.
"Gor Gor" (3rd from left of 1st Row) is "Sleazy Sweetie"'s big brother, as in the blood related sort. "Gor Gor" has been almost like a real big brother to me and sayang me like his real baby sis. I still have a text message he sent me that went, "U know wat? I still think u r a very misunderstood & sweet gal despite wat others say abt u. Like an uncut diamond! I wld hv pamper u to death if u r my real baby sis." We'd go to the KTV and he'll just sit there to listen to me sing, it's fun but can be embarrassing but what the heck right, they're all my big brothers. I try to pick up a couple of Jolin Tsai's song just to please him since he's totally in love with Jolin Tsai. I know he loves me like a big brother but DON'T ever try to matchmake me. Well, unless they meet the cut of the ultimate stringent Fat Club test. Ha!
I used to hate "Sleazy Sweetie" (Not in the picture due to RESERVIST - HAHA!) to the max. He never fails to irritate me, poke fun at me, suan me, disturb me but i know, deep down, he seriously cares for me. Whenever i'm down and out with all sorts of problems, he's always there to give me the hug that i desperately need and console me. But of course at the very same time, he'll grumble as to how stupid i can be to fall into certain traps when this bunch of guys have already set the extreme examples of what sort of tricks guys pull and hope guys go about misleading girls and why guys are such. He'll just say that i never learn then hug me then send me home. I'm glad he found his little Thai girl and that he's a happy man now. You're always be my shoulder, right?
"Jit Eh Knight" (3rd from Right - 1st Row) is the kind of guy you wish he's your boyfriend because he's just so understanding, sweet, considerate... But you sort of fall into the "friends zone" with him very comfortably faster than you know it. Well at least he's got like the sweetest gf on earth. She's a gem. they look perfect together and well, equally funny. Although "Jit Eh Knight" cracks jokes that makes you wanna pull all your hair off, you learn to appreciate his sort of humour and take left nipple jokes like a pinch of salt. (Have to say this before he murders me, he's not fat!)
"Dog Lover Egg" (Second from Right - 1st Row) is someone i'll always have fun with. We blast down the KTVs in Singapore, we sing like we've just escaped from IMH, the fun we had in KTVs are beyond words. He's someone who will sing, scream, laugh with me, ALL THE TIME. At the same time, we're like food buddies. We love food, all sorts, the more fattening, the better it is. Haha. He's hell of a joker and never fails to crack me up. He's got a Maltese that won so many competitions and has so much money that it had to get it's own bank account and the dog's already enough sponsorship to last it's lifetime. Dog's life. How ridiculous.
The 1st on the left of both rows, they're an entity, "Tai Tai In Making" and "Prank Meister". They're the funniest couple you'll ever meet. We will always come up with some sort of prank or idiotic plans. During Tua Tao's wedding, when the above picture was taken, "Prank Meister" came up with this wonderful plan to fool "Black Sheep" (The Fat Chubby thing on the right of the picture).
Apparently, "Black Sheep" was interested in one of the waitresses and under peer pressure, he gave his number to the girl. "Prank Meister" got me to call him since the poor boy hasn't got my number. Well, you see, he hates me cuz i fight with him over the last chicken wing ALL THE TIME. Well this chubby thing actually believed that i'm his "Siew Ling" and he never stopped texting me for the next two days. But i felt so bad the next day that we had to do our usual Simpang thing, get him out and told him the truth. You will never believe how hard we laughed. Poor chap.
The 4th head from the right is "Mr Nice Guy". He's "Gor Gor"'s best friend and he's like this big brother always looking out for me. He's always there, without fail, to man my bag when i go socialising and drinking at Balaclava or when i needed people to listen to me. Ya he's a man of few words and he always listens.
The other fatties who aren't in this picture, apart from "Sleazy Sweetie" will be "Filipino Husband" and "Civic-ing".
I guess it's not too much to say i grew up around "Filipino Husband". I think i knew him since forever and he used to stay just almost right opposite me. So i just got to shout and he'll pop his head out of the window and we'll talk. But he's happily married now so don't know him well enough at this point in time to be able to comment on anything. I just wish that he's happy.
"Civic-ing" is the skinniest among all of them and he always say he's very fit for a 30 year old man and i must say, he is. As far as my memory serve me, he's always been driving a Civic and he's getting a new one soon! He's like my personal cabby, whenever i'm lost i'll just call him and he'll be screaming, "what building do you see now?". He's my buddy and i love hanging out with him cuz he makes me laugh all the time with his silly brainless humour. Whenever i feel lonely and needed someone to have dinner with me, he's always there. But he never joins us for Simpang nowadays... Because he lives in reality time and we're all living in borrowed nocturnal time. He's a good man and i know life will be good to him.
I've tried rewrite this as much as i can remember from history. It may not be very well written because i'm mentally and physically exhausted these couple of days. But all of the above that i wrote, truly came within the voice inside me. I love the bunch of you and you guys have created lovely prints in my life which i'd love to have it with me all my life. This bunch of Big Gor Gors have always taken very good care of me like a baby sister. They've saved me from many empty lonely voids that i'd have never gotten out of without them. You guys are the BEST!
原点 - 现在他在你的身边就对他好一点
拥抱的时候心情有点痛
也去提早感受到寂寞
离开的时候只听见沉默
除了沉默我还能怎么做选择
别对我抱歉别总觉得对我亏欠
现在他在你的身边就对他好一点
不要再让你们的爱败给了时间
既然遇见了永远就不要说再见
不要再让你们的爱输给了永远
我们经过那么多考验
最后还是回到了原点
总有那一天相遇的瞬间
确定那些冷漠的从前已走远
别对我抱歉别总觉得对我亏欠
现在谁在你的身边就对谁好一点
我应该就走开就算感情还在
我应该就放开对他不再依赖
忘了曾有过的片段这是属于你们的未来
不要看到你们的爱败给了时间
我能愿选择离别没有一句怨言
直到你能若无其事聊起了从前
我才发现彼此都了解
默契是最宝贵的语言
也去提早感受到寂寞
离开的时候只听见沉默
除了沉默我还能怎么做选择
别对我抱歉别总觉得对我亏欠
现在他在你的身边就对他好一点
不要再让你们的爱败给了时间
既然遇见了永远就不要说再见
不要再让你们的爱输给了永远
我们经过那么多考验
最后还是回到了原点
总有那一天相遇的瞬间
确定那些冷漠的从前已走远
别对我抱歉别总觉得对我亏欠
现在谁在你的身边就对谁好一点
我应该就走开就算感情还在
我应该就放开对他不再依赖
忘了曾有过的片段这是属于你们的未来
不要看到你们的爱败给了时间
我能愿选择离别没有一句怨言
直到你能若无其事聊起了从前
我才发现彼此都了解
默契是最宝贵的语言
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Happy Birthday to The Funniest Boss Ever
Happy Birthday, "Comedy Boss"!
It's the birthday of my Singapore office's boss. The last year, it must have been a great year for him since, he's got a new baby and of course, he hired me! Well, not forgetting the big placements he made and tolerating me whenever i come in late.
"Comedy Boss", if you ever read this while spying on me, it's been great working with you and for you. I'll try to do it better but i can't promise i'll be early everyday. In this coming year, have more fun, make more money and probably try for another baby. When you're so free to be reading this, it's about time you gave me a raise!
Carpe diem!
It's the birthday of my Singapore office's boss. The last year, it must have been a great year for him since, he's got a new baby and of course, he hired me! Well, not forgetting the big placements he made and tolerating me whenever i come in late.
"Comedy Boss", if you ever read this while spying on me, it's been great working with you and for you. I'll try to do it better but i can't promise i'll be early everyday. In this coming year, have more fun, make more money and probably try for another baby. When you're so free to be reading this, it's about time you gave me a raise!
Carpe diem!
Monday, February 05, 2007
V Day Refugee
We were so late today. Met BR on the train and we both have puffy, swollen eyes. Anyone can tell we're terribly sleep deprived. Serve us right for watching TV till the wee hours on this only night that we can rest our livers from all the alcohol during the week. At the rate we're NOT resting, i doubt our livers will see any improvement.
BR, i don't care if you're going to "old folks home" on Valentines' Day but i'm extending my invitation to you to spend it with me. Alright, i'm pathetically appealing to you to spend it with me. C'mon, take pity in me. I don't wanna spend V Day looking at idiots madly in love walking around and i can't find a place to sit down for dinner. Maybe we should just come out and get some alcohol in our systems and go home for an early night. Well, i know you will be immersed in your bed of roses with "o'folk", i'm just trying my luck.
I do not want to spend my V Day with "Domestic Help Royalty"! If anyone of you have plans, mahjong or bowling or pool or alcohol or movies, just bring me along and save me from all the torture. Otherwise, i'll just have to say yes to "Domestic Help Royalty" and go on another unexciting date with him. It's so sad to be screaming "DATE ME!" on the internet and i'm still being picky here with whom i wanna spend it with.
You know what, i'll buy some popcorn and stay at home to watch the DVDs i've bought 2000 years ago and haven't got a chance to watch.
BR, i don't care if you're going to "old folks home" on Valentines' Day but i'm extending my invitation to you to spend it with me. Alright, i'm pathetically appealing to you to spend it with me. C'mon, take pity in me. I don't wanna spend V Day looking at idiots madly in love walking around and i can't find a place to sit down for dinner. Maybe we should just come out and get some alcohol in our systems and go home for an early night. Well, i know you will be immersed in your bed of roses with "o'folk", i'm just trying my luck.
I do not want to spend my V Day with "Domestic Help Royalty"! If anyone of you have plans, mahjong or bowling or pool or alcohol or movies, just bring me along and save me from all the torture. Otherwise, i'll just have to say yes to "Domestic Help Royalty" and go on another unexciting date with him. It's so sad to be screaming "DATE ME!" on the internet and i'm still being picky here with whom i wanna spend it with.
You know what, i'll buy some popcorn and stay at home to watch the DVDs i've bought 2000 years ago and haven't got a chance to watch.
Jesus Take The Wheel
Today was pretty aimless except for BR's effort to get enough people to satisfy our mahjong crave. Mahjong urge was satisfied with painful loss of instant cash. It's just part and parcel of gambling i guess and i'm all ready for it. Chinese New Year is expected to be alot worse than this. The past few years, the amount of loss and winnings on our family's in between games was enough to give anyone a small fortune. I must admit i've donated quite a bit there. All in all, it's all good fun.
The biggest loss today was to be my brother's paymaster for his Chinese New Year shopping. He's still studying part time and his miserly pay wasn't enough to pay for new clothes so i thought i'll be a nice sister to get him stuffs. I didn't quite hear the thank you i was expecting to hear but i felt happy that i could provide for my family now though not in a big way, i'll just start small.
I'm at this crossroad that i don't want to rush my life. My career is barely a career but i hope i can do it bit by bit and build my "empire". I hope i can excel in what i'm doing because i've decided to stay where i am and do something i like. I remember seeing this from somewhere, "Love your job and you won't have to work a single day in your life". I can't say i'm loving my job right now because there's just so much that i have to do and i think i can do alot more than that but it's a stepping stone and inevitably part of the learning process. I will grit my teeth and get over this and i shall emerge a winner. I want and will be a winner.
My love life is barely in existence. Valentines' Day is just round the corner and the sms from my "Jie Mei" selling roses just seem like it's laughing into my face. There was one year, my "Jie Mei" sent me flowers for V Day because i never seem to get past a V Day without being alone yet again. I told "Miss Flower" that some women do long to be in a relationship sometimes just because we desire to be in one and you may not even love the player of the game at all. Maybe it's just sour grapes because i haven't found the player to this games. We all want to find someone who will pamper us and love us, how many of us have found them and realise that we like them as well. I would give my everything but if there's only someone who would want to take this everything. Few would, those who would just doesn't encourage me to want to pass them my all. Haven't i come to an age that i should just be less choosy? Beggers can't be choosers, ain't it? I wish someone can just hold my hand, he's someone i can look at everyday as i wake up from my bed and hope i'll just stay in bed for another second just because he's there with me. Some people will never be the person whom you would want to spend your Sunday mornings sunggling with, some people just choose not to.
I'm tired of this game. I don't want to be a pawn or even the game. I don't want to be a player. I just want to be a part of you and your life. You'e someone i'm longing to meet but i guess, i haven't met you yet.
Part of a song by Carrie Underwood:
Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands'
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
Give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
The biggest loss today was to be my brother's paymaster for his Chinese New Year shopping. He's still studying part time and his miserly pay wasn't enough to pay for new clothes so i thought i'll be a nice sister to get him stuffs. I didn't quite hear the thank you i was expecting to hear but i felt happy that i could provide for my family now though not in a big way, i'll just start small.
I'm at this crossroad that i don't want to rush my life. My career is barely a career but i hope i can do it bit by bit and build my "empire". I hope i can excel in what i'm doing because i've decided to stay where i am and do something i like. I remember seeing this from somewhere, "Love your job and you won't have to work a single day in your life". I can't say i'm loving my job right now because there's just so much that i have to do and i think i can do alot more than that but it's a stepping stone and inevitably part of the learning process. I will grit my teeth and get over this and i shall emerge a winner. I want and will be a winner.
My love life is barely in existence. Valentines' Day is just round the corner and the sms from my "Jie Mei" selling roses just seem like it's laughing into my face. There was one year, my "Jie Mei" sent me flowers for V Day because i never seem to get past a V Day without being alone yet again. I told "Miss Flower" that some women do long to be in a relationship sometimes just because we desire to be in one and you may not even love the player of the game at all. Maybe it's just sour grapes because i haven't found the player to this games. We all want to find someone who will pamper us and love us, how many of us have found them and realise that we like them as well. I would give my everything but if there's only someone who would want to take this everything. Few would, those who would just doesn't encourage me to want to pass them my all. Haven't i come to an age that i should just be less choosy? Beggers can't be choosers, ain't it? I wish someone can just hold my hand, he's someone i can look at everyday as i wake up from my bed and hope i'll just stay in bed for another second just because he's there with me. Some people will never be the person whom you would want to spend your Sunday mornings sunggling with, some people just choose not to.
I'm tired of this game. I don't want to be a pawn or even the game. I don't want to be a player. I just want to be a part of you and your life. You'e someone i'm longing to meet but i guess, i haven't met you yet.
Part of a song by Carrie Underwood:
Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands'
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
Give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Volvo S40 T5
Was at my boss' poolside bbq and got to drive my other boss' brother-in-law's car. Did that sound confusing? Alright then, i got to drive the S40 T5 supped up and the handling, grip, pick up was just fabulous. Now i really want that car. It has always been the car i wanna buy to be driving on our roads but the misfortune being, i can't afford it, for now that is. The ride was smooth, suspension was a big hard but pretty expected given the gigantic rim size. Simply love it. I want that car!
Began with copious amount of champagne over the afternoon. Food was alright, a little too oily. The combination of oily food and alcohol was just disgusting and i really felt like throwing up. I didn't puke but it continued to feel really disgusting as the day went on.
BR called and asked if i wanted to do dinner. Thank God we had Chinese. Then she suggested mahjong. which really hyped me up for a while until we couldn't find players. Ran through my phone list and no, can't find a single soul. So now, i have the craving to play mahjong and no one would entertain me.
Just came back from St. James and it's actually my first time there. Swa Koo right? Bellini was alright, jazz is always easy and soothing but after a while, i got tired. I wasn't quite drunk, little tipsy but i didn't had like alot of alcohol today. In fact after the guzzling of champagne in the afternoon (Which i expected it to wear off by the end of dinner), i only had like two sips of whiskey at Bellini. I guess with all the unhappiness inside me, it was easy to want to feel drunk and you just get really high easily.
I'm too sleepy, going to bed. Thanks for visiting my blog guys. Haven't got much interesting stuffs recently but i'll fill you guys in with more interesting stuffs whenever i can. It's so crappy that i met so many cute guys out there but fuck lah. What the fuck is wrong with me?
Began with copious amount of champagne over the afternoon. Food was alright, a little too oily. The combination of oily food and alcohol was just disgusting and i really felt like throwing up. I didn't puke but it continued to feel really disgusting as the day went on.
BR called and asked if i wanted to do dinner. Thank God we had Chinese. Then she suggested mahjong. which really hyped me up for a while until we couldn't find players. Ran through my phone list and no, can't find a single soul. So now, i have the craving to play mahjong and no one would entertain me.
Just came back from St. James and it's actually my first time there. Swa Koo right? Bellini was alright, jazz is always easy and soothing but after a while, i got tired. I wasn't quite drunk, little tipsy but i didn't had like alot of alcohol today. In fact after the guzzling of champagne in the afternoon (Which i expected it to wear off by the end of dinner), i only had like two sips of whiskey at Bellini. I guess with all the unhappiness inside me, it was easy to want to feel drunk and you just get really high easily.
I'm too sleepy, going to bed. Thanks for visiting my blog guys. Haven't got much interesting stuffs recently but i'll fill you guys in with more interesting stuffs whenever i can. It's so crappy that i met so many cute guys out there but fuck lah. What the fuck is wrong with me?
Saturday, February 03, 2007
Pain
It has never been easy to define pain with words. Pain had been a heart wrenching experience for me, physically and emotionally. When in pain emotionally, it's weird that you can actually feel the physical ache tugging your heart. It's the sort of feeling which makes you feel like crying and at times you can find tears to pour it out, at other times, you just bear with the pain and hope that you can scream out loud and someone hears you and comes over to give you a hug in their strong arms. More often than not, the latter scenario never happens. Drinking makes asking for hugs easy. However, when you're in the hug of another, you're sceptical as to whether it's the hug you have been longing or desiring for.
Crying is a process whereby one is able to let go of part of the pain through their actions but what if we're unable to tear. The pain remains. No amount of alcohol can wash the pain away as much i'd want it to. Many believe miracles will happen, i know it wouldn't but you just hope for things that will never happen to happen to you. We always have some space for hope even though the chances are near impossibility. Pain is indescribable.
I wish you're here with me...
Crying is a process whereby one is able to let go of part of the pain through their actions but what if we're unable to tear. The pain remains. No amount of alcohol can wash the pain away as much i'd want it to. Many believe miracles will happen, i know it wouldn't but you just hope for things that will never happen to happen to you. We always have some space for hope even though the chances are near impossibility. Pain is indescribable.
I wish you're here with me...
Food, Drinks and More Drinks
It's been a fun day except for the running around the entire early part.
As per every other month, we have a day we do afterwork drinks and today is the day of the month. Dinner was at Tapas Tree @ Clarke Quay. Food was alright but the service sucked big time. Do not order the red sangria, urgh pooo... Didn't quite left the place till late. We were headed for Ministry of Sound and it wasn't fantastic. The crowd... What crowd? The dance floor was empty and mind you, it was already 11pm. The night wasn't that young.
Next was Cafe Del Mar. According to BR, it was the perfect place for eye candy. Wasn't too packed but sure was enjoyable. I like it there 'cept for the fact that i was in jeans and it was really tough to get out of the bloody place. It's not only right in the other end of Sentosa, it's like some 5 or 10 mins walk from Rasa Sentosa. Luckily, Dad is always to my rescue. Love Dad.
As per every other month, we have a day we do afterwork drinks and today is the day of the month. Dinner was at Tapas Tree @ Clarke Quay. Food was alright but the service sucked big time. Do not order the red sangria, urgh pooo... Didn't quite left the place till late. We were headed for Ministry of Sound and it wasn't fantastic. The crowd... What crowd? The dance floor was empty and mind you, it was already 11pm. The night wasn't that young.
Next was Cafe Del Mar. According to BR, it was the perfect place for eye candy. Wasn't too packed but sure was enjoyable. I like it there 'cept for the fact that i was in jeans and it was really tough to get out of the bloody place. It's not only right in the other end of Sentosa, it's like some 5 or 10 mins walk from Rasa Sentosa. Luckily, Dad is always to my rescue. Love Dad.
Thursday, February 01, 2007
5 Important Lessons
1 - First Important Lesson
Cleaning Lady
During my second month of college, our professorgave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student and had breezed through the questions until I read the last one:"What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?"
Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times. She was tall,dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name? I handed in my paper, leaving the last question blank.
Just before class ended, one student asked if the last question would count toward our quiz grade."Absolutely," said the professor. "In your careers, you will meet many people. All are significant. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say "hello".
I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned hername was Dorothy.
2. - Second Important Lesson
Pickup in the Rain
One night, at11:30 p.m., an older African American woman was standing on the side of an Alabama highway trying to endure a lashing rainstorm. Her car had broken down and she desperately needed a ride. Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car.
A young white man stopped to help her, generallyunheard of in those conflict-filled 1960s. The man took her to safety, helped her get assistance, and put her into a taxicab.She seemed to be in a big hurry, but wrote down his address and thanked him.
Seven days went by and aknock came on the man's door. To his surprise, a giant console color TV was delivered to his home. A special note was attached..It read:"Thank you so much for assisting me on the highway the other night. The rain drenched not only my clothes, but also my spirits. Then you came along. Because of you, I was able to make it to my dying husband's bedside just before he passed away... Godbless you for helping me and unselfishly serving others."
Sincerely, Mrs. Nat King Cole.
3 - Third Important Lesson
Always Remember Those Who Serve
In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less, a 10-year-old boy entered a hotel coffee shop and sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water infront of him."How much is an ice cream sundae?" he asked.
"Fifty cents," replied the waitress. The little boy pulled is hand out of his pocket and studied the coins in it."Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?" he inquired. By now more people were waiting for a table and the waitress was growing impatient."Thirty-five cents," she brusquely replied. The little boy again counted his coins."I'll have the plain ice cream," he said.
The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on the table and walked away. The boy finished the ice-cream, paid the cashier and left. When the waitress came back, she began to cry as she wiped down the table.
There, placed neatly beside the empty dish,were two nickels and five pennies.. You see, he couldn't have the sundae, because he had to have enough left to leave her a tip.
4 - Fourth Important Lesson
The Obstacle in Our Path
In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed theKing for not keeping the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the stone out of the way.
Then a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded. After the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder had been. The purse contained many gold coins and a notef rom the King indicating that the gold was for the person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The peasant learned what many of us never understand!
Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improveour condition.
5 - Fifth Important Lesson
Giving When it Counts
Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a hospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz whow as suffering from a rare & serious disease. Her only chance of recovery appeared to be a blood transfusion from her 5-year old brother, who had miraculously survived the same disease and had developed the antibodies needed to combat theillness. The doctor explained the situation to her little brother, and asked the little boy if he would be willing to give his blood to his sister.
I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a deep breath and saying, "Yes I'll do it if it will save her." As the transfusion progressed, he lay in bed next to his sister and smiled, as we all did, seeing the color returning to her cheek. Then his face grew pale and his smile faded. He looked up at the doctor and asked with a trembling voice, "Will I start to die right away".
Being young, the little boy had misunderstood the doctor; he thought he was going to have to give his sister all of his blood in order to save her.
Cleaning Lady
During my second month of college, our professorgave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student and had breezed through the questions until I read the last one:"What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?"
Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times. She was tall,dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name? I handed in my paper, leaving the last question blank.
Just before class ended, one student asked if the last question would count toward our quiz grade."Absolutely," said the professor. "In your careers, you will meet many people. All are significant. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say "hello".
I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned hername was Dorothy.
2. - Second Important Lesson
Pickup in the Rain
One night, at11:30 p.m., an older African American woman was standing on the side of an Alabama highway trying to endure a lashing rainstorm. Her car had broken down and she desperately needed a ride. Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car.
A young white man stopped to help her, generallyunheard of in those conflict-filled 1960s. The man took her to safety, helped her get assistance, and put her into a taxicab.She seemed to be in a big hurry, but wrote down his address and thanked him.
Seven days went by and aknock came on the man's door. To his surprise, a giant console color TV was delivered to his home. A special note was attached..It read:"Thank you so much for assisting me on the highway the other night. The rain drenched not only my clothes, but also my spirits. Then you came along. Because of you, I was able to make it to my dying husband's bedside just before he passed away... Godbless you for helping me and unselfishly serving others."
Sincerely, Mrs. Nat King Cole.
3 - Third Important Lesson
Always Remember Those Who Serve
In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less, a 10-year-old boy entered a hotel coffee shop and sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water infront of him."How much is an ice cream sundae?" he asked.
"Fifty cents," replied the waitress. The little boy pulled is hand out of his pocket and studied the coins in it."Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?" he inquired. By now more people were waiting for a table and the waitress was growing impatient."Thirty-five cents," she brusquely replied. The little boy again counted his coins."I'll have the plain ice cream," he said.
The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on the table and walked away. The boy finished the ice-cream, paid the cashier and left. When the waitress came back, she began to cry as she wiped down the table.
There, placed neatly beside the empty dish,were two nickels and five pennies.. You see, he couldn't have the sundae, because he had to have enough left to leave her a tip.
4 - Fourth Important Lesson
The Obstacle in Our Path
In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed theKing for not keeping the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the stone out of the way.
Then a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded. After the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder had been. The purse contained many gold coins and a notef rom the King indicating that the gold was for the person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The peasant learned what many of us never understand!
Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improveour condition.
5 - Fifth Important Lesson
Giving When it Counts
Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a hospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz whow as suffering from a rare & serious disease. Her only chance of recovery appeared to be a blood transfusion from her 5-year old brother, who had miraculously survived the same disease and had developed the antibodies needed to combat theillness. The doctor explained the situation to her little brother, and asked the little boy if he would be willing to give his blood to his sister.
I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a deep breath and saying, "Yes I'll do it if it will save her." As the transfusion progressed, he lay in bed next to his sister and smiled, as we all did, seeing the color returning to her cheek. Then his face grew pale and his smile faded. He looked up at the doctor and asked with a trembling voice, "Will I start to die right away".
Being young, the little boy had misunderstood the doctor; he thought he was going to have to give his sister all of his blood in order to save her.
Why Women Love To Sing Along With 张惠妹
Went to chamber 82 yet again. It's not the sort of place you'll be wowed with but i had quite a bit of fun there. When i first went there, some sleazy alleged thief brought me there and i was quite sceptical about the place until the owner came out to play games with me. When i needed someone to sing the duet with me, i can always get him. Yes you guessed it, it's a KTV sort of pub, but it's quite a hangout i must say. I brought BR there on one occasion when i seriously needed some alcohol in my system and we've been going there since. Well, afterall it's near our offices.
Went there with BR and "Mr Bright" yesterday, we discussed about why 张惠妹's songs are inevitable picks whenever we go to KTVs and such. Well the reasons are simple,
- They make good listening.
- They make your singing sound good.
- We're usually familiar with it because at some point in time, her songs will come in as some sort of medication to heal the weary and broken soul.
- The lyrics are fantabulous.
One of 张惠妹's songs that i'd like to blog about is 我要快乐. It takes a woman of a certain age to be able to appreciate the song in full capacity. I wouldn't say that i'm old and i've came a long way but you need to have gone through life, rejection, work, loneliness, stress, loss and various sorts of bitterness in life to be able to appreciate the song on a deeper level.
又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓当作成长
刚刚走开的人
烟还点着味道却淡了
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐
我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨
我早应该割舍
我要快乐
哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的
全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的
把从前想了一遍
谢谢了伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声听了都不冷
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐
我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨
我早应该割舍
我要快乐
哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的
全都是假的
我的决定是对的
Another song is 原来你什么都不想要
"Gor Gor" sang it to me the day before and I sang it last night. I've never quite sang this song in the KTV because it's pretty old and oversung. There are bound to be someone around who will sing this song at some point down the evening. Yet again, this song says so much about how many women out there think and feel about somethings or some people in life.
我知道这样不好
也知道你的爱
只能那么少
我只有不停的要
要到你想逃
泪湿的枕头晒干就好
眼泪在你的心里只是无理取闹
以为在你身后
是我一辈子的骄傲
原来你什么都不想要
我不要你的呵护
你的玫瑰
只要你好好久久爱我一遍
就算虚荣也好
贪心也好
哪个女人对爱不自私不奢望
我不要你的承诺
不要你的永远
只要你真真切切爱我一遍
就算虚荣也好
贪心也好
最怕你把沉默当做对我的回答
Monday, January 29, 2007
Look At Me For The Person I Really Am
Few people will deny that I'm often misunderstood. Not that i'm an angel or anything, but i tend to do things that upsets people without realising it. Sometimes i don't know what i did and i still don't.
"Jit Eh Knight" told me last night that i have a homage instinct towards bad boys. I don't. I don't even look forward to belong to any entity. I'm just a sucker for sweets. Why don't people get the entire picture i'm getting before they pass their judgement? "Jit Eh Knight", you're not the one who passed the judgement, just a comment i've heard from elsewhere.
I often sink into modes of lows and i can't quite get out. I may look like i'm the happiest person in the world, i'm not. Why am i saying this? Don't get me wrong, i'm not fishing for sympathy and don't even feel anything like that for me, i don't deserve it and i don't want it.
Tell me what have i been doing wrong? Why am i like the common jinx and trash?
"Jit Eh Knight" told me last night that i have a homage instinct towards bad boys. I don't. I don't even look forward to belong to any entity. I'm just a sucker for sweets. Why don't people get the entire picture i'm getting before they pass their judgement? "Jit Eh Knight", you're not the one who passed the judgement, just a comment i've heard from elsewhere.
I often sink into modes of lows and i can't quite get out. I may look like i'm the happiest person in the world, i'm not. Why am i saying this? Don't get me wrong, i'm not fishing for sympathy and don't even feel anything like that for me, i don't deserve it and i don't want it.
Tell me what have i been doing wrong? Why am i like the common jinx and trash?
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Grandma's 100 Days Anniversary
Dear Cousins, Nieces, Nephews,
I'm too lazy to email it to everyone so just right click and save it at your own pleasure. Today's Grandma's 100 days anniversary and we will always remember her. Look how grand her new home is, envious?
We will miss her. We will always love her.
假装
Had a good chat with BR just now. Given all the unhappiness we have had in this friendship, i can't deny she's always been there when i needed a shoulder. I admit i'm a super lousy drinker but she puts up with my nonsense from time to time. When Princess needs to make a lifelong career decision, she was there to reaffirm what i thought but hesitated. She made doubts into decisions. I should know and should remember, my career is of utmost importance now. When a woman is financially independent, things will fall into place. Right now, i want to be the independent woman i've always wanted to be.
The more i sink into the "i think i miss him" shit, the less i'm becoming the person i actually was and the person i've always aspired to be. Most people around now knows i'm hungry to be right on top of the vicious food chain and i want to make a difference to people around me. I want to be able to be the "contact" or "network" that gives off the "wow" factor.
I will still think of Dum Dum. I'm not someone who likes something and withdraw almost immediately. I need a closure even if it is not a possible route. I will make the closure happen. Maybe i'm not the one...
I have to admit it wouldn't be easy for me to step out of this circle and step into another one for a long time to come but i suppose it's good that i can put time into my career. Guess this is the only consolation i can give myself at this point in time.
This is one song that truly describes me, right now... I'm going back to bed to snuggle with myself and drown myself with repetitions of this song, constantly reminding myself of the pain i'm in and that i should get out of in a heartbeat.
呼吸着一种孤独的味道
心跳在你沉默以后慢慢的被淡忘掉
我笑了笑反正你看不到
我要的幸福遗落在你怀抱
当爱失了焦
那些最初的美好
早被你搁在一角
街上拥挤人潮走着看着都是摧眠符号
记忆停不了
穿过读你的心跳
穿过想你的味道
我只想不被打扰
假装多好
我只要只想要再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱
一直会让我依靠
继续等待
还心甘情愿的不想逃
当爱失了焦
那些最初的美好
早被你搁在一角
街上拥挤人潮走着看着都是摧眠符号
记忆停不了
穿过读你的心跳
穿过想你的味道
我只想不被打扰
假装多好
我只要只想要再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱
一直会让我依靠
继续等待心甘情愿不想逃
假装多好
依然是依然是暧昧的tone调
一个人无理取闹
两人世界的煎熬
我被自己困在自己设下的圈套
像是驼鸟相信时间是唯一解药
视而不见傻到了无可救药
其实早明了你的爱已随风飘
想要找再也找不到
假装多好
我只要只想要再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱
还心甘情愿的不想逃
假装多好
依然是依然是暧昧的tone调
一个人无理取闹
两人世界的煎熬
我被自己困在自己设下的圈套
假装自己已解开冰冷的手铐
The more i sink into the "i think i miss him" shit, the less i'm becoming the person i actually was and the person i've always aspired to be. Most people around now knows i'm hungry to be right on top of the vicious food chain and i want to make a difference to people around me. I want to be able to be the "contact" or "network" that gives off the "wow" factor.
I will still think of Dum Dum. I'm not someone who likes something and withdraw almost immediately. I need a closure even if it is not a possible route. I will make the closure happen. Maybe i'm not the one...
I have to admit it wouldn't be easy for me to step out of this circle and step into another one for a long time to come but i suppose it's good that i can put time into my career. Guess this is the only consolation i can give myself at this point in time.
This is one song that truly describes me, right now... I'm going back to bed to snuggle with myself and drown myself with repetitions of this song, constantly reminding myself of the pain i'm in and that i should get out of in a heartbeat.
呼吸着一种孤独的味道
心跳在你沉默以后慢慢的被淡忘掉
我笑了笑反正你看不到
我要的幸福遗落在你怀抱
当爱失了焦
那些最初的美好
早被你搁在一角
街上拥挤人潮走着看着都是摧眠符号
记忆停不了
穿过读你的心跳
穿过想你的味道
我只想不被打扰
假装多好
我只要只想要再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱
一直会让我依靠
继续等待
还心甘情愿的不想逃
当爱失了焦
那些最初的美好
早被你搁在一角
街上拥挤人潮走着看着都是摧眠符号
记忆停不了
穿过读你的心跳
穿过想你的味道
我只想不被打扰
假装多好
我只要只想要再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱
一直会让我依靠
继续等待心甘情愿不想逃
假装多好
依然是依然是暧昧的tone调
一个人无理取闹
两人世界的煎熬
我被自己困在自己设下的圈套
像是驼鸟相信时间是唯一解药
视而不见傻到了无可救药
其实早明了你的爱已随风飘
想要找再也找不到
假装多好
我只要只想要再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱
还心甘情愿的不想逃
假装多好
依然是依然是暧昧的tone调
一个人无理取闹
两人世界的煎熬
我被自己困在自己设下的圈套
假装自己已解开冰冷的手铐
女人心事
东区的咖啡座幽暗的沙发里
总有几张熟悉的脸
那种聪明带点防卫的气质
想放弃却又不甘心的样子
越过她的肩膀空洞洞的视线
摩登女子灰色心事
那种以为自己什么都可以
喝了酒却又哭得像个孩子
我听见(爱我的人在哪边)渴望的泪
我看见(伤心的故事一遍遍)我的从前
曾经我也痛过我也恨过怨过放弃过
在自己的房间里觉得幸福遗弃我
如果没有分离背叛的丑陋
怎么算是真爱过
请你试著相信一爱再爱不要低下头
别怕青春消逝就不信单纯的美梦
我在这岸看着你游
为你的坚持感动
你会的有一天会幸福的
我会幸福嗎﹖
总有几张熟悉的脸
那种聪明带点防卫的气质
想放弃却又不甘心的样子
越过她的肩膀空洞洞的视线
摩登女子灰色心事
那种以为自己什么都可以
喝了酒却又哭得像个孩子
我听见(爱我的人在哪边)渴望的泪
我看见(伤心的故事一遍遍)我的从前
曾经我也痛过我也恨过怨过放弃过
在自己的房间里觉得幸福遗弃我
如果没有分离背叛的丑陋
怎么算是真爱过
请你试著相信一爱再爱不要低下头
别怕青春消逝就不信单纯的美梦
我在这岸看着你游
为你的坚持感动
你会的有一天会幸福的
我会幸福嗎﹖
Rotten Sunday
I've got a myriad of things to blog given the day has barely passed and i haven't even had any food. Bear with my grumbling...
I supposed i was overwhelmed by exhaustion yesterday. My brains were all filled by negative and upsetting things. Spoke to "Oscarised" last night and i mentioned if she's back in Singapore, she could come snuggle the Saturday night wth me and watch at DVD at my place or something. Then we came to realise, if she's in Singapore, she wouldn't even have time for all these ro for me for that matter of fact haha. But due to the time difference, when i'm lazing at home in the evening, she's also preparing to tie up loose ends and head for the bed so we could chat till the cows come home and we did. It's odd how lucky i am to have friends saying "when i come back to Singapore, i'll whack the person who upset you" or "i'll send the ah beng to beat that fellow up. How can he do this to you?" I'm usually the protective big sister because i've always felt the need to protect my little brother but in reality, i always feel vulnerable and it's nice to know that you're protected by people who will attempt to shield the pain for you. "Oscarised" , can we make it a point to spend more quality time when you decide to come back for good? Oh and i'd like to play mahjong with your sister... and possibly your Mom. You've got the best parents in the world and send your parents a kiss from the Princess when you speak to them the next time.
When guys say you're more than a friend, do they mean, you're a good friend, a buddy, a special friend, a special someone or "you're just a friend and i don't wanna upset you so don't read too much into it."? Just a wonder... Pour in your comments, i'd like to hear your opinions. Tag me!
Would you change your job to think of long term possible prospects or would you stay in a good, possibly better environment that you're already enjoying. Should one be adventurous and to venture out into new grounds and not look back even if you're bitten? I do not want to turn back neither do i want to be adventurous now. I was so courageous at one point in time that it seems as though nothing, absolutely nothing is going to make me stay in what i believe is a shithole. This is NOT a shithole, in fact it's a haven alot of people would love to be in. Am i stupid or what? Should i stay? My heart tells me to but too many complicating thoughts are just telling me to to be less complacent and more adventurous. Do i really want to move?
I was given permission to hire someone at work to help me. This is essentially someone who wants to do a pure administrative role. Now i know why employers have headache and why some candidates simply look good on paper but never turn out to be hired by the prospective employers. A few weeks ago i resorted to telling my colleagues that we should hire this girl because her name begins with a J. You see, everyone in my office has a J name. My ex-boss, my current boss, my colleague, my right hand at work and of course, myself. So we usually shout across the room.. "Jjjjuuu...jjjjeeee....jjjaaa... Argh why are we all JJJJJJ" but it's fun and i even heard they were very excited after they have decided to hir me some months ago. My current boss went back to the office and told therest of the office, "Guess what? She's a J. Jasmine!" To think about it is hilarious.
My dog was whining this morning and eventually woke me up. I'm happy with my weekend timing this time round, i slept early and woke up early. The best part, i had sufficient sleep! Yoohooo!!! It's about time i need to catch up on my anti-aging regime. I'm back on my "rejuvenating, anti-wrinkling" regime that cost me a bomb. I told a friend, "Estee Lauder cheated me of my money". But do you know, Estee Lauder is already the cheaper option. Much much cheaper. Right now i only wanna get a feet scrub. My feet got really rough after hours of running on the sand yesterday. My skin is peeling and my feet look like they belong to a construction worker.
CNY shopping must commence immediately! I've met up with some people twice and got no shopping done except skin care. I'm not going to wear my aging skin and go out for CNY. This year i can't "bai nian" because my grandma just passed away but Dad says as long as we don't bring oranges or wish people, we're fine. So must still look good for CNY right? ok i'm too tired to blog anymore, to be continued after i get some food.
I just had cornflakes and i'm back in action. Spoke to Inuka the Pig, she's quite clever to see what was bothering me and she was spot on. Do not ever doubt a woman's sixth sense. Just like how Blood Red guessed "the flower", it all came true. "The flower" really wasn't simple. The flower had the dog's attention, all the time. BR, i so need to tell you this on Monday. It's funny yet frustrating but i could only say, a woman's sixth sense, is simply unbelieveable.
I'm having my period which is why i wasn't in the best of moods these days. I've been grumbling about everything, anything and barely anyone knew what i was talking about. Maybe i should just heed "Gay Club Ringleader"'s advice to do the Mirena thing. But i'm not even sexually active, it's a bit expensive right. The day i deicde to do that, you know i've found someone i love and decided to do some family planning. "Gay Club Ringleader" is bringing "No Idea Why We All Call Her Rachel" to do it and because he told me that, i knew their relationship is stable and heading north. I's just a feeling. A girl wouldn't say yes to something this invasive, not needle or anything but invasive as in the discomfort of a foreign object stuck up inside you constantly releasing hormones regulating substances. Then again, friends on the Pill had been encouraging me to take it just because i'm physically active and it does affects my sports and beach days. So Mirena or Pill?
Today's Grandma's 100 days. I don't know how to blog it anymore. Spoke to Inuka the Pig and Black Pepper yesterday, it's such a torment to bear with the pain of losing a loved one. Losing the person who loves you the most and brought you up, the pain is indescribable. I still can't stop tearing. I wish she can be here when the world fails me, when guys fail me, when work fail me, when friends fail me, i know she for one, will never fail me.
On this rotten Sunday, i only wanna rot with my dog. Get a drink. Cry in my bed. Sleep and dream about beautiful things and wake up tomorrow to reality.
Dum Dum, I want and i need to talk to you.
I supposed i was overwhelmed by exhaustion yesterday. My brains were all filled by negative and upsetting things. Spoke to "Oscarised" last night and i mentioned if she's back in Singapore, she could come snuggle the Saturday night wth me and watch at DVD at my place or something. Then we came to realise, if she's in Singapore, she wouldn't even have time for all these ro for me for that matter of fact haha. But due to the time difference, when i'm lazing at home in the evening, she's also preparing to tie up loose ends and head for the bed so we could chat till the cows come home and we did. It's odd how lucky i am to have friends saying "when i come back to Singapore, i'll whack the person who upset you" or "i'll send the ah beng to beat that fellow up. How can he do this to you?" I'm usually the protective big sister because i've always felt the need to protect my little brother but in reality, i always feel vulnerable and it's nice to know that you're protected by people who will attempt to shield the pain for you. "Oscarised" , can we make it a point to spend more quality time when you decide to come back for good? Oh and i'd like to play mahjong with your sister... and possibly your Mom. You've got the best parents in the world and send your parents a kiss from the Princess when you speak to them the next time.
When guys say you're more than a friend, do they mean, you're a good friend, a buddy, a special friend, a special someone or "you're just a friend and i don't wanna upset you so don't read too much into it."? Just a wonder... Pour in your comments, i'd like to hear your opinions. Tag me!
Would you change your job to think of long term possible prospects or would you stay in a good, possibly better environment that you're already enjoying. Should one be adventurous and to venture out into new grounds and not look back even if you're bitten? I do not want to turn back neither do i want to be adventurous now. I was so courageous at one point in time that it seems as though nothing, absolutely nothing is going to make me stay in what i believe is a shithole. This is NOT a shithole, in fact it's a haven alot of people would love to be in. Am i stupid or what? Should i stay? My heart tells me to but too many complicating thoughts are just telling me to to be less complacent and more adventurous. Do i really want to move?
I was given permission to hire someone at work to help me. This is essentially someone who wants to do a pure administrative role. Now i know why employers have headache and why some candidates simply look good on paper but never turn out to be hired by the prospective employers. A few weeks ago i resorted to telling my colleagues that we should hire this girl because her name begins with a J. You see, everyone in my office has a J name. My ex-boss, my current boss, my colleague, my right hand at work and of course, myself. So we usually shout across the room.. "Jjjjuuu...jjjjeeee....jjjaaa... Argh why are we all JJJJJJ" but it's fun and i even heard they were very excited after they have decided to hir me some months ago. My current boss went back to the office and told therest of the office, "Guess what? She's a J. Jasmine!" To think about it is hilarious.
My dog was whining this morning and eventually woke me up. I'm happy with my weekend timing this time round, i slept early and woke up early. The best part, i had sufficient sleep! Yoohooo!!! It's about time i need to catch up on my anti-aging regime. I'm back on my "rejuvenating, anti-wrinkling" regime that cost me a bomb. I told a friend, "Estee Lauder cheated me of my money". But do you know, Estee Lauder is already the cheaper option. Much much cheaper. Right now i only wanna get a feet scrub. My feet got really rough after hours of running on the sand yesterday. My skin is peeling and my feet look like they belong to a construction worker.
CNY shopping must commence immediately! I've met up with some people twice and got no shopping done except skin care. I'm not going to wear my aging skin and go out for CNY. This year i can't "bai nian" because my grandma just passed away but Dad says as long as we don't bring oranges or wish people, we're fine. So must still look good for CNY right? ok i'm too tired to blog anymore, to be continued after i get some food.
I just had cornflakes and i'm back in action. Spoke to Inuka the Pig, she's quite clever to see what was bothering me and she was spot on. Do not ever doubt a woman's sixth sense. Just like how Blood Red guessed "the flower", it all came true. "The flower" really wasn't simple. The flower had the dog's attention, all the time. BR, i so need to tell you this on Monday. It's funny yet frustrating but i could only say, a woman's sixth sense, is simply unbelieveable.
I'm having my period which is why i wasn't in the best of moods these days. I've been grumbling about everything, anything and barely anyone knew what i was talking about. Maybe i should just heed "Gay Club Ringleader"'s advice to do the Mirena thing. But i'm not even sexually active, it's a bit expensive right. The day i deicde to do that, you know i've found someone i love and decided to do some family planning. "Gay Club Ringleader" is bringing "No Idea Why We All Call Her Rachel" to do it and because he told me that, i knew their relationship is stable and heading north. I's just a feeling. A girl wouldn't say yes to something this invasive, not needle or anything but invasive as in the discomfort of a foreign object stuck up inside you constantly releasing hormones regulating substances. Then again, friends on the Pill had been encouraging me to take it just because i'm physically active and it does affects my sports and beach days. So Mirena or Pill?
Today's Grandma's 100 days. I don't know how to blog it anymore. Spoke to Inuka the Pig and Black Pepper yesterday, it's such a torment to bear with the pain of losing a loved one. Losing the person who loves you the most and brought you up, the pain is indescribable. I still can't stop tearing. I wish she can be here when the world fails me, when guys fail me, when work fail me, when friends fail me, i know she for one, will never fail me.
On this rotten Sunday, i only wanna rot with my dog. Get a drink. Cry in my bed. Sleep and dream about beautiful things and wake up tomorrow to reality.
Dum Dum, I want and i need to talk to you.
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Sore
I have to say it was a great deal of fun today to be out with these boys.
Right inside me at this point in time, i'm not particulary interested to talk about what we did but to give you a brief idea, the rain came intermittently but didn't quite interrrupted the softball, touch rugby, dodgeball, etc. The sun was weak but nonetheless, present and its effects was seen on my arms and legs. I have to admit there was a huge deal of fun, laughter, sand, hugs, sweat, pain, oil... It was great.
On a separate note...
There was some sort of anticipation and dismay deep inside me. Maybe it's just PMS, maybe it's just a fact that i can't digest. The dismay didn't quite follow the anticipation, it is the unexpected that caused the dismay. Rather i should say it is the thing that i didn't quite want it to happen but some part of me knew it was happening but denial got the better of me and when it is right in front of your eyes, you can't help but feel stupid for believing things some people said. I have told myself so many times not to believe in stuffs people say but see it for myself, i got taught the best lesson recently.
I thought you had me at hello and i was told that i was being liked and missed by you. I thought this vehicle was going at first gear then it picked up to second but in actual fact, the vehicle didn't move at all. It's the cars beside me moving that gave me the illusion that i was moving.
The hug never came. The hug will never come. I rather never to have anticipated the hug. I wish you've never looked at me in my eyes so i wouldn't miss the smile glimmering in your eyes.
I was stupid to have told you how i felt and thought what you said were genuine about how you felt. But when i saw you, you just were not the person i've been texting with. I felt like an idiot near you. To think of it, i've never quite heard you over the line, maybe i was in a dream i just refuse to wake up from and indulged myself to sleep through it longer. I never thought i'd say things like, you never had time for me because i knew better, that you had more meaningful things in your life which is true. But you never ever had that one minute to call to say hello. The truth is i'm just hallucinating. Whenever i stole a glimpse, it was never something i would want to see. Sometimes you feel so near, at other times, you're just faraway. I guess now you're just getting further and further away. I've lost the grip which i've never possessed. Now i've even lost grip in myself. I'm just a loser.
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Interesting Description of A Capricorn Woman
Tag and let me know how true this thing is...
CAPRICORN WOMAN
A tall (??) slim (??), cool(??) and quiet(??) woman. Once she is mad she can be very fierce. She can work better than some men and she is very highly confident woman. In her opinion, a woman is not just a flower or decoration at home or in an office and certainly not the weaker sex who needs protection. She likes to control and hide her weak emotions.
She will never try to change anyone, but she will learn to accept them as they are. If she does not like someone, she will not comment or criticise but she will completely ignore that person.
She hates plastic and artificial flowers because it make her feel that you are not being sincere. She loves real flowers and it's scent. She loves a guy who wear after shave cologne. If you are the type of a guy who wear your jeans one month before washing, or wear old sneakers, then you can forget about her.
She loves music and nature even there is a rare case otherwise. She loves to go picnic in nature, so if you don't have so much time for her, you can take her fishing too. (Ya right...)
She is not as jealous as the Aquarius or Leo woman, but do not cross the line. Better not to see her get mad, especially in front of public when she feels like she's losing face. She loves to make herself up and dress perfectly and she's very neat, so never rush her for this matter.
She has her own goal in life and does not care if you have a doctorate degree or not, if she thinks you are not bright then she will not care about you at all. She likes smart people by character not by certification. If you can not show her this quality, go and take a bus and go to the next stop.
She does not like a dreamer who talk about his dream but never put his hands in action to make it happens. Don't bother to tell her "everyone is doing it, you should do it too", or "I think you should do it, it's good foryou", because she will do what she wants to do only.
She is a neat and tidy person, so if your apartment is a pigsty , do not take her there. If you go out on a date with her , try to be presentable such as nice and clean clothes, clean nails or else it will be your last date.
She is a cool type and will not nag, so easy on your ears. She is a slow but sure type. She will always respect and honor you and will never try to make you lose your face. If she loves you, she will help you in anything you do. She likes to help people and expect nothing in return. If she asks you for a favor and does not get one, she will feel very disappointed.
She has very high hopes and faith and believes in her own confidence than believing in"Luck". If she is your wife, you will have nice and clean home and a gourmet cooking. If your parents visit your house, they will be pleased. She is a 3 in 1 means , a perfect mother, a perfect housewife, a perfect wife or you could say "happily ever after".
CAPRICORN WOMAN
A tall (??) slim (??), cool(??) and quiet(??) woman. Once she is mad she can be very fierce. She can work better than some men and she is very highly confident woman. In her opinion, a woman is not just a flower or decoration at home or in an office and certainly not the weaker sex who needs protection. She likes to control and hide her weak emotions.
She will never try to change anyone, but she will learn to accept them as they are. If she does not like someone, she will not comment or criticise but she will completely ignore that person.
She hates plastic and artificial flowers because it make her feel that you are not being sincere. She loves real flowers and it's scent. She loves a guy who wear after shave cologne. If you are the type of a guy who wear your jeans one month before washing, or wear old sneakers, then you can forget about her.
She loves music and nature even there is a rare case otherwise. She loves to go picnic in nature, so if you don't have so much time for her, you can take her fishing too. (Ya right...)
She is not as jealous as the Aquarius or Leo woman, but do not cross the line. Better not to see her get mad, especially in front of public when she feels like she's losing face. She loves to make herself up and dress perfectly and she's very neat, so never rush her for this matter.
She has her own goal in life and does not care if you have a doctorate degree or not, if she thinks you are not bright then she will not care about you at all. She likes smart people by character not by certification. If you can not show her this quality, go and take a bus and go to the next stop.
She does not like a dreamer who talk about his dream but never put his hands in action to make it happens. Don't bother to tell her "everyone is doing it, you should do it too", or "I think you should do it, it's good foryou", because she will do what she wants to do only.
She is a neat and tidy person, so if your apartment is a pigsty , do not take her there. If you go out on a date with her , try to be presentable such as nice and clean clothes, clean nails or else it will be your last date.
She is a cool type and will not nag, so easy on your ears. She is a slow but sure type. She will always respect and honor you and will never try to make you lose your face. If she loves you, she will help you in anything you do. She likes to help people and expect nothing in return. If she asks you for a favor and does not get one, she will feel very disappointed.
She has very high hopes and faith and believes in her own confidence than believing in"Luck". If she is your wife, you will have nice and clean home and a gourmet cooking. If your parents visit your house, they will be pleased. She is a 3 in 1 means , a perfect mother, a perfect housewife, a perfect wife or you could say "happily ever after".
6 weeks; 6 months; 6 years
If there's anything that's going to deter anyone from going into a relationship or marriage, here it is:-
Dating process:
6 weeks : I love U, I love U, I love U.
6 months : Of course I love U.
6 years : GOD, if I didn't love U, then why the hell did I propose?
Back from Work:
6 weeks : Honey, I'm home.
6 months : BACK!!
6 years : What did your mom cook for us today??
Gifts:
6 weeks : Honey, I really hope you liked the ring.
6 months : I bought you a painting; it would fit the motif in the living room.
6 years : Here's the money. Buy yourself something.
Phone Ringing:
6 weeks : Baby, somebody wants you on the phone.
6 months : Here, for you.
6 years : PHONE RINGING.
Cooking:
6 weeks : I never knew food could taste so good!
6 months : What are we having for dinner tonight?
6 years : AGAIN!!!!
Apology:
6 weeks : Honey muffin, don't you worry, Ill never hold this against you.
6 months : Watch out! Don't do it again.
6 years : What's not to understand about what I just said??
New Dress:
6 weeks : Oh my God, you look like an angel in that dress.
6 months : You bought a new dress again???
6 years : How much did THAT cost me?
Planning for Vacations:
6 weeks : How do 2 weeks in Vienna or anywhere you please sound??
6 months : What's so bad about going to Istanbul on a charter plane?
6 years : Travel? What's so bad about staying home???
TV:
6 weeks : Baby, what would you like us to watch tonight?
6 months : I like this movie.
6 years : I'm going to watch ESPN, if you're not in the mood, go to bed, I can stay up by myself.
Dating process:
6 weeks : I love U, I love U, I love U.
6 months : Of course I love U.
6 years : GOD, if I didn't love U, then why the hell did I propose?
Back from Work:
6 weeks : Honey, I'm home.
6 months : BACK!!
6 years : What did your mom cook for us today??
Gifts:
6 weeks : Honey, I really hope you liked the ring.
6 months : I bought you a painting; it would fit the motif in the living room.
6 years : Here's the money. Buy yourself something.
Phone Ringing:
6 weeks : Baby, somebody wants you on the phone.
6 months : Here, for you.
6 years : PHONE RINGING.
Cooking:
6 weeks : I never knew food could taste so good!
6 months : What are we having for dinner tonight?
6 years : AGAIN!!!!
Apology:
6 weeks : Honey muffin, don't you worry, Ill never hold this against you.
6 months : Watch out! Don't do it again.
6 years : What's not to understand about what I just said??
New Dress:
6 weeks : Oh my God, you look like an angel in that dress.
6 months : You bought a new dress again???
6 years : How much did THAT cost me?
Planning for Vacations:
6 weeks : How do 2 weeks in Vienna or anywhere you please sound??
6 months : What's so bad about going to Istanbul on a charter plane?
6 years : Travel? What's so bad about staying home???
TV:
6 weeks : Baby, what would you like us to watch tonight?
6 months : I like this movie.
6 years : I'm going to watch ESPN, if you're not in the mood, go to bed, I can stay up by myself.
Alcohol...
The limit of tolerance was peaked last night.
Drinks followed naturally after dinner with "Blood Red" and my old time church choir mate, "Speedy Gonzales". What was initially an after dinner drink grew into games of bluff which of course meant more alcohol. For someone who's a cheap drinker like myself, wine for lunch was fine, whiskey after dinner was fine, both were fine, game drinking wasn't. I wasn't in the best mood and my mates knew it so she made sure i drank and i did. Happily. To a point where i couldn't hear much longer, i knew i was gone. Then again, i could still sing while waiting for the washroom. I wasn't quite super duper drunk, i think i was just really upset.
But this morning, i felt much much better. Alcohol does work to a certain extent! I'm feeling so much better today. I do not want to be bothered with nitty gritty stupid boys stuffs now. Right now, career come first, says Blood Red and i'm going to be doing just that.
Drinks followed naturally after dinner with "Blood Red" and my old time church choir mate, "Speedy Gonzales". What was initially an after dinner drink grew into games of bluff which of course meant more alcohol. For someone who's a cheap drinker like myself, wine for lunch was fine, whiskey after dinner was fine, both were fine, game drinking wasn't. I wasn't in the best mood and my mates knew it so she made sure i drank and i did. Happily. To a point where i couldn't hear much longer, i knew i was gone. Then again, i could still sing while waiting for the washroom. I wasn't quite super duper drunk, i think i was just really upset.
But this morning, i felt much much better. Alcohol does work to a certain extent! I'm feeling so much better today. I do not want to be bothered with nitty gritty stupid boys stuffs now. Right now, career come first, says Blood Red and i'm going to be doing just that.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Ah Poo Neh & The Big Brown Bear
When we were bored, we did this...
CCM says:
i was at the airport one day
BR says:
when a Bear ran in
CCM says:
the crowd dispersed in a millisecond
BR says:
suddenly the Bear grabbed an air stewardess
CCM says:
from behind and she screamed, while trying to break off the bear's grip
BR says:
an on looking indian cleaner felt that this was his chance to do something heroic
CCM says:
so he went to fetch the broom from the toilet
BR says:
and took a rug as his cape
CCM says:
he ran as fast and he could with his cape flying gloriously,
BR says:
then he "zam" break cos he realised he wasn't wearing boots & all super heroes wore boots!
CCM says:
but no worries, he could do the "breaking" dance
BR says:
HE spun towards his trolley & found his bright neon yellow boots
CCM says:
he jumped into the boots like how puss jumped in his
BR says:
meanwhile the distressed air stewardess was screaming:" HELP!!!"
CCM says:
Upon seeing his beloved in the bear's arms, he ran to the bear and said
BR says:
:' eh u!! blardy idiotic teddy bear.. u gib me my girl back"
CCM says:
The angry bear then turn around and roared with his greatest might
BR says:
ah neh stuffed the end of his broom up the bear's ass before he realised wat was happening
CCM says:
then Ah Neh said, "don't you dare touch friend's girl, she's from TIGER airways hor, you want problem you come to me, my name is Ah Poo Neh!"
BR says:
The bear in pain released the girl
CCM says:
and started crying
BR says:
the miraculously the bear Started to talk in a human voice
CCM says:
he said, "my SIA girl left me 10 years ago and married a voodoo guru"
BR says:
"i Loved my girl alot & vowed to get her back"
To be continued...
CCM says:
i was at the airport one day
BR says:
when a Bear ran in
CCM says:
the crowd dispersed in a millisecond
BR says:
suddenly the Bear grabbed an air stewardess
CCM says:
from behind and she screamed, while trying to break off the bear's grip
BR says:
an on looking indian cleaner felt that this was his chance to do something heroic
CCM says:
so he went to fetch the broom from the toilet
BR says:
and took a rug as his cape
CCM says:
he ran as fast and he could with his cape flying gloriously,
BR says:
then he "zam" break cos he realised he wasn't wearing boots & all super heroes wore boots!
CCM says:
but no worries, he could do the "breaking" dance
BR says:
HE spun towards his trolley & found his bright neon yellow boots
CCM says:
he jumped into the boots like how puss jumped in his
BR says:
meanwhile the distressed air stewardess was screaming:" HELP!!!"
CCM says:
Upon seeing his beloved in the bear's arms, he ran to the bear and said
BR says:
:' eh u!! blardy idiotic teddy bear.. u gib me my girl back"
CCM says:
The angry bear then turn around and roared with his greatest might
BR says:
ah neh stuffed the end of his broom up the bear's ass before he realised wat was happening
CCM says:
then Ah Neh said, "don't you dare touch friend's girl, she's from TIGER airways hor, you want problem you come to me, my name is Ah Poo Neh!"
BR says:
The bear in pain released the girl
CCM says:
and started crying
BR says:
the miraculously the bear Started to talk in a human voice
CCM says:
he said, "my SIA girl left me 10 years ago and married a voodoo guru"
BR says:
"i Loved my girl alot & vowed to get her back"
To be continued...
Shattered
Has love always been defensive?
What happened to love at first sight or that love is all we need?
Shouldn't falling in love be as natural as "click - you know it or you don't"?
Didn't Romeo and Juliet entangle themselves in this undying love because they were simply in love and not think about the other realities in life?
Is falling in love exclusive of external factors? For many of us, it's not. It means the difference in age, social status, financial status, etc. For once, i think love should just be love and be exclusive of all other factors. Other times, it's the emotional barrier that's harder to break through. We have all gone through the ego inflation and deflation which makes your heart beat faster and more confusing than the New York stock exchange's biddings.
But the harsh reality is, we all have some sort of defensive mechanism to reject what may post possible hardship for us in future.
Can we ever put down our defense to try to experience what love can actually bring? I've tried but very soon, the defensive mechanism went back right on and i'm wary as to whether i can be truly in acceptance again. Exhaustion has set in, the pain is still tingling. Gosh, i just realise how much i desire for you to use your strong arms to pull me close to your chest, using your hand to hold my head close to your chest so that i can listen to your heartbeat, putting your other hand around me protecting me from the world and gently kiss me on my forehead and tell me, "Dear, you belong to me and only to me."
This is like a dream shattering into dust and gone with the wind...
从来不相信我的世界可以有多完美
痛苦寂寞还有一些疲惫
不允许他人随意进入我的零度空间
宁愿孤独懒的再去想谁
俩个人一起是否只是得到一种安慰
挣脱过去然后忘记一切
没想过有天我的结局忽然全部改变
谁会抓住我的无力双臂
怎么会哭
(谁错谁对为谁抱歉)
不会再哭
(谁错谁对为谁憔悴)
走入零度空间等到一切分裂
就算爱的危险我们一起面对
来不及的防备没听过的誓言
要我怎么学会多了爱的明天
走出零度空间终于一切分裂
就算爱的很累我却不会后悔
放下所有防备一切都无所谓
逃出黑暗世界开始新的明天
新的明天
俩个人一起是否只是得到一种安慰
挣脱过去然后忘记一切
没想过有天我的结局忽然全部改变
谁会抓住我的无力双臂
怎么会哭
(谁错谁对为谁抱歉)
不会再哭
(谁错谁对为谁憔悴)
走入零度空间等到一切分裂
就算爱的危险我们一起面对
来不及的防备没听过的誓言
要我怎么学会多了爱的明天
走出零度空间终于一切分裂
就算爱的很累我却不会后悔
放下所有防备一切都无所谓
逃出黑暗世界开始新的明天
新的明天
走出零度空间终于一切分裂
就算爱的很累我却不会后悔
放下所有防备一切都无所谓
逃出黑暗世界开始新的明天
新的明天
新的世界
What happened to love at first sight or that love is all we need?
Shouldn't falling in love be as natural as "click - you know it or you don't"?
Didn't Romeo and Juliet entangle themselves in this undying love because they were simply in love and not think about the other realities in life?
Is falling in love exclusive of external factors? For many of us, it's not. It means the difference in age, social status, financial status, etc. For once, i think love should just be love and be exclusive of all other factors. Other times, it's the emotional barrier that's harder to break through. We have all gone through the ego inflation and deflation which makes your heart beat faster and more confusing than the New York stock exchange's biddings.
But the harsh reality is, we all have some sort of defensive mechanism to reject what may post possible hardship for us in future.
Can we ever put down our defense to try to experience what love can actually bring? I've tried but very soon, the defensive mechanism went back right on and i'm wary as to whether i can be truly in acceptance again. Exhaustion has set in, the pain is still tingling. Gosh, i just realise how much i desire for you to use your strong arms to pull me close to your chest, using your hand to hold my head close to your chest so that i can listen to your heartbeat, putting your other hand around me protecting me from the world and gently kiss me on my forehead and tell me, "Dear, you belong to me and only to me."
This is like a dream shattering into dust and gone with the wind...
从来不相信我的世界可以有多完美
痛苦寂寞还有一些疲惫
不允许他人随意进入我的零度空间
宁愿孤独懒的再去想谁
俩个人一起是否只是得到一种安慰
挣脱过去然后忘记一切
没想过有天我的结局忽然全部改变
谁会抓住我的无力双臂
怎么会哭
(谁错谁对为谁抱歉)
不会再哭
(谁错谁对为谁憔悴)
走入零度空间等到一切分裂
就算爱的危险我们一起面对
来不及的防备没听过的誓言
要我怎么学会多了爱的明天
走出零度空间终于一切分裂
就算爱的很累我却不会后悔
放下所有防备一切都无所谓
逃出黑暗世界开始新的明天
新的明天
俩个人一起是否只是得到一种安慰
挣脱过去然后忘记一切
没想过有天我的结局忽然全部改变
谁会抓住我的无力双臂
怎么会哭
(谁错谁对为谁抱歉)
不会再哭
(谁错谁对为谁憔悴)
走入零度空间等到一切分裂
就算爱的危险我们一起面对
来不及的防备没听过的誓言
要我怎么学会多了爱的明天
走出零度空间终于一切分裂
就算爱的很累我却不会后悔
放下所有防备一切都无所谓
逃出黑暗世界开始新的明天
新的明天
走出零度空间终于一切分裂
就算爱的很累我却不会后悔
放下所有防备一切都无所谓
逃出黑暗世界开始新的明天
新的明天
新的世界
Monday, January 22, 2007
Somewhere In Between
"Blood Red" wants me to listen to this song by Lifehouse and told me it says alot about my current mood. It's great to be able to bitch with her after such a long time and our 12 or 13 year relationship has not just ended without news. I knew we could have gone on and on at Burger King but we didn't had to because whenever i need to, i know you'll be there. Thanks babe. I love you and i know you're happy, that's the most important. I'll be right here whenever you need these puny shoulders.
I cant be losing sleep over this, no I cant
And now I can not stop pacing
Give me a few hours, Ill have all this sorted out
If my mind would just stop racing
Cause I cannot stand still
I cant be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
This is over my head but underneath my feet
Cuz by tomorrow morning Ill have this thing beat
And everything will be back to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy
Cuz Im waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And Im somewhere in between
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream
Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in
Dont be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again
I dont want to run away from this
I know that I just dont need this
Cause I cannot stand still
I cant be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
Cuz Im waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And Im somewhere in between
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream
I cant be losing sleep over this, no I cant
And now I can not stop pacing
Give me a few hours, Ill have all this sorted out
If my mind would just stop racing
Cause I cannot stand still
I cant be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
This is over my head but underneath my feet
Cuz by tomorrow morning Ill have this thing beat
And everything will be back to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy
Cuz Im waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And Im somewhere in between
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream
Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in
Dont be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again
I dont want to run away from this
I know that I just dont need this
Cause I cannot stand still
I cant be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
Cuz Im waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And Im somewhere in between
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream
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