I Don't Wanna Be

When men could have come clean and everything would be fine, they have to shoot themselves in the foot by doing all the wrong things. Don't try this at home. Especially if your spouse is smarter than you. Just over a span of 2-3 days, I've heard at least 4-5 complains of potentially itchy movements from men, both smart and stupid ones or both smart and stupid at the same time. Despite everything else, if you respect the very basic rule of basically respecting one another, you will not need to hide. Once you attempt to hide or lie, miraculously, such things will come back to bite you real hard. And I mean REAL HARD. Be frank and truthful, might just save your arse without you knowing it.

Coincidentally, I had an evil dream last night. I woke up finding myself soaked in perspiration and half dried tears. Have you ever wanted to cry in your dream but physically unable to do so and feeling upset and frustrated at the same time? But in actual fact, when you wake up, you find patches of tears on your pillow case.

Why can't life be simpler? Is this a joke played on me? Everything starting from my family to my job to the other aspects of my personal life, there's just so much complications. Why can't I get a 9-5 job, fixed income job, a reasonably loving husband, 2 average kids? Why is my life like a big roller coaster ride that doesn't seem to end? At least give me a damn break for me to take a breather. I don't even wanna think of anything now. I wanna clear my head so I have nothing to think about. Too painful to even try to think of nothing. I hate everything around me. I hate being me. I hate me.

Or do I?

Aren't we the exact cause/result of what we do or have done? Aren't we reaping the effects directly or indirectly from our own actions?

I need a shoulder. I don't wanna be strong anymore.


I don't need to be anything other
Than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other
Than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other
Than the birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going, is knowing where I'm coming from

I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who noticed?
I can't be the only one who's learned!

Can I have everyone's attention please?
If you're not like this and that, you're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain
The crust of creation
My whole situation-made from clay to stone
And now I'm telling everybody

I don't want to be