Capricorns Are...

Taken from http://www.astrology-online.com/capricrn.htm

If you're lazy to read, the interesting points are highlighted... Parts of them makes me laugh...

Capricorn! About Your Sign...
Capricorn is one of the most stable and (mostly) serious of the zodiacal types. These independent, rocklike characters have many sterling qualities. They are normally confident, strong willed and calm. These hardworking, unemotional, shrewd, practical, responsible, persevering, and cautious to the extreme persons, are capable of persisting for as long as is necessary to accomplish a goal they have set for themselves. They are reliable workers in almost any profession they undertake. They are the major finishers of most projects started by the 'pioneering' signs; with firm stick-to-it-ness they quickly become the backbone of any company they work for.

Capricornians make of themselves, resourceful, determined managers; setting high standards for themselves and others. They strive always for honesty in their criticism of self, they respect discipline from above and demand it from those beneath them. In their methodical, tough, stubborn, unyielding way, they persist against personal hardship, putting their families and/or their work before their own needs and welfare to reach their objectives long after others have given up and fallen by the wayside. In fact when practical ability allied with the drive of ambition are required in employees to make a project succeed, Capricornians are the people to hire. They plan carefully to fulfill their ambitions (which often include becoming wealthy), they are economical without meanness, and able to achieve great results with minimum effort and expense. Because of their organizing ability they are able to work on several projects simultaneously.

They have a great respect for authority but may not, if they reach high rank, be willing to listen to other opinions on things they are directly responsible for. As the ranking authority figure in a given situation they expect their underlings to be as self disciplined as they themselves are, and to perform every task undertaken to the highest standard.
They are, nevertheless, fair as well as demanding. Among their equals they are not always the most pleasant of work fellows for they are reserved and too conservative, valuing tradition more than innovation, however valuable the latter, and they are often humorless. There is also a tendency to pessimism, melancholy and even unhappiness which many Capricornians are unable to keep to themselves, especially if they fail personally. In the extreme this trait can make them a very depressed individual; ecstatic happiness alternating with the most wretched kind of misery which is so subconsciously buried that he or she should seek help if such emotions become frequent. For the above reason, capable Capricorn should spend many hours in meditation, gathering the strength to control such inner emotions.

The swings in mood are not the only reason some Capricornians deserve the adjective based on their name - capricious. They can be surprisingly and suddenly witty and subtle for the quiet, reserved individuals they seem to be, and they also have a tendency to ruin things by unexpected and utterly irresponsible bouts of flippancy. In certain individuals in whom the characteristic is strong, the temptation to do this has to be resisted with iron self-control. Another unexpected quality in some Capricornians is an interest in the occult which persists in spite of their naturally skeptical turn of mind.
Their intellects are sometimes very subtle. They think profoundly and deeply, throughly exploring all possibilities before deciding on a 'safe' alternative. They have good memories and an insatiable yet methodical desire for knowledge. They are rational, logical and clearheaded, have good concentration, delight in debate in which they can show off their cleverness by luring their adversaries into traps and confounding them with logic.

In their personal relationships they are often ill-at-ease, if not downright unhappy. They are somewhat self-centered but not excessively so, wary and cautious around people they do not know very well, preferring not to meddle with others and in turn not to allow interference with themselves, thus they tend to attract people who do not understand them. Casual acquaintances they will treat with diplomacy, tact and, above all, reticence. They make few good friends but are intensely loyal to those they do make, and they can become bitter, and powerful enemies. They sometimes dislike the opposite sex and test the waters of affection gingerly before judging the temperature right for marriage. Once married, however, they are faithful, though inclined to jealousy. Most Capricornians marry for life.

Their occupations can include most professions that have to do with math or money and they are strongly attracted to music. They can be economists, financiers, bankers, speculators, contractors, managers and real estate brokers. They excel as bureaucrats, especially where projects demanding long-term planning and working are concerned, and their skill in debate and love of dialectic make them good politicians. They are excellent teachers, especially as principals of educational establishments where they have the authority to manage and organize without too much intimacy with the staff members. If working with their hands, they can become practical scientists, engineers, farmers and builders. The wit and flippancy which is characteristic of certain Capricornians may make some turn to entertainment as a career.

He Who Hogs, Truly A Hog

Traffic jams are rare on ECP. Although every morning, the traffic gets a little heavy but it's usually moving unless there's some sort of traffic jam. I have resorted to crusing on KPE for my trip home because the roads just get too congested between the 6.30pm to 8.30pm period. But on my way to work, I still go on autopilot and will cruise my way through ECP although it is a slightly longer route.

However, from my observation, the slow down on ECP is usually caused by road hoggers. People who are on the overtaking lane going at 70km/h. What were they thinking?

Please, if you know you're slower, no one is asking you to go faster or break the sound barrier. Just keep left and let the other vehicles pass you. If you think you're going at 90km/h and should be on the right lane, please remember that it is an overtaking lane and not called a max speed limit lane. What's the problem with keeping left and let the other cars pass and subsequently join back into the overtaking formation when the faster cars have gone past you? The worst are the oblivious driver. I doubt that they ever look at their rear view mirror to look at other cars needing to pass them.

Next time you're on the road, spare a thought for other drivers. They might or might not have a legitimate reason to go fast but if you're not in a rush and you're blocking their way, just have the courtesy to let them pass you.

KPE - Love & Hate It

After getting the warning for speeding in the newly opened KPE, I'm extra careful and I know exactly where the cameras are but mostly importantly, I just switch to cruise control and move on when my car decides when to step up and slow down. The letter clearly stated that I could be fined some X amount and gotten like 4 demerit points. Ouch!

By the way, I was going at 85km/h which is below the speed limit for the other expressways. No excuses because I know that the limit is at 70km/h but my grumble is that it's so easy with modern cars to go beyond 70km/h without really stepping on it. The speed limit is ridiculous.

I usually take it on my back from work because it requires little brain cells because no one would be overtaking as that would potentially earn you a ticket. On the way towars CBD, I've never quite taken during morning peak hours. Let me know if you have done so and how's the condition like before I decide to be suicidal and try on a new route.

Interpretation of Dreams - Broken Mug

Do you believe in dreams and what it might be telling you?

After reading messages on Skype that Moody Penguin sent me last night, it took my a while to realise what he type and even then, I had difficulties digesting the information. Apparently, he will be going away for a while for various reasons. I had these in anticipation but it just hit me of a sudden that this is finally happening. The thought of not being able to hold him when I'm feeling down is indeed a little depressing but I'm happy things are moving for him. To avoid any form of miscommunication due to the lack of it, we had to learn to be more patient with and understanding of one another. Although I can't wait for life to start, I'm also apprehensive of what it brings me.

Tossed and turned in bed the whole time last night and couldn't fall asleep which also explains why I'm rather zombie like today. I did however manage to catch some 20 winks. I vaguely remembered this morning that I dreamt of a broken mug so I hurriedly search the internet for an interpretation and guess what I found. Taken from the book - Ultimate Dictionary of Dream Language

Mug (Broken) - Lack of communication will result in a major set back. Think ahead in order to prevent this.

Scares me how dreams indicates what is on your mind. I refuse to believe that it foretells anything but I am impressed with the book and what it is telling me.

Out-Excess

Recession has gotten to me and I think I brought it upon myself. Retail therapy this week kept me sane for a while until I thought of my credit card bills. A cheque to A&E Quack hasn't been cleared and I still owe Amazing Race Partner the monies for my last Phuket trip. On top of all these, the senseless purchase of shoes and board shorts has hit me back to reality. To top it off, I received a reminder from my mobile phone service provider that my bill hasn't been paid.

Wakeboarding with a banker, an advertising chi-chi tai tai wannabe aka Alcoholic Empress Dowager was disastrous yet hilarious. The session ended among thunder, lightning and a bunch of screaming girls. 10 mins after the screaming, we were back on dry land discussing how we should save money because it's recession and how the bankers are having their meals at hawkers. It seems like elastic things like good food are the first to go in times like these.

My teeth whitening scheduled but beginning of next month has to go on but everything else would have to go. That includes excessive shopping, excessive travelling (overseas or in Singapore although petrol prices have dipped), excessive food (which is also good for the waistline). However, that made me think twice on how much money I have been wasting for the past months or years. Watching the bank account dip is not a good feeling at all. In an attempt to make my life better, I'm determined to be more thrifty. Until my next big pay check that is...



被现实推挤
梦想会变形
执着让人
觉得好吃力
我只是看着你
了解的神情
微笑扬起
又能继续
有时候爱是一种眼神
赶走所有苦闷
是你让我记得自己不是一个人
有你在什么都有可能
因为彼此信任
真的爱情不需要保证(会恒温)
你从不劝我
别逆风飞行
牵手陪我
向梦前进

TGIF

Thank God it's Friday. It's been a long time since I can relish this ability to rest well after a hectic working week. Unfortunately, I have nothing lined up but will take Mom and Dad to a good meal. Dad's been away and is only back tonight so dinner will be at the airport. After which, my Friday night will be spent right in front of the computer and telly. My pretty frock I chose to put on this morning is just a beautiful sight for my 2 new colleagues, not that they paid much attention to it anyway. Alone and lonely.

Having said the above, I don't think I want to be out drinking and partying so a bit of a quiet time is actually good. The only thing missing is a tight cuddle in bed.

是我想太多?

Staring at my reflections as I was approaching my car this morning, I started to wonder where has the rest of me gone to. In terms of quantity, I have been seeing more of me but I couldn't see the soul that followed me through the ups and downs. I was caught in a blank moment...



你笑着说他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔
我的不安那么沉重
只有你不懂

他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我

是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我

是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

我想我没有错怪了什么
虽然你不说都是错在我
太晚我才懂爱了你太多

是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

Glenn and the FD were monkeying around this morning as usual but I wasn't quite in the mood except for my traffic updates. The last I want is to be stuck on ECP on my way to work on a Friday plagued with meetings which essentially means, no casual Fridays for me. While switching between the "CD" and "FM" function, I paused when the hilarious DJs quoted from some SMSes on how women like to be treated. One of them was about gifts from guys. Girls like it even better when they come with cards with loads written on it. Not the canned messages but one handwritten by the sender. Words, the more the merrier. I couldn't agree more. Cards/Letters are things that weathers through the years and in time when you look back reading such messages, the exodus of memory will just rush out enough to drown you in an emotional storm. I did that a couple of nights ago and realised how colourful my teenage years actually were, filled with letters between girlfriends. These days, my gifts have become very unpersonalised as well. Some soul searching is in the pipeline...

The other SMS said that whenever we come back from work (either back to home or just seeing one another), all we want is for you to look at us in our eyes, give us a hug and tell us how much you missed us. I would not classify this as what guys should do for girls but in general, what everyone should do to their other half and not let this crazy world take the love away from the both of you.

Going back to my personal insignificant world, I do not like to be ignored. I guess no one does. I think it's fair if one has to do it for work but to do it in spite, you may think it's right but definitely not to me. Sincere apologies should be taken into account whether they are eventually being accepted or not. For weeks and weeks, I cared too much that I let every single thing affect me. Had I not cared so much, it may not have such a great impact on my life. But then again, have we all left our burdens from yesterday behind and move on or do we still have a million of things going through our heads when the last significant other calls or smses? Still living in someone else's shadow, I can't find my smile.

Click Click

A&E Quack or rather, ENT Quack or soon to be Radiology Quack, whatever, we all know he's a quack... Well, dropped us a huge piece of news yesterday. Really happy for him and it's nice to be able to share the "frolicking" mood around the group. When he first told us, I was hesitant to believe what he said since it's a bit of crying wolf. He's not a habitual liar, don't get me wrong. But he's always joking about things, everything, that I tend to hold back a little whenever he breaks such news. Anyway, all of my very best wishes goes out to him.

Anyway, I've been talking about this forever. I want a camera. Not a point & shoot, I've got like 2000 of them (just a figure of speech, I'm not buried under them yet). I want a decent, complicated, confusing, cool looking SLR. From looking at the 40D since last year, I've been procrastinating the purchase ever since I got my Kokoro. Now that the 50D is out, I'm being tempted once again.

To be fair, like what Moody Penguin said, I don't need such a good camera as it would be a waste but it's such a cool gadget to have. So it has become my next goal when I close the next big thing. More like an encouragement. If I get to close a small one, I should be happy with the 450D. Having said all that, my suspension and exhaust are still in the pipeline building carbon... I mean collecting dust.

Meanwhile, I shall just stick to enjoying watching my man play with his expensive toys... That's what he's good at!

TPE... PIE... ECP

Not about to list out all the E's in Singapore. Just a general observation that irks me on a daily basis. The exit to PIE from the TPE is jammed up every morning. Genuinely, I do sympathise with people who are left with no choice but to take that particular expressway but I'm going to rant anyway. Why is it that to turn into the small bottlenexk leading to the PIE, cars have to block up the entire stretch. This only applies to inconsiderate drivers who tries to beat the jam by cutting the queue and tries to join back in at the end of the stretch. The end result - A jammed up 4 lane expressway depriving of people who needs to head to ECP their chance of enjoying that stretch of jamless road and of course, the cost of fuel and environmental issues are becoming a real world problem. What happens to people who needs to head off to the airport during peak hours? Singaporeans have no idea how their behavior seriously affects others, don't they?

Oh well, I'm at work on time so...

Waiting to be Waited On?

Clearing up after ourselves is a basic thing that should be indoctrinated to us but being Singaporeans and totally spoilt by be waited on at hand and feet for everything we do, food courts are filled with the older tier of the population cleaning up after us brats.

Graciousness is something the government has been trying to wash into our brains but some things take time and this is one of them. To try to change human behavior can not simply be done overnight. But let's just try it this once and let's start from fast-food restaurants where the food is not as messy to deal with as food courts and most of the stuffs are disposable.

For myself, I have been brought up to clear after myself but easy help breeds laziness and I have to admit, I leave it to the cleaners now more often than not. Thinking back, this is not something I would like to teach my kids so I shall endeavor to clean up after myself from today onwards.

Martians and Women

Summary to a whole new world after a week - Let's just say with Singapore officially in recession, I'm naturally worried having just starting anew. Overcast loom across the hot sunny Singaporean day. The silence is killing everyone, the financial market is taking it's last breath before it goes into hibernation. The hyperinflation started from market prices and now, my GDP can't seem to follow up. Staying conservative, I can only do what I can and was good at. Whether am I still able, I haven't been able to ascertain myself till I finally get to see some numbers.

Not being the most numbers sensitive or financially sound person around, I just need to rant and let go of the dark clouds surrounding me. If only my work has that big an impact on me. The next thing that could drive me to this stage is by cutting a couple of onions.

Do girls generally ask for too much? Why is it when we know that it is not exactly that we're not being cared for but we just want that bit more, asking for a little too much? I'm so tired and although it's too early to feel so, I can't seem to find the energy to walk anymore. I just want to find a corner, take a rest and cry. But nobody really cares if you shed a tear or not. All they want is to not know about it. As the saying goes, see no evil. What I don't see don't hurt me?

Had a short chat during an unofficial break with Hair Gelled New Yorker about the interaction between guys and girls and I'm not telling how contrasting it is, I only know it's affecting me at this very moment.

When one is the willing giver, one can't blame the non-reciprocation. But is it wrong to feel down? You be the judge.

Blackberry Storm

The iPhone has tempted me in some way but the more sensible part of me has refused to get one of those. Admittedly, it looks so darn cool, just like the iPod and whatever Mac there is. This may sound like sourgrapes but hey, it's still not a Blackberry in terms of email functions. I'm not the most technical person but I know I would like to feel my buttons when I'm typing an email. The qwerty is addictive and with the new Blackberry, many wonder how can a Blackberry ever be touchscreen. The ingenious part of this new BB device, although it's touchscreen, it gives you the "clicking" feeling so it does feel like a real BB. Gonna get one this November. I don't want one now. I need one!

接下来

All I Wanna Do　I Do it For You
心里能感觉　你们还在
如此靠近的遥远
想念的瞬间　不断浮现
接受啊 身边有点孤单
我准备　每个再见面
接下来　有好有坏
我只要　记得起点
接下来　我去迎接　不后退
接下来　可好可坏
有你们　陪在每一天
All I Wanna Do　I Do it For You

All I Wanna Do　I Do it For You
就算啊　偶尔我觉得累
是了解　推著我向前
接下来　有好有坏
我只要　记得起点
接下来　我去迎接　不后退
接下来　可好可坏
有你们　陪在每一天
All I Wanna Do　I Do it For You

Do it I Do it For You

我们一起飞
飞得更远
All I Wanna Do　I Do it For You
替我们实现
梦的极限
让我看得见
我的信念

5...4...3...2...1... BOOM!

Counting the number of days before I get back to the rat race, it is starting to get a little scary. Just imagine someone gave you 3 months to not do anything and just as you are getting comfortable, things have to revert to how it was like or even more more hectic than previously. During these 3 months, situations changed and comfort level has increased tremendously. The inertia to get back is finding it easy to easy to keep me where I am. But to achieve the lifestyle I want, the last I can or want to do is to sit back.

Just when you think life is going to be better, like a bad relationship, some things or people have to haunt you. So much for wanting to part on good terms, Sod's Law has never failed to work its magic. I've offcially sunken to my lowest point and felt that the world has come right down on me without warning. Thinking about some things makes you sick. Thinking about how you thought very well of certain people makes you even sicker. I can't blame others for being naive myself. To learn things the hard way is unavoidable. The bumps and bruises are part and parcel. To learn to love and hold again is a challenge.

I just want to put all the crap behind me and move on...