Dear Pretty Mom,
I know life is tough and the uncertainties in life are driving you crazy. Hang in there! Whenever i can, i'll give you a hug and will continue to bug you till the end of times. Although i do not have anyone to hug right now, i know one day i will find that someone. Even then, you'll always get my warm hug. By then, you'd have found spring and probably be done and over with this rough patch. I love you!
Your Big Fat & Short Arse...
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Monday, November 27, 2006
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Hong Kong, I'm Coming!!!
Time passes faster than i'd want. I'm actually looking forward to go Hong Kong despite the pressing credit card bills and irritating phonecalls from Citibank. I say this to myself all the time but now is the time to stick to what i say, "Stop spending money!"
The Macau trip initially planned by our Hong Kong office has been cancelled due to the hassle of customs for the huge group of people. Macau never sounded interesting at all and i've never really felt to excited about going. But this time, i do genuinely wanna go. I think it's gonna be great fun esp with my hilarious colleagues from our Hong Kong office. Well, now that it's officially cancelled, we have no freaking idea what we're going to do on Saturday. The thought of bonding sessions just sends shivers up my fatty spine.
Does anyone have any suggestions?
My other dumb worry, i seriously suspect that i'm going to have my period during that fews days. Gosh, it's so gonna spoil my holiday. Please come NOW...
The Macau trip initially planned by our Hong Kong office has been cancelled due to the hassle of customs for the huge group of people. Macau never sounded interesting at all and i've never really felt to excited about going. But this time, i do genuinely wanna go. I think it's gonna be great fun esp with my hilarious colleagues from our Hong Kong office. Well, now that it's officially cancelled, we have no freaking idea what we're going to do on Saturday. The thought of bonding sessions just sends shivers up my fatty spine.
Does anyone have any suggestions?
My other dumb worry, i seriously suspect that i'm going to have my period during that fews days. Gosh, it's so gonna spoil my holiday. Please come NOW...
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Monday, November 20, 2006
Here Without You - 3 Doors Down
A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I've saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me
The miles just keep rollin as the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated but I hope that it gets better as we go
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done it get hard but it won’t take away my love
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
"Loneliness is unbearable and you left me for good..."
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me
The miles just keep rollin as the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated but I hope that it gets better as we go
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done it get hard but it won’t take away my love
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
"Loneliness is unbearable and you left me for good..."
Grandma visited me...
I'm sure it was my Grandma! She came back to visit us. My cousin, "Pretty Mom" had a dream of Grandma at about the same time too. My other cousin, "Diamond Babe" said that Grandma came back to visit us because she loves us most. And the truth is, my Grandma does love "Pretty Mom" and myself loads cuz we've always visited her and was with her till the last moment. She loved me, i know it. "Pretty Mom", Grandma loves us and we know it.
Dreaming of you...
I have a serious character flaw that strips off any good relationship i'd want to have. When i say relationship, it doesn't quite refer to guys but also friends and family. I must admit i'm not a popular person and i know that very fact. I've always had some attitude problem which pushes people away and throughout my entire life, i'm constantly in search of what i can do to better myself so that i wouldn't be the common enemy or jinx. I've never ever found that answer and i guess i'll never will.
I think i'll go into hiding again.
I need someone to hug me tight and hear me cry.
I dreamt of my Grandma thevery first time after she passed away. I didn't wanna tell anyone about it but the fear of losing the image of her in my dream, i've decided to blog about it.
In my dream, i was driven around by some friend in a car behind some dark and shady streets of Bangkok. We came across this door and someone in the car asked me, "what's behind the door?" I told him as if i've been to that place, i told him "you go in, turn left then right, you'll reach the main lobby". The very next moment, i found myself walking through the door and according to my own instructions, i walked to the main lobby. When i got to the lobby, i found a very young looking Grandma standing beside two of her children and if i'm not wrong, it's "Pretty Mom"'s Mom and my Dad. I went up to hug her and cried like never before. But after a while of crying, i found myself hugging a luggage instead. My aunt then took out two books out of that luggage and one of which is a Bible, please don't ask me why. Then she took my Grandma's picture out of the Bible. Somehow i think my Auntie was trying to tell me that my Grandma is dead and i have to face the pain of reality. In actual fact, there's still a large part of me that still can't believe that Grandma has passed away and left me. I didn't quite cry after she passed on because i thought she's still there whenever i needed a shelter.
Back to the dream, i just cried and continued hugging the two books. After a while, i found myself hugging my Grandma again but this time, she had turned very old - Just like how she looked like before she passed away. I just cried and cried. I woke up and i continued to cry. I guess i really miss her although i didn't quite show it. On the outside, it seems that i've got over it really fast. And through her funeral, we've managed to bond with some relatives. That reduced alot of the pain because i've got to spend a generous amount of time with them now. But whenever i get home and the noise vanishes, when i'm all alone again, i do miss her. The pain i experienced was indescribable. I guess that's what people call grieving. I've never really cried out loud after she passed on, not even during the funeral. But today, i let all my emotions go entirely and i cried out. And of course, all by myself, yet again. It's beginning to hit in real hard to know that the person who loves me most has already left me. No doubt she has gone to a better place, i still can't accept the torture of actuality. I used to escape the harshness of life once in a while to pay her a visit but right now, i can only have a good sleep and cry when i wake up. I have no friends, i have no company, i have no desirable emotions anymore. I'm so tired... I want my Grandma...
I think i'll go into hiding again.
I need someone to hug me tight and hear me cry.
I dreamt of my Grandma thevery first time after she passed away. I didn't wanna tell anyone about it but the fear of losing the image of her in my dream, i've decided to blog about it.
In my dream, i was driven around by some friend in a car behind some dark and shady streets of Bangkok. We came across this door and someone in the car asked me, "what's behind the door?" I told him as if i've been to that place, i told him "you go in, turn left then right, you'll reach the main lobby". The very next moment, i found myself walking through the door and according to my own instructions, i walked to the main lobby. When i got to the lobby, i found a very young looking Grandma standing beside two of her children and if i'm not wrong, it's "Pretty Mom"'s Mom and my Dad. I went up to hug her and cried like never before. But after a while of crying, i found myself hugging a luggage instead. My aunt then took out two books out of that luggage and one of which is a Bible, please don't ask me why. Then she took my Grandma's picture out of the Bible. Somehow i think my Auntie was trying to tell me that my Grandma is dead and i have to face the pain of reality. In actual fact, there's still a large part of me that still can't believe that Grandma has passed away and left me. I didn't quite cry after she passed on because i thought she's still there whenever i needed a shelter.
Back to the dream, i just cried and continued hugging the two books. After a while, i found myself hugging my Grandma again but this time, she had turned very old - Just like how she looked like before she passed away. I just cried and cried. I woke up and i continued to cry. I guess i really miss her although i didn't quite show it. On the outside, it seems that i've got over it really fast. And through her funeral, we've managed to bond with some relatives. That reduced alot of the pain because i've got to spend a generous amount of time with them now. But whenever i get home and the noise vanishes, when i'm all alone again, i do miss her. The pain i experienced was indescribable. I guess that's what people call grieving. I've never really cried out loud after she passed on, not even during the funeral. But today, i let all my emotions go entirely and i cried out. And of course, all by myself, yet again. It's beginning to hit in real hard to know that the person who loves me most has already left me. No doubt she has gone to a better place, i still can't accept the torture of actuality. I used to escape the harshness of life once in a while to pay her a visit but right now, i can only have a good sleep and cry when i wake up. I have no friends, i have no company, i have no desirable emotions anymore. I'm so tired... I want my Grandma...
Friday, November 17, 2006
You Don't Bring Me Flowers
My mood's a little grey, just like the weather today...
Sometimes love just dies and you wouldn't know it until you realise, there are no more flowers or blooms in the relationship.
You Don't Bring Me Flowers
Sung by: Neil Diamond & Barbra Streisand
You don't bring me flowers
You don't sing me love songs
You hardly talk to me anymore
When you come thru the door
At the end of the day
I remember when you couldn't wait to love me
Used to hate to leave me
Now after lovin' me late at night
When it's good for you, babe
And you're feelin' alright
Well you just roll over and turn out the light
And you don't bring me flowers anymore
It used to be so natural to talk about forever
But "used to be's" don't count anymore
They just lay on the floor
'Til we sweep them away
Baby, I remember
All the things you taught me
I learned how to laugh
And I learned how to cry
Well, I leared how to love
And I learned how to lie
So you'd think I could learn
How to tell you goodbye
You don't bring me flowers anymore
Well, you'd think I'd could learn
How to say tell you goodbye
You don't say you need me
You don't sing me love songs
You don't bring me flowers anymore
Sometimes love just dies and you wouldn't know it until you realise, there are no more flowers or blooms in the relationship.
You Don't Bring Me Flowers
Sung by: Neil Diamond & Barbra Streisand
You don't bring me flowers
You don't sing me love songs
You hardly talk to me anymore
When you come thru the door
At the end of the day
I remember when you couldn't wait to love me
Used to hate to leave me
Now after lovin' me late at night
When it's good for you, babe
And you're feelin' alright
Well you just roll over and turn out the light
And you don't bring me flowers anymore
It used to be so natural to talk about forever
But "used to be's" don't count anymore
They just lay on the floor
'Til we sweep them away
Baby, I remember
All the things you taught me
I learned how to laugh
And I learned how to cry
Well, I leared how to love
And I learned how to lie
So you'd think I could learn
How to tell you goodbye
You don't bring me flowers anymore
Well, you'd think I'd could learn
How to say tell you goodbye
You don't say you need me
You don't sing me love songs
You don't bring me flowers anymore
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Are Marriages for Everyone?
I was out with my bunch of cousins and nieces and nephews last night. By the way, is there like an acronym for nieces and nephews? I'll just call them my NN from now on, then again, NN sounds like neh neh, whatever. As usual, it was interesting but the better part came after we sent the underaged ones back home to slumberland.
One of my cousin is undergoing a rough patch and the sky ahead does seem better. The clouds are clearing and just hope she'll stay happy just as she has always been. My other cousin married this one guy who is eerily similar to the guy i almost married myself to(in terms of character and temperament) and i'm thankful i didn't. So decide for yourself what she had got herself into. I love both my cousins and i know they will emerge a stronger person/s one day and be happy eventually but these stuffs actually gives me the fear to go into any marriage. Well they do have beautiful kids...
One of the major regrets in my life: My grandma never lived to see my kids, if i ever have any in future. Just before she passed away, when her mind wasn't that crystal clear, she actually asked if i'm married already. I really wish to see her carry my kids just like the way she carried me when i was a baby.
I've always thought that i'm a family person and that i'll make a good wife and mother. Not that i can't be one now but i've lost the urge to have kids while i'm still young. I still want to be a young mother but i don't know if i can be a young wife. I've always tried to be a good girlfriend and in future, a good wife but i suppose it's just the wrong person, the wrong time, all the time.
Do i still have any hope of being a young Mom? I don't know but i will continue to be a good person, or so i try to.
A quote which i've picked out from Oprah Show some time back, "First a Wife, then a Mother" and i'd like to add on, "First a woman, then a wife, then a mother"
One of my cousin is undergoing a rough patch and the sky ahead does seem better. The clouds are clearing and just hope she'll stay happy just as she has always been. My other cousin married this one guy who is eerily similar to the guy i almost married myself to(in terms of character and temperament) and i'm thankful i didn't. So decide for yourself what she had got herself into. I love both my cousins and i know they will emerge a stronger person/s one day and be happy eventually but these stuffs actually gives me the fear to go into any marriage. Well they do have beautiful kids...
One of the major regrets in my life: My grandma never lived to see my kids, if i ever have any in future. Just before she passed away, when her mind wasn't that crystal clear, she actually asked if i'm married already. I really wish to see her carry my kids just like the way she carried me when i was a baby.
I've always thought that i'm a family person and that i'll make a good wife and mother. Not that i can't be one now but i've lost the urge to have kids while i'm still young. I still want to be a young mother but i don't know if i can be a young wife. I've always tried to be a good girlfriend and in future, a good wife but i suppose it's just the wrong person, the wrong time, all the time.
Do i still have any hope of being a young Mom? I don't know but i will continue to be a good person, or so i try to.
A quote which i've picked out from Oprah Show some time back, "First a Wife, then a Mother" and i'd like to add on, "First a woman, then a wife, then a mother"
Monday, November 13, 2006
Old Post - Welcome To My Life
8/28/2005
Welcome To My Life
I know i'm upset but that didn't led me to the bloody accident i met with today. I'm a safe and accident free driver and not like i'm not already but from today onwards, i genuinely hate FEMALE drivers! And yes, i'm one myself but hey, don't drive like one and get stereotyped into one.
Don't worry, i didn't lose any limbs juz lost my mind for that moment of heat. I was driving my black mobile around Katong Mall and cuz they only have a driveway for pick-ups, i had to turn round and round till i manage to pick the person i wanted to pick, up. I stopped by the side of the road, with my hazard light on.
I decided i wanted to make a left turn into the waiting zone so I signalled left and i moved off real slowly. After checking my mirror, i only managed to hear a great Bang! The bloody bitch came from the lane on my right with a failed attempt to cut into my lane and turn left. My mirror told me she was going straight, meaning obviously, she DID NOT signal!
Being the nice accomodating girl i've never failed to be, i was prepared to talk to her nicely. Well i haven't got the bloody chance to do so cuz she came by my door almost immediately and stood there and scolded me continuously. I couldn't even open my door. So i went like, hey hey hey Look! Can i get out of my car to check the damage? She was walking away slowly away from the door and while doing all these, she never stopped her bloody mouth. I did try to explain that she shouldn't be turning in and all and guess what, she insisted that i did not signal and pushed the whole load of fault onto me.
I admit that while i'm on the road, i owe other road users a duty of care and whatever it is, i'm contributary negligent too but hey, don't scream at me just so because i was wearing jeans and cute t-shirt complete with limited edition cool Nike Air-Force Delta and look absolutely young. She must have thought i'm some young punk and shouldn't be on the road but i swear i make a much better driver lah. Fortunately i didn't really create a huge dent on the car, juz scratches which ends on the bumper/bodykit and i could juz spray the kit, i hope...
Damn it lah... She was driving this lousy silver Corolla lor... Mine's a new set of wheels... Only out of the Mitsubishi garage for less than 2 months... Fucking bitch... I told her to wait as my clearer headed friend was headed down to talk amicably, i really wasn't in the mood to talk anymore. I swear i was just damn unlucky. She kept going on about me wasting her precious time and that she needed to go for a concert and was running late and she happily scribbled illegible words on her "kiam cai" notebook and ask me to sign... Look lah, i may be a young punk but as a law student, and a bright one at that, i wouldn't be so stupid as in to sign anything lah. Do i really have the good to bully face?
So i quarreled with her lah. Almost went into a cat fight. My face was all flushed, my fist went inches from her face but all the S18..Offences Against a Person's Act starting to haunt me like hungry ghost lah... I kept my temper down. For those who really know me, i have a bloody fiery temper ok. Don't play play... I would have juz slapped the brains outta her there and then lah plus i wasn't exactly in a good mood to mediate things out. Fucker. Then my savior came. He was like "Look, both cars are on the move. There's no witness. It's your words against my word. So if you want both our insurance premium to go up, by all means, we can report if not we'll forget it and bear our own costs. How?" She initially shouted like it's between me and her not your problem and went wild lah. But slowly she calmed down and was like ok...
My engine juz got started, i went on and on like her it's her fault, i'll pay to get an automobile forensic and check the marks and see whose fault lah... But after a while i shut up cuz i'll get my friend into trouble lah... I was so angry i cried and cried and i trembled like hell lah. never before have i seen red, so red that i trembled in anger. And this happened twice this week.I probably offended some God or something...
First it was the sucky resignation and the whole heart pain saga then yesterday at Union Square, this fat fuck stomped on my foot and it's all swollen like some swine's trotter and my "ai ren" has gone for London and now this fucking bitch lah. I really wasn't at fault but she think i can be bullied kept rambling on... When my savior came, she shut up like some 1st grader lah. BITCH! Obviously bullying me. I swear i'll overtake her everytime i see her. Wait till i get my twin turbo. Now i need to pay for the damn scratches lah... Somemore she couldn't get a worst car plate but suits her lah... It's a CB as she was to me... 7887... What CB number right?
But blessing in disguise, i was unharmed lah. I watched Bewitched just now and at some point, the thing Nicole Kidman said makes me really upset lah. Like reminding how "sway" i've been. The scene when she told her Dad about she wanted to leave everything and forget about jerks... Whatever lah... I feel like crying but then again, it's all over. I shouldn't be so silly anymore. I'll open my eyes bigger next time.
Welcome To My Life...
Yes, in the song mode again.
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desparate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like
To be hurt
To feel los
tTo be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like, what it's like Welcome to my life!!!!!!
Welcome To My Life
I know i'm upset but that didn't led me to the bloody accident i met with today. I'm a safe and accident free driver and not like i'm not already but from today onwards, i genuinely hate FEMALE drivers! And yes, i'm one myself but hey, don't drive like one and get stereotyped into one.
Don't worry, i didn't lose any limbs juz lost my mind for that moment of heat. I was driving my black mobile around Katong Mall and cuz they only have a driveway for pick-ups, i had to turn round and round till i manage to pick the person i wanted to pick, up. I stopped by the side of the road, with my hazard light on.
I decided i wanted to make a left turn into the waiting zone so I signalled left and i moved off real slowly. After checking my mirror, i only managed to hear a great Bang! The bloody bitch came from the lane on my right with a failed attempt to cut into my lane and turn left. My mirror told me she was going straight, meaning obviously, she DID NOT signal!
Being the nice accomodating girl i've never failed to be, i was prepared to talk to her nicely. Well i haven't got the bloody chance to do so cuz she came by my door almost immediately and stood there and scolded me continuously. I couldn't even open my door. So i went like, hey hey hey Look! Can i get out of my car to check the damage? She was walking away slowly away from the door and while doing all these, she never stopped her bloody mouth. I did try to explain that she shouldn't be turning in and all and guess what, she insisted that i did not signal and pushed the whole load of fault onto me.
I admit that while i'm on the road, i owe other road users a duty of care and whatever it is, i'm contributary negligent too but hey, don't scream at me just so because i was wearing jeans and cute t-shirt complete with limited edition cool Nike Air-Force Delta and look absolutely young. She must have thought i'm some young punk and shouldn't be on the road but i swear i make a much better driver lah. Fortunately i didn't really create a huge dent on the car, juz scratches which ends on the bumper/bodykit and i could juz spray the kit, i hope...
Damn it lah... She was driving this lousy silver Corolla lor... Mine's a new set of wheels... Only out of the Mitsubishi garage for less than 2 months... Fucking bitch... I told her to wait as my clearer headed friend was headed down to talk amicably, i really wasn't in the mood to talk anymore. I swear i was just damn unlucky. She kept going on about me wasting her precious time and that she needed to go for a concert and was running late and she happily scribbled illegible words on her "kiam cai" notebook and ask me to sign... Look lah, i may be a young punk but as a law student, and a bright one at that, i wouldn't be so stupid as in to sign anything lah. Do i really have the good to bully face?
So i quarreled with her lah. Almost went into a cat fight. My face was all flushed, my fist went inches from her face but all the S18..Offences Against a Person's Act starting to haunt me like hungry ghost lah... I kept my temper down. For those who really know me, i have a bloody fiery temper ok. Don't play play... I would have juz slapped the brains outta her there and then lah plus i wasn't exactly in a good mood to mediate things out. Fucker. Then my savior came. He was like "Look, both cars are on the move. There's no witness. It's your words against my word. So if you want both our insurance premium to go up, by all means, we can report if not we'll forget it and bear our own costs. How?" She initially shouted like it's between me and her not your problem and went wild lah. But slowly she calmed down and was like ok...
My engine juz got started, i went on and on like her it's her fault, i'll pay to get an automobile forensic and check the marks and see whose fault lah... But after a while i shut up cuz i'll get my friend into trouble lah... I was so angry i cried and cried and i trembled like hell lah. never before have i seen red, so red that i trembled in anger. And this happened twice this week.I probably offended some God or something...
First it was the sucky resignation and the whole heart pain saga then yesterday at Union Square, this fat fuck stomped on my foot and it's all swollen like some swine's trotter and my "ai ren" has gone for London and now this fucking bitch lah. I really wasn't at fault but she think i can be bullied kept rambling on... When my savior came, she shut up like some 1st grader lah. BITCH! Obviously bullying me. I swear i'll overtake her everytime i see her. Wait till i get my twin turbo. Now i need to pay for the damn scratches lah... Somemore she couldn't get a worst car plate but suits her lah... It's a CB as she was to me... 7887... What CB number right?
But blessing in disguise, i was unharmed lah. I watched Bewitched just now and at some point, the thing Nicole Kidman said makes me really upset lah. Like reminding how "sway" i've been. The scene when she told her Dad about she wanted to leave everything and forget about jerks... Whatever lah... I feel like crying but then again, it's all over. I shouldn't be so silly anymore. I'll open my eyes bigger next time.
Welcome To My Life...
Yes, in the song mode again.
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desparate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like
To be hurt
To feel los
tTo be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like, what it's like Welcome to my life!!!!!!
Old Post - Police Car
When i thought, going into the police force was my only way out. Thank goodness i woke up in time. What was i thinking?
There was a picture, just didn't turn out when i transfered the post.
8/26/2005
Singapore Police Car - WRX
The only reason for me to join the police is to be able to race on the road and be the only one doing it. Do you even care if it's a STi? I want! I think if you squint your eyes enough, you can juz admire the sheer size of the rims.
Now we're talking... Would prefer if the car is in waxed black and the word "POLICE" glows in florescent pink. Way vrooom cool.
Which reminds me, i kept seeing this pair(yes two not one) of STi. They're like identical twins, both white with pink stickers on the same spot. I believe the drivers are husband and wife cuz they each have a kid in their back seat waving frantically and making funny faces at each other ALL THE TIME! I wonder what did the lady say to her husband to convince him to "tia" pink stickers on the car lor. Anyway the car looked like it was gone past a Xerox the size of the car-wash. I want a Xerox liddat too. By the way if you guys have the August WHEELS, there's this picture inside which was damn funny. I was rolling on my bed when i say it. It's actually a Mitsubishi Lancer ah hem the one i always drive, with Subaru's signature air-scoop mounted on it and with a classic Subaru's high mount spoiler. Guess what, the fun part was that, the editors called it the "Mitsubaru Lancer WRX" haha i swear both are car and the owner are confused. What was the guys thinking man... Me? I want my Evo GSR in full fierce black polished to a mirror shine with huge rims say 20" anything bigger than that i might have to tear the inside of the car down, hammer it totally outta shape and the car would be in a total unbalanced ride then again, the bigger the better, complete with Brembo break pads, Momo and more Momo, ok let Momo live in harmony with Ralliart accessories, not so much Momo, one piece low chunky bulky bumber, in short, full body kit... For at least 156k to begin with. What a "humble" figure... I want man...
Guys with Sharkies are welcome to propose to "ben xiao jie" and take note, the bigger your rims, the better/higher your chances. Not those rims, what are you thinking of... Ok it's those rims... Silver polished one... I must be mad lah... Ok i'm really mad. I'll be more chin chai, i'll take a WRX STi.
But still dun wanna be "ma ta" leh...
Daddy!!!
There was a picture, just didn't turn out when i transfered the post.
8/26/2005
Singapore Police Car - WRX
The only reason for me to join the police is to be able to race on the road and be the only one doing it. Do you even care if it's a STi? I want! I think if you squint your eyes enough, you can juz admire the sheer size of the rims.
Now we're talking... Would prefer if the car is in waxed black and the word "POLICE" glows in florescent pink. Way vrooom cool.
Which reminds me, i kept seeing this pair(yes two not one) of STi. They're like identical twins, both white with pink stickers on the same spot. I believe the drivers are husband and wife cuz they each have a kid in their back seat waving frantically and making funny faces at each other ALL THE TIME! I wonder what did the lady say to her husband to convince him to "tia" pink stickers on the car lor. Anyway the car looked like it was gone past a Xerox the size of the car-wash. I want a Xerox liddat too. By the way if you guys have the August WHEELS, there's this picture inside which was damn funny. I was rolling on my bed when i say it. It's actually a Mitsubishi Lancer ah hem the one i always drive, with Subaru's signature air-scoop mounted on it and with a classic Subaru's high mount spoiler. Guess what, the fun part was that, the editors called it the "Mitsubaru Lancer WRX" haha i swear both are car and the owner are confused. What was the guys thinking man... Me? I want my Evo GSR in full fierce black polished to a mirror shine with huge rims say 20" anything bigger than that i might have to tear the inside of the car down, hammer it totally outta shape and the car would be in a total unbalanced ride then again, the bigger the better, complete with Brembo break pads, Momo and more Momo, ok let Momo live in harmony with Ralliart accessories, not so much Momo, one piece low chunky bulky bumber, in short, full body kit... For at least 156k to begin with. What a "humble" figure... I want man...
Guys with Sharkies are welcome to propose to "ben xiao jie" and take note, the bigger your rims, the better/higher your chances. Not those rims, what are you thinking of... Ok it's those rims... Silver polished one... I must be mad lah... Ok i'm really mad. I'll be more chin chai, i'll take a WRX STi.
But still dun wanna be "ma ta" leh...
Daddy!!!
Old Post - Joke - Dark In Here
09/8/2005
Dark In Here
A woman takes a lover home during the day while her husband is at work. Her 9 year old son comes home unexpectedly, sees them and hides in the bedroom closet to watch. The woman's husband also comes home. She puts her lover in the closet, not realizing that the little boy is in there already.
The little boy says, "Dark in here."
The man says, "Yes, it is."
Boy - "I have a baseball."
Man - "That's nice."
Boy - "Want to buy it?"
Man - "No, thanks."
Boy - "My dad's outside."
Man - "OK, how much?"
Boy - "$250"
In the next few weeks, it happens again that the boy and the lover are in the closet together.
Boy - "Dark in here."
Man - "Yes, it is."
Boy - "I have a baseball glove."
The lover, remembering the last time, asks the boy, "How much?"
Boy - "$750"Man - "Sold."A
few days later, the father says to the boy, "Grab your glove, let's go outside and have a game of catch. The boy says, "I can't, I sold my baseball and my glove." The father asks, "How much did you sell them for?"Boy -"$1,000"
The father says, "That's terrible to overcharge your friends like that.......that is way more than those two things cost. I'm going to take you to church and make you confess."
They go to the church and the father makes the little boy sit in the confession booth and he closes the door.The boy says, "Dark in here."The priest says, "Don't start that shit again, you're in my closet now."
Dark In Here
A woman takes a lover home during the day while her husband is at work. Her 9 year old son comes home unexpectedly, sees them and hides in the bedroom closet to watch. The woman's husband also comes home. She puts her lover in the closet, not realizing that the little boy is in there already.
The little boy says, "Dark in here."
The man says, "Yes, it is."
Boy - "I have a baseball."
Man - "That's nice."
Boy - "Want to buy it?"
Man - "No, thanks."
Boy - "My dad's outside."
Man - "OK, how much?"
Boy - "$250"
In the next few weeks, it happens again that the boy and the lover are in the closet together.
Boy - "Dark in here."
Man - "Yes, it is."
Boy - "I have a baseball glove."
The lover, remembering the last time, asks the boy, "How much?"
Boy - "$750"Man - "Sold."A
few days later, the father says to the boy, "Grab your glove, let's go outside and have a game of catch. The boy says, "I can't, I sold my baseball and my glove." The father asks, "How much did you sell them for?"Boy -"$1,000"
The father says, "That's terrible to overcharge your friends like that.......that is way more than those two things cost. I'm going to take you to church and make you confess."
They go to the church and the father makes the little boy sit in the confession booth and he closes the door.The boy says, "Dark in here."The priest says, "Don't start that shit again, you're in my closet now."
Old Post - Sucker Sucker
I only want my S40 right now. Oh well a Grand Vitara will do. Fine fine, Suzie then...
24/08/2005
I'm a SUCKER!
Princess Jaz
All my friends probably know that i'm a sucker for big nice shiny rim and i swoon over nice cars. Recently i thought i found a relatively ok Japanese car with potential for bigger rims and i was willing to wait for the big rims to happen. In case you haven't realise, rims in this case, means men and my life suck big time.
Well as i was saying, this set of rims looks like it has potential for upgrading to fit nicer broader cooler, stable tires which will fit the family saloon. I couldn't be more wrong. I was actually in for a undesired surprise. This set rims were made backyard, lousy, total fake and accident prone. No tires will ever fit nicely purely because those rims were weren't meant to be used, juz nice to look at. Like when you go shopping, "nice to see, nice to touch, dun attempt breaking it cuz you'll go home to cry your lungs out."
Maybe the continental car which doesn't look half as good, with reliable rims seems better afterall though i'm never going to be madly in love with normal rims but hey, i love them cuz they can be utilised and relied on.I swear i'm a total sucker. And because i made some god forsaken mistake, i may need to quit my job tomorrow but i know i'll be happier.
For the past few cars which past me by, after driving and sitting in it, i feel good at least i drove it once right and i never shed a tear. But hey why am i crying over bad car, with bad rims, terrible performance, ugly colour, totally unable to withstand knocks and blows which i haven't even gotten to test drive it. Good news, i know the car is inferior before losing my life in it uninsured. Lesson learnt, continental cars are still the ones with reliable engines regardless of how it looks and one day, you may find yourself driving a black shiny 6series, right? Who knows...I'm glad i have friends there for me all these while to tell me the car i was dying to drive sucks.
Though not all Japanese cars suck, in this case, it juz happen to be a mistake in the production line i reckon. I'm lucky not to have driven the car or in this case, let the car drive me. After a few more drinks i finally learnt my lesson, don't drink and drive. Since i am a nice MR-S myself, why would i want a fucked up car? I may not have very nice engines and rims yet but hey, i have space for expansion and before you know it, i may be a nice white Fair Lady with suitably large rims. I'm not looking for a 7 series nor a swanky Lexus, i only wanted a reliable family saloon, why is that so tough? But shouldn't i be happy with my Holden for now? Maybe one day, it'll be part of the Ford family right?I've put bad rims and ugly colours behind me. I only want a reliable Camry. Afterall, it's still a 2L car.
24/08/2005
I'm a SUCKER!
Princess Jaz
All my friends probably know that i'm a sucker for big nice shiny rim and i swoon over nice cars. Recently i thought i found a relatively ok Japanese car with potential for bigger rims and i was willing to wait for the big rims to happen. In case you haven't realise, rims in this case, means men and my life suck big time.
Well as i was saying, this set of rims looks like it has potential for upgrading to fit nicer broader cooler, stable tires which will fit the family saloon. I couldn't be more wrong. I was actually in for a undesired surprise. This set rims were made backyard, lousy, total fake and accident prone. No tires will ever fit nicely purely because those rims were weren't meant to be used, juz nice to look at. Like when you go shopping, "nice to see, nice to touch, dun attempt breaking it cuz you'll go home to cry your lungs out."
Maybe the continental car which doesn't look half as good, with reliable rims seems better afterall though i'm never going to be madly in love with normal rims but hey, i love them cuz they can be utilised and relied on.I swear i'm a total sucker. And because i made some god forsaken mistake, i may need to quit my job tomorrow but i know i'll be happier.
For the past few cars which past me by, after driving and sitting in it, i feel good at least i drove it once right and i never shed a tear. But hey why am i crying over bad car, with bad rims, terrible performance, ugly colour, totally unable to withstand knocks and blows which i haven't even gotten to test drive it. Good news, i know the car is inferior before losing my life in it uninsured. Lesson learnt, continental cars are still the ones with reliable engines regardless of how it looks and one day, you may find yourself driving a black shiny 6series, right? Who knows...I'm glad i have friends there for me all these while to tell me the car i was dying to drive sucks.
Though not all Japanese cars suck, in this case, it juz happen to be a mistake in the production line i reckon. I'm lucky not to have driven the car or in this case, let the car drive me. After a few more drinks i finally learnt my lesson, don't drink and drive. Since i am a nice MR-S myself, why would i want a fucked up car? I may not have very nice engines and rims yet but hey, i have space for expansion and before you know it, i may be a nice white Fair Lady with suitably large rims. I'm not looking for a 7 series nor a swanky Lexus, i only wanted a reliable family saloon, why is that so tough? But shouldn't i be happy with my Holden for now? Maybe one day, it'll be part of the Ford family right?I've put bad rims and ugly colours behind me. I only want a reliable Camry. Afterall, it's still a 2L car.
Old Post - Super Girl
I was mad to even think of joining the police...
7/24/2005
Super Girl
I felt like i'm super-girl when i finished painting my room all by myself yesterday and went Salsa at night and continued the night by party with some friends. Though i'm damn tired but hey, it's a feat.
Some people really piss me off and why must i still be so shamelessly contemplating whether i should call or sms to tell you i miss you? Someone chop off my hands... Please! Ok i miss you... For whatever toenail or toothpick, i miss you. Only Lisa knows what i mean so dun ask me or even try to figure out what toenail and toothpick means.
I met some interesting figures at the bodokan i learnt my Krav Maga from today. I always knew Stephen, the guy who owns the place is some volunteer police or something like that. He was from the police and such. He trains people who teaches unarmed in police academy. Maybe Jo would be interested. This Dave guy i met is teaching there and he told me, though the pay isn't that good in the police, for degree holders like us(to be) can fly really fast. In fact what i'm looking at is they pay for your education in future if you qualify. And more importantly, someone is going to be happy if we were to take criminology, something which Jo and myself have been wanting to do for a long time. Unfortunately, our school doesn't offer that option.
Come to think of it, gonna be quite fun. In fact, I dun need to cut my hair really short. It's like school girl cut, that'll be sufficient. You'd start as an inspector, after the c-course even ASP if they have the space. You can fly as high as a DSP in less than half a year. But even the slowest, you can look at ASP in half and year, no probs. Tempting right? I'm tempted. But pay wise will be about $800 to even $1k lower if you work in the private sector but stress level is proportional to the pay level. But promotion seems more likely in the police at our level. We should talk about it. Next time you should talk to Dave. He'll make you convinced joining the police will be damn fun lah. Imagine police academy with our voices, damn cool. Reminds me of a TV serial i watched some time ago. Had practice at Sophie's place earlier. Damn cool. like a typical Japanese, she's damn on when it comes to practising and when our Merengue instructor told us to practice even when we're brushing our teeth, we thought he was joking, she did it. She's really sweet... And cool. Oh saw this on Ben's MSN thought it's funny and i'd like to share, ok i laughed my intestines out. Here it goes, "I tried sniffing coke once, but had ice cubes stuck in my nose"
7/24/2005
Super Girl
I felt like i'm super-girl when i finished painting my room all by myself yesterday and went Salsa at night and continued the night by party with some friends. Though i'm damn tired but hey, it's a feat.
Some people really piss me off and why must i still be so shamelessly contemplating whether i should call or sms to tell you i miss you? Someone chop off my hands... Please! Ok i miss you... For whatever toenail or toothpick, i miss you. Only Lisa knows what i mean so dun ask me or even try to figure out what toenail and toothpick means.
I met some interesting figures at the bodokan i learnt my Krav Maga from today. I always knew Stephen, the guy who owns the place is some volunteer police or something like that. He was from the police and such. He trains people who teaches unarmed in police academy. Maybe Jo would be interested. This Dave guy i met is teaching there and he told me, though the pay isn't that good in the police, for degree holders like us(to be) can fly really fast. In fact what i'm looking at is they pay for your education in future if you qualify. And more importantly, someone is going to be happy if we were to take criminology, something which Jo and myself have been wanting to do for a long time. Unfortunately, our school doesn't offer that option.
Come to think of it, gonna be quite fun. In fact, I dun need to cut my hair really short. It's like school girl cut, that'll be sufficient. You'd start as an inspector, after the c-course even ASP if they have the space. You can fly as high as a DSP in less than half a year. But even the slowest, you can look at ASP in half and year, no probs. Tempting right? I'm tempted. But pay wise will be about $800 to even $1k lower if you work in the private sector but stress level is proportional to the pay level. But promotion seems more likely in the police at our level. We should talk about it. Next time you should talk to Dave. He'll make you convinced joining the police will be damn fun lah. Imagine police academy with our voices, damn cool. Reminds me of a TV serial i watched some time ago. Had practice at Sophie's place earlier. Damn cool. like a typical Japanese, she's damn on when it comes to practising and when our Merengue instructor told us to practice even when we're brushing our teeth, we thought he was joking, she did it. She's really sweet... And cool. Oh saw this on Ben's MSN thought it's funny and i'd like to share, ok i laughed my intestines out. Here it goes, "I tried sniffing coke once, but had ice cubes stuck in my nose"
Old Post - Battle Scars
Those were the times...
7/02/2005
Battle Scars
Looking at the battle scars on my body brought me back to my JC days when not a single day went by without getting involved in some kinda sports. I have a group of khakis, like Jianting & Dahlia, who disappeared right after graduation, with them, we triumph in every sport and carried home trophies after trophies. We always won by anything but a margin. Using the word triumph is not at all an overstatement. We were initially from basketball and netball, though we conquered athletics too. We were champs in softball, volleyball, badminton, tennis, table-tennis, hockey, floorball, swimming, soccer, etc. Though we have experts like Shu in badminton but Arts Fac Rules and the volleyball guys were our basketball buddies. Well yes, the guys were so enthusiastic when it comes to teaching the girls. I think i was the idiot who came up with the name but we were affectionately known as Artzalanche. Come to think of it, it's damn tacky. I miss my buddies and hope one day we can come out to makan our hearts out or to remind ourselves how easy it was to win the softball match cuz most of the school players were in Arts. But personally, i'm quite thankful for friends' support, especially people like Nasri, who made me go run the 1500m and 2.4km. Still remember that fateful day, i didn't bring anything, so i ran with my PE attire and normal sports shoes i wore daily as an everyday shoe. I couldn't believe i won. I didn't know how i did it but i did. Relays were big headache cuz it was inter-class and my class didn't quite wanted me in the team initially. Long story though we're good friends now. But i ended up being the last leg, what's new. Watching short legs run can be exciting too. Swimming relays were my killers cuz i can't swim competively but amazingly, i think it was because i didn't wanted to disappoint my classmates, we had our gold medals to bring home. All these things start coming back to me because now that i'm looking for a job, my testimonial is nothing but Jasmine excelled in this sport in that sport but how i wished, i excelled in Geography or in Maths. C or in Economics. The only good thing about these memories are friends. And i hope i could meet up with them again. I miss those days. Now that my ligaments are officially pronounced torn, i don't think i can jump and run like i used to but i believe, friendster will never wear out like ligaments but will mature and age nicely like good wines.
7/02/2005
Battle Scars
Looking at the battle scars on my body brought me back to my JC days when not a single day went by without getting involved in some kinda sports. I have a group of khakis, like Jianting & Dahlia, who disappeared right after graduation, with them, we triumph in every sport and carried home trophies after trophies. We always won by anything but a margin. Using the word triumph is not at all an overstatement. We were initially from basketball and netball, though we conquered athletics too. We were champs in softball, volleyball, badminton, tennis, table-tennis, hockey, floorball, swimming, soccer, etc. Though we have experts like Shu in badminton but Arts Fac Rules and the volleyball guys were our basketball buddies. Well yes, the guys were so enthusiastic when it comes to teaching the girls. I think i was the idiot who came up with the name but we were affectionately known as Artzalanche. Come to think of it, it's damn tacky. I miss my buddies and hope one day we can come out to makan our hearts out or to remind ourselves how easy it was to win the softball match cuz most of the school players were in Arts. But personally, i'm quite thankful for friends' support, especially people like Nasri, who made me go run the 1500m and 2.4km. Still remember that fateful day, i didn't bring anything, so i ran with my PE attire and normal sports shoes i wore daily as an everyday shoe. I couldn't believe i won. I didn't know how i did it but i did. Relays were big headache cuz it was inter-class and my class didn't quite wanted me in the team initially. Long story though we're good friends now. But i ended up being the last leg, what's new. Watching short legs run can be exciting too. Swimming relays were my killers cuz i can't swim competively but amazingly, i think it was because i didn't wanted to disappoint my classmates, we had our gold medals to bring home. All these things start coming back to me because now that i'm looking for a job, my testimonial is nothing but Jasmine excelled in this sport in that sport but how i wished, i excelled in Geography or in Maths. C or in Economics. The only good thing about these memories are friends. And i hope i could meet up with them again. I miss those days. Now that my ligaments are officially pronounced torn, i don't think i can jump and run like i used to but i believe, friendster will never wear out like ligaments but will mature and age nicely like good wines.
Old Post - 10 Things I Hate About CCM
I've gotta be really upset when i wrote this... And some people have became history. Life goes on, right?
7/02/2005
10 Things I Hate About CCM
Most of my friends know that although CCM can make a pretty good friend, ok just let me self-proclaim for once, i can be very nasty. But if you're my friend, you'll know i mean no harm so why should you hate CCM?
Well, CCM has really really unbearable lifestyle habits and her character, let's think as i type.
1stly, I'm a fussy-pot. I fuss about everything, anything regardless of its magnitude. When it comes to food, if i'm not interested in eating it, there's no way you can torture me to shove in down my throat. Thank God for giving us the gagging device. I don't eat at some places and i only eat certain foods.
Which leads to the second thing I hate about CCM...High-maintenance. Don't ask me since when, i have no freaking idea. Maybe all along, i've been such. My Dad gives my anything, everything he could afford but unfortunately, he's not Bill Gates. He's not even Sim Wong Hoo. He's Daddy. I can't imagine my life without some things which makes me think and think if i can give up everything in life and live a simple life. Not the Hilton & Richie style. Simple life meaning, Jo & Gerri's life. Spartan but happy. The question is, when it's spartan, will i be happy. I'm not the material girl, most of you might know, so don't be conclusive. I'm juz wondering if my lifestyle which has always been a certain pattern, can i actually cope without it. It is of course easy for some people to say, sure you can but in reality, things are not as simple. I can't. For example, I've never used wallets other than, you know what brand(if you're my friend and you dunno, you deserve a spanking), because i believe something so close to you, everyday, must last. Well i don't need that but along what goes with the wallet goes something i've believed in life for so long. Some call it principle in life, some call it an insist on quality. But it is part of my life. Even watches, i've never wore anything other than the Tag my Dad bought me sometime ago. In recent years, i've been wearing all other kinda watches but because i've got expensive skin, yes i have dermatitis, i only wear genuine watches. I remember once when i went with Lisa to Stadium Cove, we bargained like hell, i got two watches and i only wore one of them once or twice and the other one, i never wore it since it left that place cuz i itch like hell everytime i put on these watches. I can feel Jo's wanting to kill me by now. Even the Mickey watch i'm wearing, it's a limited edition. It's not one of those cartoony stuffs. Just for Marsk, it's not cartoon, it's Disney.
Travelling habits. I've never really taken buses on a regular basis since secondary school days. I was staying so near school during my JC days, i found that there was no reason not to take a cab. It's cheap and my Dad was paying for it. Besides i'm constantly late, for some unexplainable reasons. I swear once i have a job which i can settle down with, i'll get a car. From dreaming of getting a 5 series, the thought dropped to a 3 series, then it became the Volvo S40 but with the turbo engine now it has lowered to history's lowest point, i can settle for a Colt Plus Turbo. Trust me, i can't possibly live with a car with turtle speed pick up. If i could i'd be riding the TP's Beemer. Jo when you can struggle out of the 9 months in police academy, you must smuggle a ride. Just order some goondu around. So fun. Travelling again but on a bigger scale. This is the 4th thing i hate about CCM. I'm quite a seasoned travelling. Not like Lisa's kind of business traveller(well, this girl is losing her life to her job), but those free and easy, enjoy your day, drive around, shop like hell kinda extravaganza. I won't be able to afford it myself, duh. Unless of course i get called to the bar and do something different but in order for this to happen, it means i need to be in UK for at last one year and let's see, a total expenditure oh i've lost the numbers. Chris? BTW, is Gai going?
Fifth thing, CCM once had a nickname in sec school, i think's called loudspeaker. But it's not just loud but i'm like a machine gun which has gone mad, which blabs non-stop. I'm awfully loud and i talk non-stop. Sock thinks i'm a broken recorder which is constantly on fast forward. It's ugly but it's me. I feel so at ease in Hong Kong and Taipei cuz everyone is as loud. Singaporeans are loud in a different way because it's all in broken english or mandarin. They're like juz loud with no language. On the other hand, i'm happy and proud to be effectively bilingual, written and spoken. Ok spare me, i'm looking for a better job.
Sixth, CCM spends money as though money has dropped from the heavens. She has a terrible sense of money. 5 minutes of out the shop, she can forget how much she paid for it. Anyway forgetfulness happen to be the 7th thing you can hate CCM for.
Before movies, without fail, she'll ask you what movies you guys are watching. She'll ask you till the show starts and an hour after the movies, say over supper or lunch, when people are discussing the movie, she'll be like, what happened huh? What movie did we watch? What happened in the movie. Jasmine, you watched the G'damned movie too, sweetheart.
Eighth, she's very indecisive and can make terrible decisions. She's stuck in a freaking awful dilemma. For the things you may hate her, she doesn't wanna hurt anyone but she will hurt someone and this suck. She's sucha BITCH!!! Stupid bitch to be precise. Can't decide, can't do anything right... Argh... Help... Since when did i started to talk like i'm the third person. Gosh i'm becoming mad. CCM couldn't sleep last night, er this morning, and got up to puke at like 9am. Is it too much stress? I didn't even had so much stress during exam periods.
I'm sure there're things you hate about CCM so i left the last two for you to tell me, what do u hate about CCM. CCM is too distraught to type anymore... You know what, everyone should be listening to Faith Hill's This Kiss. Someone wonderful i mentioned on my last blog, introduced me to this song and i wanna sing i right now. C'mon sing it with me.
7/02/2005
10 Things I Hate About CCM
Most of my friends know that although CCM can make a pretty good friend, ok just let me self-proclaim for once, i can be very nasty. But if you're my friend, you'll know i mean no harm so why should you hate CCM?
Well, CCM has really really unbearable lifestyle habits and her character, let's think as i type.
1stly, I'm a fussy-pot. I fuss about everything, anything regardless of its magnitude. When it comes to food, if i'm not interested in eating it, there's no way you can torture me to shove in down my throat. Thank God for giving us the gagging device. I don't eat at some places and i only eat certain foods.
Which leads to the second thing I hate about CCM...High-maintenance. Don't ask me since when, i have no freaking idea. Maybe all along, i've been such. My Dad gives my anything, everything he could afford but unfortunately, he's not Bill Gates. He's not even Sim Wong Hoo. He's Daddy. I can't imagine my life without some things which makes me think and think if i can give up everything in life and live a simple life. Not the Hilton & Richie style. Simple life meaning, Jo & Gerri's life. Spartan but happy. The question is, when it's spartan, will i be happy. I'm not the material girl, most of you might know, so don't be conclusive. I'm juz wondering if my lifestyle which has always been a certain pattern, can i actually cope without it. It is of course easy for some people to say, sure you can but in reality, things are not as simple. I can't. For example, I've never used wallets other than, you know what brand(if you're my friend and you dunno, you deserve a spanking), because i believe something so close to you, everyday, must last. Well i don't need that but along what goes with the wallet goes something i've believed in life for so long. Some call it principle in life, some call it an insist on quality. But it is part of my life. Even watches, i've never wore anything other than the Tag my Dad bought me sometime ago. In recent years, i've been wearing all other kinda watches but because i've got expensive skin, yes i have dermatitis, i only wear genuine watches. I remember once when i went with Lisa to Stadium Cove, we bargained like hell, i got two watches and i only wore one of them once or twice and the other one, i never wore it since it left that place cuz i itch like hell everytime i put on these watches. I can feel Jo's wanting to kill me by now. Even the Mickey watch i'm wearing, it's a limited edition. It's not one of those cartoony stuffs. Just for Marsk, it's not cartoon, it's Disney.
Travelling habits. I've never really taken buses on a regular basis since secondary school days. I was staying so near school during my JC days, i found that there was no reason not to take a cab. It's cheap and my Dad was paying for it. Besides i'm constantly late, for some unexplainable reasons. I swear once i have a job which i can settle down with, i'll get a car. From dreaming of getting a 5 series, the thought dropped to a 3 series, then it became the Volvo S40 but with the turbo engine now it has lowered to history's lowest point, i can settle for a Colt Plus Turbo. Trust me, i can't possibly live with a car with turtle speed pick up. If i could i'd be riding the TP's Beemer. Jo when you can struggle out of the 9 months in police academy, you must smuggle a ride. Just order some goondu around. So fun. Travelling again but on a bigger scale. This is the 4th thing i hate about CCM. I'm quite a seasoned travelling. Not like Lisa's kind of business traveller(well, this girl is losing her life to her job), but those free and easy, enjoy your day, drive around, shop like hell kinda extravaganza. I won't be able to afford it myself, duh. Unless of course i get called to the bar and do something different but in order for this to happen, it means i need to be in UK for at last one year and let's see, a total expenditure oh i've lost the numbers. Chris? BTW, is Gai going?
Fifth thing, CCM once had a nickname in sec school, i think's called loudspeaker. But it's not just loud but i'm like a machine gun which has gone mad, which blabs non-stop. I'm awfully loud and i talk non-stop. Sock thinks i'm a broken recorder which is constantly on fast forward. It's ugly but it's me. I feel so at ease in Hong Kong and Taipei cuz everyone is as loud. Singaporeans are loud in a different way because it's all in broken english or mandarin. They're like juz loud with no language. On the other hand, i'm happy and proud to be effectively bilingual, written and spoken. Ok spare me, i'm looking for a better job.
Sixth, CCM spends money as though money has dropped from the heavens. She has a terrible sense of money. 5 minutes of out the shop, she can forget how much she paid for it. Anyway forgetfulness happen to be the 7th thing you can hate CCM for.
Before movies, without fail, she'll ask you what movies you guys are watching. She'll ask you till the show starts and an hour after the movies, say over supper or lunch, when people are discussing the movie, she'll be like, what happened huh? What movie did we watch? What happened in the movie. Jasmine, you watched the G'damned movie too, sweetheart.
Eighth, she's very indecisive and can make terrible decisions. She's stuck in a freaking awful dilemma. For the things you may hate her, she doesn't wanna hurt anyone but she will hurt someone and this suck. She's sucha BITCH!!! Stupid bitch to be precise. Can't decide, can't do anything right... Argh... Help... Since when did i started to talk like i'm the third person. Gosh i'm becoming mad. CCM couldn't sleep last night, er this morning, and got up to puke at like 9am. Is it too much stress? I didn't even had so much stress during exam periods.
I'm sure there're things you hate about CCM so i left the last two for you to tell me, what do u hate about CCM. CCM is too distraught to type anymore... You know what, everyone should be listening to Faith Hill's This Kiss. Someone wonderful i mentioned on my last blog, introduced me to this song and i wanna sing i right now. C'mon sing it with me.
Old Post + New Lyrics
Here Without You - 3 Doors Down (I Miss Grandma)
A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me
The miles just keep rolling as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated but I hope it gets better as we go
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I goit gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and doneit get hard but it won’t take away my love
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
but tonight girl it’s only you and me
7/01/2005
Songs
Songs and lyrics are a large part of our lives. Many times when we come across a familiar song, we'll be brought back to some time in the past and images will flash pass like a slideshow of life's many images.
Still remember Tommy Page during my primary school days... Time: "Why can't time make me stop?" Many of us hope and wish time will come to a halt or even bring us back to the past where happiness and laughter were a gift and we never really appreciate or treasured them.
During secondary school days, for every period there's some kind of song. Just like MLTR's "Out of the Blue", "The Actor", "Sleeping Child" and songs by Savage Garden. I remember one of my ex-classmate Yongcai loved the songs and influenced most of us. It was good times, good songs nonetheless.JC days were Sugarray, Blink 182 and such. I had very unhappy JC days so i can't seem to recall any songs then.
I've always loved songs like Love Me by Colin Raye because the lyrics bear so much meaning and it's so romantic. But the song to melt me would be Adam's Sandler's "Grow Old With You" I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad.... Build your fire if your furnace breaks... Even let you hold the remote control... Put you to bed when you had too much to drink. I wanna grow old with you. Someone once put me to bed when i had too much to drink. I'm not exactly a drinker, i can't drink for nuts in fact though i'm a sucker for good cabernet sauvignon but liquors, no. But i was so in love so i told that "someone" oh sure i can drink, i drink alot... Ok i bragged but who never did.
Apparently, i got dead drunk, puked like mad the moment i step out of Zouk where the music stopped and people who'd been to Zouk know, that' s a bloody crowded corridor which leads to Phuture too. It was so embarrassing considering i only had a flaming Lamborghini and half a bourbon Coke. Though as i grew older i found out i can't stand bourbon coke and i'll puke when i simply smell it even when i had very little to drink. Nevertheless, he drove me home when the night was still VERY young, he carried me into his room, changed me and let me sleep. He was my ex-boyfriend so don't go eeeeee like some convent girls and he didn't touch me impolitely that night. He just took care of me, ran his fingers through my hair and let me sleep. Every time when i hear "Put you to bed when you had too much to drink" i'll be on the brink of tears singing, "all i wanna do, is to grow old with you."
This someone will always have a special place in my heart though we've broken up and until today our versions of how we broke up was very unclear. Well memories, they vary.My Fat Club friends surrounded me with rock ballads like Ugly Kid Joe's Cats In A Cradle, Mr Big's To Be With You, Nazareth's Love Hurts, Guns N' Roses' November Rain, Bad Company's Ready For Love... I wish i can say, i'm ready for love, ooh baby i'm ready for love. Raymond, Samuel, Siong(though Siong doesn't belong to the Fat Club), would be listening to songs by Xu Ru Yun and Shino and Raymond thinks that i look like Shino but i refuse to agree.
As for me and Aik and sometimes Ben, we'll dance like hell in the mini-ktv room when we're singing Wo Yao Fei by F.I.R. It actually means i wanna fly but we'll sing like we want FAT literally. You know why Ben never wanted to join us? Cuz he's as skinny as a stick man.For the bunch of crazy people, we'll "ring ring" on "Stacy's Mom", "Right Thur", "Tong Hua - Guang Liang", "Superstar"... Oh and how can i forget Akon's Lonely. I have nobody to call my own... More to come i bet...
My nieces and nephews, Felicia, Alicia, Darren, Arren, fed me with songs like Good Charlotte's I Wanna Live and Ciara's One Two Step... These songs carry more meaning than they sound... The princess is here...
Recently i've been constantly on Tim Mcgraw's Live Like You Were Dying, it's not a particular line which touched me but the entire song. I wish i could live like i'm dying.I've always wanted a modern fairy tale like the one in Jerry Mcguire. Though it's not exactly lyrics but i'm sure most of us remember "I love him, I love him for the man he is, I love him for the man he almost is","We're getting married", "You know Jerry, this isn't easy for me", "You complete me", "You had me at Hello, you had me at hello..."
A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me
The miles just keep rolling as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated but I hope it gets better as we go
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I goit gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and doneit get hard but it won’t take away my love
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
but tonight girl it’s only you and me
7/01/2005
Songs
Songs and lyrics are a large part of our lives. Many times when we come across a familiar song, we'll be brought back to some time in the past and images will flash pass like a slideshow of life's many images.
Still remember Tommy Page during my primary school days... Time: "Why can't time make me stop?" Many of us hope and wish time will come to a halt or even bring us back to the past where happiness and laughter were a gift and we never really appreciate or treasured them.
During secondary school days, for every period there's some kind of song. Just like MLTR's "Out of the Blue", "The Actor", "Sleeping Child" and songs by Savage Garden. I remember one of my ex-classmate Yongcai loved the songs and influenced most of us. It was good times, good songs nonetheless.JC days were Sugarray, Blink 182 and such. I had very unhappy JC days so i can't seem to recall any songs then.
I've always loved songs like Love Me by Colin Raye because the lyrics bear so much meaning and it's so romantic. But the song to melt me would be Adam's Sandler's "Grow Old With You" I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad.... Build your fire if your furnace breaks... Even let you hold the remote control... Put you to bed when you had too much to drink. I wanna grow old with you. Someone once put me to bed when i had too much to drink. I'm not exactly a drinker, i can't drink for nuts in fact though i'm a sucker for good cabernet sauvignon but liquors, no. But i was so in love so i told that "someone" oh sure i can drink, i drink alot... Ok i bragged but who never did.
Apparently, i got dead drunk, puked like mad the moment i step out of Zouk where the music stopped and people who'd been to Zouk know, that' s a bloody crowded corridor which leads to Phuture too. It was so embarrassing considering i only had a flaming Lamborghini and half a bourbon Coke. Though as i grew older i found out i can't stand bourbon coke and i'll puke when i simply smell it even when i had very little to drink. Nevertheless, he drove me home when the night was still VERY young, he carried me into his room, changed me and let me sleep. He was my ex-boyfriend so don't go eeeeee like some convent girls and he didn't touch me impolitely that night. He just took care of me, ran his fingers through my hair and let me sleep. Every time when i hear "Put you to bed when you had too much to drink" i'll be on the brink of tears singing, "all i wanna do, is to grow old with you."
This someone will always have a special place in my heart though we've broken up and until today our versions of how we broke up was very unclear. Well memories, they vary.My Fat Club friends surrounded me with rock ballads like Ugly Kid Joe's Cats In A Cradle, Mr Big's To Be With You, Nazareth's Love Hurts, Guns N' Roses' November Rain, Bad Company's Ready For Love... I wish i can say, i'm ready for love, ooh baby i'm ready for love. Raymond, Samuel, Siong(though Siong doesn't belong to the Fat Club), would be listening to songs by Xu Ru Yun and Shino and Raymond thinks that i look like Shino but i refuse to agree.
As for me and Aik and sometimes Ben, we'll dance like hell in the mini-ktv room when we're singing Wo Yao Fei by F.I.R. It actually means i wanna fly but we'll sing like we want FAT literally. You know why Ben never wanted to join us? Cuz he's as skinny as a stick man.For the bunch of crazy people, we'll "ring ring" on "Stacy's Mom", "Right Thur", "Tong Hua - Guang Liang", "Superstar"... Oh and how can i forget Akon's Lonely. I have nobody to call my own... More to come i bet...
My nieces and nephews, Felicia, Alicia, Darren, Arren, fed me with songs like Good Charlotte's I Wanna Live and Ciara's One Two Step... These songs carry more meaning than they sound... The princess is here...
Recently i've been constantly on Tim Mcgraw's Live Like You Were Dying, it's not a particular line which touched me but the entire song. I wish i could live like i'm dying.I've always wanted a modern fairy tale like the one in Jerry Mcguire. Though it's not exactly lyrics but i'm sure most of us remember "I love him, I love him for the man he is, I love him for the man he almost is","We're getting married", "You know Jerry, this isn't easy for me", "You complete me", "You had me at Hello, you had me at hello..."
Old Post - Sashimi
Kyle is already with signing SIA and he IS a pilot now.
6/30/2005
Sashimi
People like Lisa should know i'm mad over sashimi and today i had ALOT. Next time if you go to Yoyogi Japanese Restaurant along Mohamed Sultan Road, look for Edwin, he's the boss and tell him Jasmine introduce you there, you can get a decent discount.
Tip: Pro sits on the sushi bar and whatever he recommends must be good and possibly in season just like the Akagai today.Hey girls, we should go for dinner there someday then we can adjourn to Siam Supperclub or Liquid Room. Anyway come to think of it, we haven't had our Wala Wala night to the fullest, when shall it be.
Eh who's the one working in Liquid Room? Some DJ guy right? What's his name? How did i know him? Shit can't remember, one of those trying to be nice and i can't stand him guy but hey cover is free and drinks are free too who cares. Must fish the bloody namecard out. Oh what happened to Cheeky's? Wanna do it before Harnie leaves for Belgium?
Jamie: When are you organizing la-la-la ktv again? I saw a CD in HMV titled Jem: Finally Awoken and i pick it up the first line of lyric went like, i do what i like to do... Kinda cool, so Jem... It's like tailored for her. Shall we all pull together some resources and buy the Little Prince the CD so that she'll organize ktv and come out with us? Ok Jamie, here's the deal, if you organise the KTV, i'll buy you the CD? Deal?Now that Ange is back to Brunei, this is getting so lonesome. Hey who is in contact with Anna? Must ask her out. She's like the guys magnet and if i'm a guy, i'll definitely fall for her. So sweet, so sweet, so ooh...
Chris, if you're reading this, i'm back. When are you leaving for UK? Gonna miss you so must meet out before you leave. I'm starting work next week so better be quick. Gai: Can you help me ask Sock how was Company Law? I need more people views though i'm damn tempted to take Commercial already. Can you guys list the combi you intend to take so that i can consider my combi? Right now i'm definitely taking, Jurisprudence(duh!), EU, Intellectual Property and either Company or Commercial. Sounds boring right? No choice, it's a play safe combi. Though if i have decide to take family law for my last subject, i'd have better chances. Well according to Lily, maybe i just shouldn't count my chicks before they hatch.Hey i'm quite interested to do a flea market sale, who can go with me or who has things to sell? We can maybe share a stall. Lisa, what happened to our flea market? Since let's see, since we graduated from SECONDARY SCHOOL!!!Oh do you guys know, Kyle, the slopper bummer, is going to be a PILOT? Haha i'm laughing my head off. I think he's 12 hours from his love going to him. He's so in love lah haha. That'll make him a happy camper.
6/30/2005
Sashimi
People like Lisa should know i'm mad over sashimi and today i had ALOT. Next time if you go to Yoyogi Japanese Restaurant along Mohamed Sultan Road, look for Edwin, he's the boss and tell him Jasmine introduce you there, you can get a decent discount.
Tip: Pro sits on the sushi bar and whatever he recommends must be good and possibly in season just like the Akagai today.Hey girls, we should go for dinner there someday then we can adjourn to Siam Supperclub or Liquid Room. Anyway come to think of it, we haven't had our Wala Wala night to the fullest, when shall it be.
Eh who's the one working in Liquid Room? Some DJ guy right? What's his name? How did i know him? Shit can't remember, one of those trying to be nice and i can't stand him guy but hey cover is free and drinks are free too who cares. Must fish the bloody namecard out. Oh what happened to Cheeky's? Wanna do it before Harnie leaves for Belgium?
Jamie: When are you organizing la-la-la ktv again? I saw a CD in HMV titled Jem: Finally Awoken and i pick it up the first line of lyric went like, i do what i like to do... Kinda cool, so Jem... It's like tailored for her. Shall we all pull together some resources and buy the Little Prince the CD so that she'll organize ktv and come out with us? Ok Jamie, here's the deal, if you organise the KTV, i'll buy you the CD? Deal?Now that Ange is back to Brunei, this is getting so lonesome. Hey who is in contact with Anna? Must ask her out. She's like the guys magnet and if i'm a guy, i'll definitely fall for her. So sweet, so sweet, so ooh...
Chris, if you're reading this, i'm back. When are you leaving for UK? Gonna miss you so must meet out before you leave. I'm starting work next week so better be quick. Gai: Can you help me ask Sock how was Company Law? I need more people views though i'm damn tempted to take Commercial already. Can you guys list the combi you intend to take so that i can consider my combi? Right now i'm definitely taking, Jurisprudence(duh!), EU, Intellectual Property and either Company or Commercial. Sounds boring right? No choice, it's a play safe combi. Though if i have decide to take family law for my last subject, i'd have better chances. Well according to Lily, maybe i just shouldn't count my chicks before they hatch.Hey i'm quite interested to do a flea market sale, who can go with me or who has things to sell? We can maybe share a stall. Lisa, what happened to our flea market? Since let's see, since we graduated from SECONDARY SCHOOL!!!Oh do you guys know, Kyle, the slopper bummer, is going to be a PILOT? Haha i'm laughing my head off. I think he's 12 hours from his love going to him. He's so in love lah haha. That'll make him a happy camper.
Old Post - Hong Kong
How coincidental...
6/25/2005
Hong Kong Hong Kong
Life came back to reality once my flight landed on Singapore land last night. Glad to be home as i found out today Hong Kong is having this red warning which means that a typhoon is likely to be on it way to Hong Kong. Though it was raining for most of the time when i was there, i was still shopping non-stop. Just like how the advertisement of the Hong Kong's tourism board went, the entire trip was PURE 买东西，吃东西，买东西，吃东西，买东西，吃东西，休息是不得以。
And for pathetic people like Jo who has a handicapped ability on reading chinese, the above sentence means buying, eating, buying, eating, buying, eating and to rest is inevitable.
By Jo's words, i've stocked up my next year's supply of clothings and shoes and if i feel rich again, very unlikely, i'll be stocking up the winter collection soon. Geez but things are not like what you guys thing. Actually it can be affordable to have shopping trips too. Ask me. Time to start a 1900 number to earn some money for a better trip.This time i stay in this hotel which is right in the middle of action.
Unlike the past, i can't afford to stay in Peninsula and Sheraton this time round but my package's accomodation is this place called Langham Place Hotel which is right in the middle of action in Mongkok, the hip shopping haven. On the other side of the main Nathan Road, it wasn't in the middle of the noise and hustle but all is just an underpass away. Besides, my hotel is connected via the subway and the underpass in their basement. I really recommend all to consider Langham Place if you ever wanna go HongKong. Oh the hotel is new, connected to this 13-storeys full of shopping facilities, the toilet has transparent glass and mirrors everywhere so you can watch TV while you're showering, bathing, shitting, peeing, changing your tampons, brushing your teeth etc, the bed is HUGE the plasma TV is even larger and plenty of space for shopping bags.
Of course i had an upgrade cuz my relative knew someone, somewhere. The hotel's general atmosphere is simply wonderful.Needless to say, shopping was satisfying but the only regret was on the last day, my ammunitions ran dry. Then again i can't resist. I was planning to buy ONE or Two pair of shoes, maybe a pair of dress shoes and definitely a pair of fashion shoes which is the latest Nike Low Dunk. I ended up buying 4 pairs. I bought 2 Nike low Dunk one in brown Hemp design, the other is a cross of Bape design in pink camouflage. I got in at a higher price but the guy told me if i come back in 2 weeks time, prices would drop but i couldn't wait cuz my air-ticket is much more expensive than the price difference. Duh. BTW, i can't remember how much t-shirts i bought. The girls there like multiple layering of clothes, quality discounted but fashion move fast and they buy things all the time. Everyone seem to start shopping at 9am and finish around 2am. Even at 2, people are still shopping. I sticked to good quality clothings but more plain t-shirts which will be very versatile in our ever-tropical weather. If i were to stay there, my fashion would have been very different. I wanna go back to HONGKONG!!!
Went to Madam Tussauds and bought some interesting stuffs too and will blog soon but right now, I need to sleep. Today's period's first day so i'm very tired. Night.
6/25/2005
Hong Kong Hong Kong
Life came back to reality once my flight landed on Singapore land last night. Glad to be home as i found out today Hong Kong is having this red warning which means that a typhoon is likely to be on it way to Hong Kong. Though it was raining for most of the time when i was there, i was still shopping non-stop. Just like how the advertisement of the Hong Kong's tourism board went, the entire trip was PURE 买东西，吃东西，买东西，吃东西，买东西，吃东西，休息是不得以。
And for pathetic people like Jo who has a handicapped ability on reading chinese, the above sentence means buying, eating, buying, eating, buying, eating and to rest is inevitable.
By Jo's words, i've stocked up my next year's supply of clothings and shoes and if i feel rich again, very unlikely, i'll be stocking up the winter collection soon. Geez but things are not like what you guys thing. Actually it can be affordable to have shopping trips too. Ask me. Time to start a 1900 number to earn some money for a better trip.This time i stay in this hotel which is right in the middle of action.
Unlike the past, i can't afford to stay in Peninsula and Sheraton this time round but my package's accomodation is this place called Langham Place Hotel which is right in the middle of action in Mongkok, the hip shopping haven. On the other side of the main Nathan Road, it wasn't in the middle of the noise and hustle but all is just an underpass away. Besides, my hotel is connected via the subway and the underpass in their basement. I really recommend all to consider Langham Place if you ever wanna go HongKong. Oh the hotel is new, connected to this 13-storeys full of shopping facilities, the toilet has transparent glass and mirrors everywhere so you can watch TV while you're showering, bathing, shitting, peeing, changing your tampons, brushing your teeth etc, the bed is HUGE the plasma TV is even larger and plenty of space for shopping bags.
Of course i had an upgrade cuz my relative knew someone, somewhere. The hotel's general atmosphere is simply wonderful.Needless to say, shopping was satisfying but the only regret was on the last day, my ammunitions ran dry. Then again i can't resist. I was planning to buy ONE or Two pair of shoes, maybe a pair of dress shoes and definitely a pair of fashion shoes which is the latest Nike Low Dunk. I ended up buying 4 pairs. I bought 2 Nike low Dunk one in brown Hemp design, the other is a cross of Bape design in pink camouflage. I got in at a higher price but the guy told me if i come back in 2 weeks time, prices would drop but i couldn't wait cuz my air-ticket is much more expensive than the price difference. Duh. BTW, i can't remember how much t-shirts i bought. The girls there like multiple layering of clothes, quality discounted but fashion move fast and they buy things all the time. Everyone seem to start shopping at 9am and finish around 2am. Even at 2, people are still shopping. I sticked to good quality clothings but more plain t-shirts which will be very versatile in our ever-tropical weather. If i were to stay there, my fashion would have been very different. I wanna go back to HONGKONG!!!
Went to Madam Tussauds and bought some interesting stuffs too and will blog soon but right now, I need to sleep. Today's period's first day so i'm very tired. Night.
Old Post - Gwyneth Palthrow
When i still had time to watch tv...
5/09/2005
Gwyneth Palthrow
First, Happy Mothers' Day but i've never really feel excited over this day. I've always felt closer to my Dad maybe simply because i can feel that my Dad cares and love me more... Far more...I was watching Gwyneth Palthrow on Oprah... I wasn't exactly a fan of hers but i've always considered her as a really beautiful woman. If a girl says that, this is prolly a near perfect woman and in her case, a gorgeous Mom.
She was telling this touching story which sent me thinking about it and my tears juz ran down my cheeks without end.
Here's how the story went,
When Gwyneth was 10, her Dad brought her to Paris without her Mom or brother. Just the two of them... Her Dad said she could order anything and she ordered French Fries because she was in France. This was really funny...
But the touching part was when she was coming back, her Dad asked her if she knew why her Dad brought her to Paris without her Mom or anyone else, and her Dad said..."I want you to see Paris for the first time with a man who will love you no matter what.
"Isn't that romantic? And not the romantically related romantic. She must be a lucky girl. So loved. I know my Dad loves me but for the traditional Dad he is, he''ll never do something so touching. I mean i'll never be 10 again... I still love my Dad.I hope one day, all of us will have a "quote" like that which will follow us for the rest of our lives to remind us that we're being greatly loved. Things like that help you overcome all the unhappiness or misfortune in life.
Good Luck...
5/09/2005
Gwyneth Palthrow
First, Happy Mothers' Day but i've never really feel excited over this day. I've always felt closer to my Dad maybe simply because i can feel that my Dad cares and love me more... Far more...I was watching Gwyneth Palthrow on Oprah... I wasn't exactly a fan of hers but i've always considered her as a really beautiful woman. If a girl says that, this is prolly a near perfect woman and in her case, a gorgeous Mom.
She was telling this touching story which sent me thinking about it and my tears juz ran down my cheeks without end.
Here's how the story went,
When Gwyneth was 10, her Dad brought her to Paris without her Mom or brother. Just the two of them... Her Dad said she could order anything and she ordered French Fries because she was in France. This was really funny...
But the touching part was when she was coming back, her Dad asked her if she knew why her Dad brought her to Paris without her Mom or anyone else, and her Dad said..."I want you to see Paris for the first time with a man who will love you no matter what.
"Isn't that romantic? And not the romantically related romantic. She must be a lucky girl. So loved. I know my Dad loves me but for the traditional Dad he is, he''ll never do something so touching. I mean i'll never be 10 again... I still love my Dad.I hope one day, all of us will have a "quote" like that which will follow us for the rest of our lives to remind us that we're being greatly loved. Things like that help you overcome all the unhappiness or misfortune in life.
Good Luck...
Old Post - Stress Reliever
4/25/2005
Stress-Reliever
Admist all the stress, i thought i could provide some interesting questions which might have occured to you some time in your life.
Why the sun lightens our hair, but darkens our skin?
Why women can't put on mascara with their mouth closed?
Why don't you ever see the headline "Psychic Wins Lottery"?
Why is "abbreviated" such a long word
Why is it that doctors call what they do "practice"?
Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor, and dishwashing liquid made with real lemons?
Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?
Why is the time of day with the slowest traffic called rush hour?
Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food?
Why didn't Noah swat those two mosquitoes?
Why do they sterilize the needle for lethal injections?
You know that indestructible black box that is used on airplanes?
Why don't they make the whole plane out of that stuff?
Why don't sheep shrink when it rains?
Why are they called apartments when they are all stuck together?
If con is the opposite of pro, is Congress the opposite of progress?
If flying is so safe, why do they call the airport the terminal?
By the way, i put on my mascara with my mouth closed.
Stress-Reliever
Admist all the stress, i thought i could provide some interesting questions which might have occured to you some time in your life.
Why the sun lightens our hair, but darkens our skin?
Why women can't put on mascara with their mouth closed?
Why don't you ever see the headline "Psychic Wins Lottery"?
Why is "abbreviated" such a long word
Why is it that doctors call what they do "practice"?
Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor, and dishwashing liquid made with real lemons?
Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?
Why is the time of day with the slowest traffic called rush hour?
Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food?
Why didn't Noah swat those two mosquitoes?
Why do they sterilize the needle for lethal injections?
You know that indestructible black box that is used on airplanes?
Why don't they make the whole plane out of that stuff?
Why don't sheep shrink when it rains?
Why are they called apartments when they are all stuck together?
If con is the opposite of pro, is Congress the opposite of progress?
If flying is so safe, why do they call the airport the terminal?
By the way, i put on my mascara with my mouth closed.
Old Post - Chinese and Dogs
I've decided to post some of my previous entries from my other blog addresses. Here's one...
Thank goodness, i'm still alive and not shot dead, neither have i vanished from the face of the earth.
中国人与狗不得进入
To put it straight, i'm never against the idea of having a casino in Singapore. The presence of horse-racing, lottery and prostitution in Singapore doesn't make the idea of havinga casino in Singapore a worse vice.
But i do have my strong opinions against how the government do it.Firstly, they require Singaporeans to pay an entrance fee of $100 per person, per day to enjoy what they call an integrated resort. And guess what, foreigners do not need to pay a single cent to get it.
I understand the goodwill of the government on this part that is to prevent indulgence on the part of hard-core gamblers but these people do belong to the minority. More effective way to keep these people out is not through entry fee but to stop them individually once detected that they have family or economic problem and gambler needs have become a threat to social and moral values and their family life and comfort.
Alternatively, they can buy the $1000 per annum membership ad what will eventually happen is these people, being the 'kiasu' Singaporeans we are, would not wanna lose out and would go to the casino at a more frequent rate.
So what happened to the resort meant for families? An average family of 4 finding some entertainment in this resort would need to fork out at least $400 for a day. How ridiculous. Now would it seem more logical to you that being a Singaporeans "entitles" you to lesser benefits than holding say a Dominican Republic passport?
This whole entry payment thing reminds me of one thing. In early Shagnhai, when Chinese government was weak, foreigners have parks with signs outside saying "Chinese and dogs not allowed". Doesn't this sound familiar. Like Singaporeans and pets not allowed unless you pay $100. And if you're a Malaysian, Chinese National, Bangladeshi or Vietnamese, you get free entry. It's not about the money. It's about the integrity. Now our government unlike the Chinese Government then, we're not weak or suppressed, we are in a way, how sad. But their action make Singaporeans feel inferior. By the time comes, chinese nationals and bangladeshi workers from construction sites have rights to go in and out of the place and Singaporeans just stand outside and watch. Oh welcome if you have $100. And mind you, $100 only get you through the low door hinge. By then, the $2000 a year, Singaporeans can save up and go to Hongkong Disney and we'll spend out money overseas while they beg money to come in from all over the place.
This brings me to my second point. The resorts will be divided into two. Nice, interesting but they forgot the very basic thing. Economies of scale. Wouldn't you make more money and seem more inviting to people when you have this huge casino strip like Las Vegas and not having people coming all the way from Siberia to gamble in one and find it so inconvenient to travel all the way to another one. How is Singapore expected to earn money?
And the Youth God-knows-what PAP group, please stop suggesting these people to take money out from CPF to pay for this entry fee. This will just defeat the purpose of having Singaporeans pay the money cuz they don't even need to fork out any sum. Then why do we still need to pay? Just abolish the whole damn thing. Besides the real purpose of having CPF is to help people have shelters above their heads and have money in their old age to help them wth serious need. Not gambling.
I can't imagine the hardwork Mr Goh and the elder Mr Lee put in is going to be ruined within days of "intense meetings" and not hearing the people out. There is every reason why people do not want casinos in Singapore but if you really want it to materialize, please have some really smart people do it not some idiots like some Mr Lim. To avoid Singapore government who seems to be spying our every move, i shall just keep their names short and hopefully unguessable. And if you are someone spying on my site, please tell the Singapore government, i still support PAP but i would choose not to vote next time because as much as i do not have any confidence in our opposition party(oh gosh, just look at the bunch of losers modelled against CB Juan), i'm losing confidence in our cabinet.
I so wish i can migrate right now. I can't imagine i used to cry when i sing my national anthem and felt so patriotic cuz i no longer feel it. I feel ashamed because my government tells me to. They tell me i am inferior to foreigners. Oh they didn't tell me that. It's just so obviously implied. Chinese and dogs not allowed. I miss Mr Goh. Simply adores him. I do not wanna get arrested. I rather you just assasinate me with one shot through my brain. Die faster, more painless.
Thank goodness, i'm still alive and not shot dead, neither have i vanished from the face of the earth.
中国人与狗不得进入
To put it straight, i'm never against the idea of having a casino in Singapore. The presence of horse-racing, lottery and prostitution in Singapore doesn't make the idea of havinga casino in Singapore a worse vice.
But i do have my strong opinions against how the government do it.Firstly, they require Singaporeans to pay an entrance fee of $100 per person, per day to enjoy what they call an integrated resort. And guess what, foreigners do not need to pay a single cent to get it.
I understand the goodwill of the government on this part that is to prevent indulgence on the part of hard-core gamblers but these people do belong to the minority. More effective way to keep these people out is not through entry fee but to stop them individually once detected that they have family or economic problem and gambler needs have become a threat to social and moral values and their family life and comfort.
Alternatively, they can buy the $1000 per annum membership ad what will eventually happen is these people, being the 'kiasu' Singaporeans we are, would not wanna lose out and would go to the casino at a more frequent rate.
So what happened to the resort meant for families? An average family of 4 finding some entertainment in this resort would need to fork out at least $400 for a day. How ridiculous. Now would it seem more logical to you that being a Singaporeans "entitles" you to lesser benefits than holding say a Dominican Republic passport?
This whole entry payment thing reminds me of one thing. In early Shagnhai, when Chinese government was weak, foreigners have parks with signs outside saying "Chinese and dogs not allowed". Doesn't this sound familiar. Like Singaporeans and pets not allowed unless you pay $100. And if you're a Malaysian, Chinese National, Bangladeshi or Vietnamese, you get free entry. It's not about the money. It's about the integrity. Now our government unlike the Chinese Government then, we're not weak or suppressed, we are in a way, how sad. But their action make Singaporeans feel inferior. By the time comes, chinese nationals and bangladeshi workers from construction sites have rights to go in and out of the place and Singaporeans just stand outside and watch. Oh welcome if you have $100. And mind you, $100 only get you through the low door hinge. By then, the $2000 a year, Singaporeans can save up and go to Hongkong Disney and we'll spend out money overseas while they beg money to come in from all over the place.
This brings me to my second point. The resorts will be divided into two. Nice, interesting but they forgot the very basic thing. Economies of scale. Wouldn't you make more money and seem more inviting to people when you have this huge casino strip like Las Vegas and not having people coming all the way from Siberia to gamble in one and find it so inconvenient to travel all the way to another one. How is Singapore expected to earn money?
And the Youth God-knows-what PAP group, please stop suggesting these people to take money out from CPF to pay for this entry fee. This will just defeat the purpose of having Singaporeans pay the money cuz they don't even need to fork out any sum. Then why do we still need to pay? Just abolish the whole damn thing. Besides the real purpose of having CPF is to help people have shelters above their heads and have money in their old age to help them wth serious need. Not gambling.
I can't imagine the hardwork Mr Goh and the elder Mr Lee put in is going to be ruined within days of "intense meetings" and not hearing the people out. There is every reason why people do not want casinos in Singapore but if you really want it to materialize, please have some really smart people do it not some idiots like some Mr Lim. To avoid Singapore government who seems to be spying our every move, i shall just keep their names short and hopefully unguessable. And if you are someone spying on my site, please tell the Singapore government, i still support PAP but i would choose not to vote next time because as much as i do not have any confidence in our opposition party(oh gosh, just look at the bunch of losers modelled against CB Juan), i'm losing confidence in our cabinet.
I so wish i can migrate right now. I can't imagine i used to cry when i sing my national anthem and felt so patriotic cuz i no longer feel it. I feel ashamed because my government tells me to. They tell me i am inferior to foreigners. Oh they didn't tell me that. It's just so obviously implied. Chinese and dogs not allowed. I miss Mr Goh. Simply adores him. I do not wanna get arrested. I rather you just assasinate me with one shot through my brain. Die faster, more painless.
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Little Red Flowers
Stupid haze. I'm sick again. It's an allergic reaction from the massive amount of dust in the atmosphere. How many times must i say this? I'm chronically, well maybe not chronic, allergic to dust in general. I go into fits and fits of coughs, sneezes and now my throat hurts big time. The only good thing that came out of it: I could actually catch up on sleep.
Thinking i could nap till dinner time, i went home to a deafening drills and thumps. The unit above mine is doing some renovation but from the noise they pollute us with, they're doing some serious demolishing. I thought they were going to tear the building down.
In order to feel safe, i went to catch a movie alone. Due to zero demands, i had to catch "Little Red Flowers" alone. I really liked it. It's alot of reflection and going back to think how we were like when we were kids. But i reckon, none of you out there will like the movie, let alone appreciating it. It's not very arty farty like 2046, it's alot of soul. Oh well...
Tonight i'll be catching "Flushed Away" with my nieces and nephews. I'm not hanging around kiddies to make myself feel younger but i have no friends and my nieces and nephews aren't exactly young. Take for example, my nephew "Kingkong" is MY age! They're a fun bunch. My niece, "Giggles" is my best friend as well. What a warm family. Or it is a delusion?
Thinking i could nap till dinner time, i went home to a deafening drills and thumps. The unit above mine is doing some renovation but from the noise they pollute us with, they're doing some serious demolishing. I thought they were going to tear the building down.
In order to feel safe, i went to catch a movie alone. Due to zero demands, i had to catch "Little Red Flowers" alone. I really liked it. It's alot of reflection and going back to think how we were like when we were kids. But i reckon, none of you out there will like the movie, let alone appreciating it. It's not very arty farty like 2046, it's alot of soul. Oh well...
Tonight i'll be catching "Flushed Away" with my nieces and nephews. I'm not hanging around kiddies to make myself feel younger but i have no friends and my nieces and nephews aren't exactly young. Take for example, my nephew "Kingkong" is MY age! They're a fun bunch. My niece, "Giggles" is my best friend as well. What a warm family. Or it is a delusion?
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Back In Action
If you haven't realised, this place's been refurnished. Very spartan, nothing fantastic but a temporary skin while i hunt for another one. Make yourself at home, find a cornor to snuggle and i'll try my best to be a good host and make this place conducive to stay.
The last thing my Grandma did was after her demise. During her wake, most of my nieces and nephews came to help and because we're "colour coded" - I was in white, my cousins were in blue and my nieces and nephews were in bright neon green - The place was filled with shreks and ninja turtles. There were at least 70 to 80 of the green ones meaning my grandma had at least 70 of her great grand children present. In total, including those who weren't there, she had at least 100 great grand children. Time for the exciting part, some of my nieces and nephews are married and may have kids soon. I'm going to be a grand aunt soon. I'm going to faint, someone help me. But the most important thing, this funeral brought all of us closer and we're more united. In actualy fact, i'll be going to catch a movie with some of them this Friday and it's going to be great. Though i'm their aunt, they're officially forbidden to call me ah yi or gu gu when i go out with them. Hey we're about the same age, alright.
"Knit Mom", my cousin, said something during the funeral and i broke into buckets of tears. She said, from next year onwards, we won't have Ah Ma for Chinese New Year. Even till now, my eyes water up when i think of this line. However, we now know who our cousins are and you have got more nieces and nephews to distribute ang pows. I'm sure Grandma will be smiling in heaven seeing how happy and united we are.
Right now, i'm just looking forward to Grandma's 49 days and our big BBQ night!
The last thing my Grandma did was after her demise. During her wake, most of my nieces and nephews came to help and because we're "colour coded" - I was in white, my cousins were in blue and my nieces and nephews were in bright neon green - The place was filled with shreks and ninja turtles. There were at least 70 to 80 of the green ones meaning my grandma had at least 70 of her great grand children present. In total, including those who weren't there, she had at least 100 great grand children. Time for the exciting part, some of my nieces and nephews are married and may have kids soon. I'm going to be a grand aunt soon. I'm going to faint, someone help me. But the most important thing, this funeral brought all of us closer and we're more united. In actualy fact, i'll be going to catch a movie with some of them this Friday and it's going to be great. Though i'm their aunt, they're officially forbidden to call me ah yi or gu gu when i go out with them. Hey we're about the same age, alright.
"Knit Mom", my cousin, said something during the funeral and i broke into buckets of tears. She said, from next year onwards, we won't have Ah Ma for Chinese New Year. Even till now, my eyes water up when i think of this line. However, we now know who our cousins are and you have got more nieces and nephews to distribute ang pows. I'm sure Grandma will be smiling in heaven seeing how happy and united we are.
Right now, i'm just looking forward to Grandma's 49 days and our big BBQ night!
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