One of my all-time favourites...
I've been living with a shadow over head
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just dont see the signs
I know that its out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody to get me through the night
I could use some direction, and I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And If I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I dont know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration, not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And If I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
Monday, November 30, 2009
In Search For Perfection
Triggered a brainstorm within myself after reading this article on Diva and the comments on it, were priceless.
More often, women find themselves searching for "The One". I tend to disagree that we are in search for the perfect man. That said, there are a few criteria to be fulfilled. Wrong? No and let me explain why.
As most of us have heard at least once in our lifetime, Mom knows better. Geared with the natural instinct to only want the best for their children, Moms tend to be a little too conservative and over the top when it comes to protecting their "herd". However, the truth is usually not far. Only when certain factors are stable, love can continue to grow into life and commitment. Instability will brew undesirable arguements.
On the contrary, looking for a man more superior should not be one of the criteria but instead, looking for an equal should be the basic benchmark. At least to me, the guidelines are as such and Mom did play a part in building them up.
1. A stable job/career - Without this, life would be tough. Inevitably, women tend to seek some form of stability because the foresight of trouble usually brews from inconsistency. A man who plans ahead with some responsibilities would be in a better position to be able to provide the companionship to plan a lifetime with you.
2. Filial - Only when a person who looks after his kins will he be able to provide the necessary support for his family. 'Nuff said.
3. Sanely Communicative - Without communication, relationships are headed for doom be it at work or in your personal life. It takes 2 to tango and that is a fact of life that will never change. And by communication, honesty is imperative.
The rest are minor and highly subjective. It's essentially the reason why some people end up with some and not the others.
Life can be weird sometimes...
More often, women find themselves searching for "The One". I tend to disagree that we are in search for the perfect man. That said, there are a few criteria to be fulfilled. Wrong? No and let me explain why.
As most of us have heard at least once in our lifetime, Mom knows better. Geared with the natural instinct to only want the best for their children, Moms tend to be a little too conservative and over the top when it comes to protecting their "herd". However, the truth is usually not far. Only when certain factors are stable, love can continue to grow into life and commitment. Instability will brew undesirable arguements.
On the contrary, looking for a man more superior should not be one of the criteria but instead, looking for an equal should be the basic benchmark. At least to me, the guidelines are as such and Mom did play a part in building them up.
1. A stable job/career - Without this, life would be tough. Inevitably, women tend to seek some form of stability because the foresight of trouble usually brews from inconsistency. A man who plans ahead with some responsibilities would be in a better position to be able to provide the companionship to plan a lifetime with you.
2. Filial - Only when a person who looks after his kins will he be able to provide the necessary support for his family. 'Nuff said.
3. Sanely Communicative - Without communication, relationships are headed for doom be it at work or in your personal life. It takes 2 to tango and that is a fact of life that will never change. And by communication, honesty is imperative.
The rest are minor and highly subjective. It's essentially the reason why some people end up with some and not the others.
Life can be weird sometimes...
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Life's Monopoly
It's been a long day and I should be hitting the sack. But before I do so, just felt the need to "scribble" something.
Some days can be just so simple and happy. To not be bothered by hardship beyond one's control, the next best thing is to have a open mind and just live life as it comes. Carpe diem!
It's already a year since Baby Aidan reported to earth. The celebration was pretty much categorised into:
1. Men - The photographers
2. Kids - Monkeying around
3. Women - Fussing around the topic of handbags
The scratch on Babe's pink Birkin sent a strange bout of pain into the hearts of the all the girls present. Pictures were demanded to be taken without the ugly socks. Food were excessive because the kids were too busy playing. Conversations were uber enjoyable because the crowd was right. Initiation of the new member was prematured yet aptly timed. Smiles never left the corners of the mouth.
The second birthday celebration was filled with excessive women talking about wedding and the preparations. The hassle and the constant discussion put Attituder and myself wondering if a better time to discuss would be nearer a wedding that is closer to our hearts. Over the years of hearing people getting married within lightning speed of knowing one another always drew skeptical opinions. Myplyn was unfazed and tied the knot earlier this year. Until now, it was almost like the smile on her beautiful face never faded since her wedding day and she was all out to prove the rest of the world wrong. According to her, it's all about finding the right person. Again, do we really know who's the right person?
Life has played its fair share of games with me. Let's hope it's not yet another game of monopoly where there's only one winner and the misery goes round and round with the pining hope that we never ever get the "Go Straight To Jail".
Some days can be just so simple and happy. To not be bothered by hardship beyond one's control, the next best thing is to have a open mind and just live life as it comes. Carpe diem!
It's already a year since Baby Aidan reported to earth. The celebration was pretty much categorised into:
1. Men - The photographers
2. Kids - Monkeying around
3. Women - Fussing around the topic of handbags
The scratch on Babe's pink Birkin sent a strange bout of pain into the hearts of the all the girls present. Pictures were demanded to be taken without the ugly socks. Food were excessive because the kids were too busy playing. Conversations were uber enjoyable because the crowd was right. Initiation of the new member was prematured yet aptly timed. Smiles never left the corners of the mouth.
The second birthday celebration was filled with excessive women talking about wedding and the preparations. The hassle and the constant discussion put Attituder and myself wondering if a better time to discuss would be nearer a wedding that is closer to our hearts. Over the years of hearing people getting married within lightning speed of knowing one another always drew skeptical opinions. Myplyn was unfazed and tied the knot earlier this year. Until now, it was almost like the smile on her beautiful face never faded since her wedding day and she was all out to prove the rest of the world wrong. According to her, it's all about finding the right person. Again, do we really know who's the right person?
Life has played its fair share of games with me. Let's hope it's not yet another game of monopoly where there's only one winner and the misery goes round and round with the pining hope that we never ever get the "Go Straight To Jail".
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Careless Tears are Unnecessary
As I was watching this clip, a comment rang out. "Careless tears are unnecessary"
How many times when people are in love and they swear never to hurt the other person? Admittedly, some hurts are not deliberate. But have we ever considered the carelessness in causing tears and pain in the other person?
Monday, November 23, 2009
Beginning of the End; End of the Beginning
If there's a climax to the song from my previous post, it's got to be...
到现在还是一个人 吞噬着自己的能耐
到最後我可以不爱了 你却说舍不得
你可以不爱了 别说舍不得
Starting from Friday evening, the weekend began with an anticipated yet unexpected dinner. The smiles that vanished for a while, came back for a visit. The retarded exploration melted some ice. The comfortably paced night brought about 2 consecutive drinking sessions. The drinking only made me realise how predictable I am and how hopeless I am with drinking games. Bystanders could even guess whether my next call was 5 or 10. It was THAT easy to read me.
Saturday was your typical day of rotting away except that in the life of a person who has petrol running in her bloodstream, it will mean spending hours at the workshop but not doing anything to the car. Little Tristan started the day with exceptional fun and a little too much gummies. Running into familiar faces at BVO wasn't that much of a thing from the past. And being carless for the rest of the day wasn't that bad of a thing afterall. Dinner was getting better with curry that wasn't as spicy and tummy wasn't as affected. Maybe it's about getting used to the new flavours.
Some smell just lingers beyond words.
到现在还是一个人 吞噬着自己的能耐
到最後我可以不爱了 你却说舍不得
你可以不爱了 别说舍不得
Starting from Friday evening, the weekend began with an anticipated yet unexpected dinner. The smiles that vanished for a while, came back for a visit. The retarded exploration melted some ice. The comfortably paced night brought about 2 consecutive drinking sessions. The drinking only made me realise how predictable I am and how hopeless I am with drinking games. Bystanders could even guess whether my next call was 5 or 10. It was THAT easy to read me.
Saturday was your typical day of rotting away except that in the life of a person who has petrol running in her bloodstream, it will mean spending hours at the workshop but not doing anything to the car. Little Tristan started the day with exceptional fun and a little too much gummies. Running into familiar faces at BVO wasn't that much of a thing from the past. And being carless for the rest of the day wasn't that bad of a thing afterall. Dinner was getting better with curry that wasn't as spicy and tummy wasn't as affected. Maybe it's about getting used to the new flavours.
Some smell just lingers beyond words.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
可以不爱了
There isn't a more apt song out there. On a rainy night, the song accentuated the chills. The determination to not pick up my 3 minutes of "oxygen" was perpetuated with yet another can of iced cold Coke. The excess sugars kept the energy going.
Unlike B in terms of the same war we had to fight, the whistle to end the game of the tug of war just fails to go off. As much as autumn is coming to an end and the last season of the year is looming, Spring still appears to be too far away for comfort. Some warmth is very much longed for. A hot chocolate overdosed with marshmallows by the fireplace... Enviable.
让窗户通通都打开 让阳光通通都照进来
让风放肆的吹伞我身上的尘埃
把你的过去变腐坏 把你的溺爱藏起来
把你的所有都搬到我房间以外
现在是三点钟 你应该还没醒呢
这有点刺眼的光线 会不会打扰你呢
梦不会实现了 我应该要醒了
我不该只懂得配合 你习惯短暂的温热
我努力要自己避开 和你曾走过的地带
但是又和不舍拉扯 处在我快乐的界外
我何尝不是一个人 来决定爱的延长赛
奈何总是勉强对自己 有一个善良的交代
我努力要自己躲开 你给我的伤心地带
但是又和失去拉扯 得到的全都是意外
到现在还是一个人 吞噬着自己的能耐
到最後我可以不爱了 你却说舍不得
离开你欲走还留的眼睛
我要我忍住在一次抱你
躲开你转身以後的消息
这一次我可以
After an eventful afternoon getting stuck behind standstill traffic only to realise I'm in the middle of a newsflash worthy flood. Late for my appointment, I managed to do more than I initially intended and could ever bargained for. 2 coffee sessions before I finally went for the prearranged appointment which was supposedly due a couple of hours before. Catching up with people I rarely have a chance to meet up with nowadays given the crazy schedules I've been running, the day off was well worth it despite the unexpected adventure. Speaking of unexpected, the hug received today felt so reassuring, it was kinda weird. I can't explain it but... comforting. It's almost like the giver was telling me "I know, I know. Everything will be fine."
我努力要自己避开 和你曾走过的地带
但是又和不舍拉扯 处在我快乐的界外
我努力要自己躲开 你给我的伤心地带
但是又和失去拉扯 得到的全都是意外
到现在还是一个人 吞噬着自己的能耐
到最後我可以不爱了 你却说舍不得
你可以不爱了 别说舍不得
To do the one thing that we knew till this point of time, time and current doesn't allow, we shall believe it'll happen someday. Will that day come?
Unlike B in terms of the same war we had to fight, the whistle to end the game of the tug of war just fails to go off. As much as autumn is coming to an end and the last season of the year is looming, Spring still appears to be too far away for comfort. Some warmth is very much longed for. A hot chocolate overdosed with marshmallows by the fireplace... Enviable.
让窗户通通都打开 让阳光通通都照进来
让风放肆的吹伞我身上的尘埃
把你的过去变腐坏 把你的溺爱藏起来
把你的所有都搬到我房间以外
现在是三点钟 你应该还没醒呢
这有点刺眼的光线 会不会打扰你呢
梦不会实现了 我应该要醒了
我不该只懂得配合 你习惯短暂的温热
我努力要自己避开 和你曾走过的地带
但是又和不舍拉扯 处在我快乐的界外
我何尝不是一个人 来决定爱的延长赛
奈何总是勉强对自己 有一个善良的交代
我努力要自己躲开 你给我的伤心地带
但是又和失去拉扯 得到的全都是意外
到现在还是一个人 吞噬着自己的能耐
到最後我可以不爱了 你却说舍不得
离开你欲走还留的眼睛
我要我忍住在一次抱你
躲开你转身以後的消息
这一次我可以
After an eventful afternoon getting stuck behind standstill traffic only to realise I'm in the middle of a newsflash worthy flood. Late for my appointment, I managed to do more than I initially intended and could ever bargained for. 2 coffee sessions before I finally went for the prearranged appointment which was supposedly due a couple of hours before. Catching up with people I rarely have a chance to meet up with nowadays given the crazy schedules I've been running, the day off was well worth it despite the unexpected adventure. Speaking of unexpected, the hug received today felt so reassuring, it was kinda weird. I can't explain it but... comforting. It's almost like the giver was telling me "I know, I know. Everything will be fine."
我努力要自己避开 和你曾走过的地带
但是又和不舍拉扯 处在我快乐的界外
我努力要自己躲开 你给我的伤心地带
但是又和失去拉扯 得到的全都是意外
到现在还是一个人 吞噬着自己的能耐
到最後我可以不爱了 你却说舍不得
你可以不爱了 别说舍不得
To do the one thing that we knew till this point of time, time and current doesn't allow, we shall believe it'll happen someday. Will that day come?
Monday, November 16, 2009
2012
2012 marks the third movie and the situation couldn't have been more complicated. It was almost like bringing humanity to an end but you have a leader of the show who wasn't at all the leader of the ship, putting everything to a halt just for the preservation of humanity. But has anyone given much thought what is humanity. At a time like that, what's the likelihood of selflessness? Every man for himself. No?
The weekend started officially on Thursday night since Friday was day off. The beer got the conversations going. The warmth of the body softens the frozen heart. Any form of defence became entirely useless. The tsunami in the brain roars with fury. The unrest continues.
The dollar sign has finally sat in with a resounding "ka-ching" and biting the big toe real hard. Some compromises can only be temporal and before the rain becomes the millenium flood, the dam needs to close and conserve. This dam is closed for serious renovation.
Did I forget to mention, John Cusack is HOT!
http://edition.cnn.com/2009/SHOWBIZ/Movies/11/16/2012.box.office/index.html
The weekend started officially on Thursday night since Friday was day off. The beer got the conversations going. The warmth of the body softens the frozen heart. Any form of defence became entirely useless. The tsunami in the brain roars with fury. The unrest continues.
The dollar sign has finally sat in with a resounding "ka-ching" and biting the big toe real hard. Some compromises can only be temporal and before the rain becomes the millenium flood, the dam needs to close and conserve. This dam is closed for serious renovation.
Did I forget to mention, John Cusack is HOT!
http://edition.cnn.com/2009/SHOWBIZ/Movies/11/16/2012.box.office/index.html
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Love, Sex & Lies
Men have sex before they are willing to love.
Women need love before they are willing to have sex.
Is it true?
Does guilt ever eat a man up at some point in time? Or maybe they are just indifferent to whether they love or they don't.
Are tears the prerogative of women?
Men usually underestimate.
Women tend to overestimate.
Again, is this true?
We're all bothered, eaten up and frustrated by the above statements at some point in time and no matter how indifferent you may be.
Human beings live in lies. Some chose it as a lifestyle, others live in denial. Refusal to lies may be a form of denial because the truth might never come to light as long as the intent to keep lying remains. Some of us are just naive and choose to walk the park that doesn't route back to the beginning, neither does it lead to a destination. The blind walks on...
Women need love before they are willing to have sex.
Is it true?
Does guilt ever eat a man up at some point in time? Or maybe they are just indifferent to whether they love or they don't.
Are tears the prerogative of women?
Men usually underestimate.
Women tend to overestimate.
Again, is this true?
We're all bothered, eaten up and frustrated by the above statements at some point in time and no matter how indifferent you may be.
Human beings live in lies. Some chose it as a lifestyle, others live in denial. Refusal to lies may be a form of denial because the truth might never come to light as long as the intent to keep lying remains. Some of us are just naive and choose to walk the park that doesn't route back to the beginning, neither does it lead to a destination. The blind walks on...
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Hotel Re!Connect
By sleeping the entire Friday off, I thought the weekend was over. I know some of you out there are cursing and swearing but trust me, it's a well deserved break I gave myself and in layman's term, we call that "ANNUAL LEAVE". Having to run back to the office to grab my Mac (Yes, stupid me brought the work lappy home and left the personal one at work), the rest of the day was just lazy. The thunderstorm made it perfect for an afternoon nap, though it was longer than a regular nap.
Upon waking up, I realised part of the "Playground" were heading for dinner. In desperate need for food, I arrived at a table of prawn shells! Nevertheless, I had another serving of prawns which BMer was trying to deprive me of and dinner was complete. We proceeded to Hotel Re! @ Pearl's Hill where the rest joined us. The turnup was pleasantly unexpected and the place wasn't really made to accommodate that huge a crowd. On top of that, when Snugloft doesn't go to KPO, KPO came to Snugloft at Hotel Re. Tonight was surprisingly, without much alcohol. The fruit juices made it seem like we were on some detox program. Then again, 10 buckets of beer was enough to keep the toxic ones happy. The lineup of E92, E90, E46, GT3, S2000 made Kokoro look puny. King of Mount Mahjong's comment, "when you're used to driving the 335 and you get behind the wheel of the GTi, the car felt like it wasn't moving" made me wonder if I should laugh or cry. Having said that, I'm still happy with Kokoro. I totally understood where he came from because when I switched from Kokoro to Moody and back to Kokoro, the turbo lag almost made me cry. Thus, the new Z4 35i, preferably juiced, is part of the dream to be fulfilled in the near future. However, I must qualify that Kokoro is still a good boy despite the fact that he drinks engine oil like tap water.
Rare guests like TripleM and Lampung Prince graced our event tonight. Lampung Prince just got back to town today and it was so good to see him again. Hearing his words of concern directly from him warms the heart. When you know someone out there still cares about your well being, you will start to realise the importance of friends. Sending him home was naturally my pleasure. (Lampung Prince, I know you'll be reading this and I just wanna say thanks.)
The initial suggestion to speak Mandarin the entire night obviously didn't work, otherwise A&E Quack would have died from the penalties. Speaking of which, the leftover beers were apt punishments for the card game between Poker King & BMer. All in all, I had an almost alcohol free (unimaginable with BMer around) night but fun wasn't excluded from the equation.
Running into BloodRed at the "birds won't lay eggs" kinda place was a bonus.
Upon waking up, I realised part of the "Playground" were heading for dinner. In desperate need for food, I arrived at a table of prawn shells! Nevertheless, I had another serving of prawns which BMer was trying to deprive me of and dinner was complete. We proceeded to Hotel Re! @ Pearl's Hill where the rest joined us. The turnup was pleasantly unexpected and the place wasn't really made to accommodate that huge a crowd. On top of that, when Snugloft doesn't go to KPO, KPO came to Snugloft at Hotel Re. Tonight was surprisingly, without much alcohol. The fruit juices made it seem like we were on some detox program. Then again, 10 buckets of beer was enough to keep the toxic ones happy. The lineup of E92, E90, E46, GT3, S2000 made Kokoro look puny. King of Mount Mahjong's comment, "when you're used to driving the 335 and you get behind the wheel of the GTi, the car felt like it wasn't moving" made me wonder if I should laugh or cry. Having said that, I'm still happy with Kokoro. I totally understood where he came from because when I switched from Kokoro to Moody and back to Kokoro, the turbo lag almost made me cry. Thus, the new Z4 35i, preferably juiced, is part of the dream to be fulfilled in the near future. However, I must qualify that Kokoro is still a good boy despite the fact that he drinks engine oil like tap water.
Rare guests like TripleM and Lampung Prince graced our event tonight. Lampung Prince just got back to town today and it was so good to see him again. Hearing his words of concern directly from him warms the heart. When you know someone out there still cares about your well being, you will start to realise the importance of friends. Sending him home was naturally my pleasure. (Lampung Prince, I know you'll be reading this and I just wanna say thanks.)
The initial suggestion to speak Mandarin the entire night obviously didn't work, otherwise A&E Quack would have died from the penalties. Speaking of which, the leftover beers were apt punishments for the card game between Poker King & BMer. All in all, I had an almost alcohol free (unimaginable with BMer around) night but fun wasn't excluded from the equation.
Running into BloodRed at the "birds won't lay eggs" kinda place was a bonus.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Dinner & Dance & Copious Amount of Alcohol
In my entire 28 years, I've never had much luck in lucky draws or lottery. Last night was no exception. Out of approximately 200 people, there was in excess of 100 prizes and non of them came to me. Point proven.
Just when I thought the night has come to an end with an early morning in the extreme west of Singapore at the back of my mind, all car keys were summoned to be pooled together and the drinking began. Before today, I thought my department is full of drinkers and after today, I now know that the entire company drinks. To be fair, there were just a bunch of us who were crazy enough to stay back and drown all our happiness or sorrow with copious amount of alcohol. Thankfully, when the time to return home came, all were sober enough to drive with the help of some hot caffeine in the system. All in all, the laughter is something that would make it hard to forget.
But I must say, the best dressed department must come from the most innovative group of people. The Jacksons 5+2 was the highlight for everyone present. Thumbs up!
My only worry now is to get to the port at the other extreme end of Singapore by 8.30am which is just a few hours away and I'm nothing close to sleeping within the next few minutes. The wakeboarding documentary on National Geographic will keep me awake at least for the next hour or so. The residual alcohol in my system will probably make it hard for me to wake up on time in a few hours' time. The lack of sleep is of course a vicious cycle (coupled with more alcohol) of leaving dark rings round the windows of the soul.
Having said all that, I had a great night. Great company, great fun. I wonder when the next bout of fun will come...
Just when I thought the night has come to an end with an early morning in the extreme west of Singapore at the back of my mind, all car keys were summoned to be pooled together and the drinking began. Before today, I thought my department is full of drinkers and after today, I now know that the entire company drinks. To be fair, there were just a bunch of us who were crazy enough to stay back and drown all our happiness or sorrow with copious amount of alcohol. Thankfully, when the time to return home came, all were sober enough to drive with the help of some hot caffeine in the system. All in all, the laughter is something that would make it hard to forget.
But I must say, the best dressed department must come from the most innovative group of people. The Jacksons 5+2 was the highlight for everyone present. Thumbs up!
My only worry now is to get to the port at the other extreme end of Singapore by 8.30am which is just a few hours away and I'm nothing close to sleeping within the next few minutes. The wakeboarding documentary on National Geographic will keep me awake at least for the next hour or so. The residual alcohol in my system will probably make it hard for me to wake up on time in a few hours' time. The lack of sleep is of course a vicious cycle (coupled with more alcohol) of leaving dark rings round the windows of the soul.
Having said all that, I had a great night. Great company, great fun. I wonder when the next bout of fun will come...
Saturday, November 07, 2009
Navigation Defaulted
Better late than never. The water seems choppier on the surface but the boat's navigation system has started to function after a hard knock. The shore shouldn't be too far out of reach. The original destination needs to be aborted. The risk of running on low fuel is albeit present, it should be the least of the worries. The thought of time running out should only be subjected to the affected minds. This mind is learning to be less affected.
Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here
I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here
Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here
I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here
Thursday, November 05, 2009
Hello
Imagine a clothes line and you start hanging one paper clip... two paper clips... three paper clips.... They don't seem to affect the the line at all. Until your 687th clip, the line starts to feel it's being weighted down. At 1298 clips, the line is on the brink of breaking. Before the line breaks, is anyone bothered?
Playground school bell rings again
Rain clouds come to play again
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello i'm your mind giving you someone to talk to
Hello
If i smile and don't believe
Soon i know i'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me i'm not broken
Hello i'm the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry
Suddenly i know i'm not sleeping
Hello i'm still here
All that's left of yesterday
Playground school bell rings again
Rain clouds come to play again
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello i'm your mind giving you someone to talk to
Hello
If i smile and don't believe
Soon i know i'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me i'm not broken
Hello i'm the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry
Suddenly i know i'm not sleeping
Hello i'm still here
All that's left of yesterday
Sunday, November 01, 2009
Crossroads
If my blog's been visited often like how it used to be, it would be clear that the realisation is not sudden. Truth be told, happy as one can be to be with a friend who knows you best, had it not been that the person is causing you constant pain and not realise it or purely not acknowledging it, the feeling of taken for granted can't be avoided. It may not be deliberate but acknowledgement plays a large part. Then again, who are we to blame when we're not in the position to. Blame can only be imposed on oneself that wisdom wasn't fully utilised.
The marks from the sun after a day of enjoyment will fade off after a while. The pain from the burn is anything but permanent. Once the colour fades, the actual skin colour would be back, looking better than ever.
If one can't decide whether to take a left or right turn at the cross junction, there will be choices to detour and take the correct turn somewhere else. However, the road will reach a certain point whereby the destination would be beyond reach. One might be lucky to know a right turn ahead will eventually lead to the end point but if a left turn is taken earlier, the destination will only be further.
Weekends are bad. We tend to think too much. Then again, it it allows the reshuffling of pawns on the chessboard and the game restarts itself. One won't need all the pawns on the chessboard to win a game of chess but without all the right pawns, the game might not even start. Even if it's painful, some roads will be re-tarred for better roads to be built on the same space. Better utilisation of the space will prove to be more important for one car to take that road the driver missed to take.
The marks from the sun after a day of enjoyment will fade off after a while. The pain from the burn is anything but permanent. Once the colour fades, the actual skin colour would be back, looking better than ever.
If one can't decide whether to take a left or right turn at the cross junction, there will be choices to detour and take the correct turn somewhere else. However, the road will reach a certain point whereby the destination would be beyond reach. One might be lucky to know a right turn ahead will eventually lead to the end point but if a left turn is taken earlier, the destination will only be further.
Weekends are bad. We tend to think too much. Then again, it it allows the reshuffling of pawns on the chessboard and the game restarts itself. One won't need all the pawns on the chessboard to win a game of chess but without all the right pawns, the game might not even start. Even if it's painful, some roads will be re-tarred for better roads to be built on the same space. Better utilisation of the space will prove to be more important for one car to take that road the driver missed to take.
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