Friday, June 29, 2007

SINGno-interNET

As I'm typing this, I'm being put on hold on the Singnet helpline.

Before i signed up for the stupid Singnet plan, i had good internet connection with Starhub. Never had any dumb problems I'm going through with Singnet. I understand it's an invitation to treat on the bloody advertisements. So i can forgo voiding the contract based on non uninterrupted phone line and such. By the way, I've never had a day of clear phone connection since the day i got my Singnet. The basic term on the contract would be provided me with internet. I haven't had any for the past few days and they suggested getting someone to come down on Monday. That's like one week of no internet.

I'm still being put on hold.

The stupid guy from "Mio" told me that my account is not under Mio so i've totally called the wrong place but he's still trying to listen and solve my problem. To be fair, he's not stupid. I'm just so frustrated with all the screaming at home to get the internet fixed.

Now i'm on the line with a stupid girl. Yes she's stupid. But what can you expect from a normal telemarketing girl who's probably heading for school in a while. I've been talking to her for the past 15 mins trying to tell her that i'm not going to pay for this month's connection and would like to cancel my contract. Guess what she told me. If i'm gonna cancel this, i have to pay the whole of 1 year of the 2 years contract. I'm not on an impossible mission to tell her, "There's NO contract because Singnet was unable to provide me with any reasonable internet service." She doesn't understand, that i don't blame her. But similarly, for the past 10 mins, i've been trying to tell her, i need to speak to someone who knows what i'm talking about. There's absolutely no fucking way that i'm going to pay for the rest of the contract. Argh, must i say this again. Singnet has already breached the contract, hence, NO CONTRACT! NO CONTRACT! Which part of NO or CONTRACT in NO CONTRACT don't these people fucking understand?

Why would anyone of you still want to sign up with Singnet. trust me, i'm not working for Starhub nor Pacific internet. Singnet has really given me shit. No good service, no internet, no crisp phoneline or rather, no normal phone connection. No more Singnet for me. Ever.

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Name Generator

This is really interesting.

Generate your Pirate name.
Mine's Johnny of the Open Sea.

Treasure What You Have

Some of you may know that I'm been religiously trying to stay smoke free and I'm proud to say, I'm very much nicotine free by now. Then again, you only need 48 hours to eradicate all nicotine from your body so it's long gone by now.

In the pantry today, i blatantly eavesdropped - These two guys, who work on the same floor as myself (My office is in a serviced office so we share the pantry and reception. Similar to the serviced apartment concept where there's someone who comes in to clean the place every morning) were talking about this miraculous book. Some guy actually read the book and once he put it down, he stopped smoking completely. Unable to resist an interesting conversation, i joined in and told them about my feat.

The controversy surrounding this book, which i presume, is huge in the States. The US government refused to sponsor this book - *Think - Repercussion of reduced income from tax, that's why!

"Square Shoulders" would be getting the book and will get the title from him when he does. Right now, i don't have a clue to the title of the book and if you do, tag me.

For me, I think it all boils down to what you really want. You will need to realise certain things yourself and decide when you want to do it. The world can do all sorts of things to you, if you do not have the mental mindset to do it, you will never achieve anything close. Once you've decided to do it, mind of matter is definitely the greater power.

Please allow me to digress on topic - would like to elaborate on mind over matter and importance of protecting your body (in a vain attempt to reconcile with the main topic). As much as we would like to believe otherwise, our body does have a limit. Teen triathlete from RJC died after a race. He beat his personal time, was quicker than the qualifying time but came in third. This was the qualifying race for the SEA games and 2 men and 2 women would be selected. I have no idea if he qualified, whether he's the 3rd man or 3rd person, possibly the 1st or 2nd man but i reckon if he didn't, he would have died from disappointed coupled with the exhaustion.

There's a Chinese saying - We owe our body, skin & hair to our parents who has given us life. Treasure it. You owe it to yourself. Only you are capable of taking care of your own body.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Ikea Meatballs

Hey Tubby, i just found out it is not cheese sauce and in fact, it has nothing to do with cheese. This recipe is taken off the Friends of Ikea website,

Meatballs with Cream Sauce

How to make your own meatballs:

Ingredients:
* 250gm minced beef
* 250gm minced pork
* 1 egg
* 200-300ml cream and water (or milk and water)
* 2.5 tbsp. finely-chopped onion
* 50ml unsweetened rusk flour
* 2 cold boiled potatoes
* 4-5 tbsps butter, margarine or oil
* Salt and pepper

Instructions:

1. Heat the onion till golden in a couple of tablespoons of lightly browned butter.
2. Mash the potatoes and moisten the rusk flour in a little water.
3. Mix all the ingredients until there is consistency and flavour generously with salt, white pepper and (optional) a little finely crushed allspice.
4. Use a pair of spoons to shape the mixture into relatively large, round balls and transfer to a floured chopping board.
5. Fry them slowly in plenty of butter.

How to make the cream sauce:

Ingredients:
# 100ml cream
# 200ml beef stock
# Chinese soya sauce
# 1 tbsp white flour
# Salt, white pepper

Instructions:

1. Swirl the boiling water or beef stock in a pan.
2. Add cream and thicken with white flour if preferred.
3. Season well with salt and pepper.
4. Serve the meatballs with the sauce, freshly boiled potatoes, uncooked lingonberry jam and salad. There you have the perfect Swedish meal!

Monday, June 25, 2007

Good Start For The Day...

You Are 66% Sexy

Your Sex Appeal Is: Extremely High

You're very sexy. You just have that certain something that takes over a room.
You know how to attract, entice, and keep whoever you want. You are truly appealing.

Tubby's Birthday in Tioman

Your Birthdate: June 23

People wouldn't take you for a passionate person - and that's where they'd be wrong.
You can develop deep emotions quickly, and you're the type most likely to move in with someone after a few dates.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 3

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1

You are most compatible with people born on the 5th, 14th, and 23rd of the month.


It was Tubby's birthday last Saturday. He received his first ever birthday gift from me at the strike of 12. This is what he's got.



The day was quite torturous considering the coach and ferry ride to Tioman. You see, i have severe motion sickness, I can't even watch my brother play 3D games so the coach ride was a little of a torture to me. When we got to Paya Beach, it was all worth it. Don't expect 6 star hotels and such but it was nice and quiet, almost like a private beach. I loved it. Snorkeling was amazing, though the corals were dying. The only drawback, i was still motion sick so i needed to throw up in the sea. So i struggled back to shore, swimming against the current and chucked. It was terrible and needless to say, i was out for a couple of hours. I felt bad cuz he had to accompany me and miss the sun.

[For the record, i saw this fish and apparently, it's called a Teira Batfish.]


I was hoping if we all could, I'd love to stay another day so that Tubby could get a little more of the sun. I tried to make things all worthwhile for him when we lugged a couple of muffins from Toast and i set it up like a cake with hilariously kiddy candles "2" and "7". We had Monkey, ZCM, "Where's The Love", "Pink Queenbee" join us and i hope Tubby enjoyed the little celebration.

Just for the fun... My birthday...

Your Birthdate: January 11

You may watch someone from afar before you finally decide to make your move.
It takes a long time for you to develop an attraction to someone.
Generally, you prefer to pick who you love. Anyone who tries to rush you is in for some heartache.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1

You are most compatible with people born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, and 29th of the month.

Friday, June 22, 2007

Mens Rea - The Guilty Mind?

The mens rea is the Latin term for "guilty mind" used in Criminal law. To establish Criminal Liability, there must be a coincidence of the act (actus reus) and the mind (mens rea). The Latin phrase to mark Criminal Liability, "actus non facit reum nisi mens sit rea" - which means that "the act does not make a person guilty unless the mind is also guilty". So there, simply put, to pronounce someone guilty of a criminal act, the prosecution must basically proved that the person has done the act and had the intention to do the act.

But of course, there are endless arguments and discussions on mens rea in detail. Just Google it and you'll be surprised with the wealth of information that they've got on the internet. The only exception would be strict liability. Drugs trafficking in Singapore is a strict liability crime which explains why you don't have to bring it, as long as you are found in the act of bringing it in, you'd be guilty. There's a reason why Mom and Dad never stops reminding you not to carry bags for strangers at the airport.

And you have recklessness, blah blah... Well, it's when you know due to your actions, like driving carelessly without checking your blind spots or changing lanes without warning, something will possibly happen due to your acts. Then, you have the mens rea.

What brought me to dwell in this topic was due to the chain of "conversation" in my comment box under the "Discrimination" post between Tubby - a non-legal person, Marquis - A barrister in training, and Snugloft - A non-solicitor at whim of shallow pockets.

Someone who kills while sleepwalk, or under some sort of influence, or even a disability to certain senses. A mild example would be R v Ahluwalia which i wrote earlier on the movie "Provoked". She was suffering from battered women syndrome. She had lost the capacity to reason when she killed her husband. I'm not saying she's absolved of all evil or that she's right to harbour thoughts of revenge even for all the abuse she went through. Her MR was definitely affected and hence the defence of "diminished responsibility".

Do you guys know there's a field that i really wanted to go into, forensic psychiatry? Forensic psychiatry is a branch of medicine which focuses on the interface of law and mental health. It includes psychiatric consultation in a wide variety of legal matters (including expert testimony), as well as clinical work with perpetrators and victims. This web page focuses on forensic work with attorneys, courts, or other parties involved in actual or potential litigation. Which inevitably i would need to introduce my idol, Dr Henry Lee - One of the top forensic scientists in the world and how wonderful would it be if i could work with him. As always, i digress, but given the mental state of me right now, I'd rather just close this topic off. I wouldn't wanna go stabbing "Not Really An Elitist But Really, Just A Money Grabber" right now unknowingly...

Thursday, June 21, 2007

I Love Lisa Simpson!

You Are Lisa Simpson

A total child prodigy and super genius, you have the mind for world domination.

But you prefer world peace, Buddhism, and tofu dogs.

You will be remembered for: all your academic accomplishments

Your life philosophy: "I refuse to believe that everybody refuses to believe the truth"

Life's Cynicism

Some may view this article as melancholic or simply happy complete with foresight about life. Ppppbbbttttt....

Mom told me last night that we may be moving to a smaller house. To me, that's perfectly fine since I've anticipated to completely move out within this couple of years. Having such a big space is totally redundant for the 4 of us, plus that dog of course. Besides, we'd just hide in our rooms whenever we step past that main door with an ironic "Welcome" mat in front. Well, i take back the "simply happy" from the top. I'm too cynical for that.

The only thing i can hope for is not to move to some God-forsaken nucleus town where going to work will take 2 hours. 4 hours on the road going to and from work is not going to aid in a sleep-deprived alien like myself. I'm just going to stay out to drown my sorrows since home is simply too far to return to.

Met up with "Oscar-ised" for lunch the other day and people around us probably felt the aura of 2 unmarried spinsters (Duh, spinsters are unmarried right?) lamenting about life and how sickening it is to receive wedding invitations and what do we do to entertain some of them and get rid of the rest of them. Mind you, we're not un-marriageable. She's probably not intending to do so. For me, probably someday, just not yet.

I'm hunting for a 2 room apartment (For Sale or For Rent), decently renovated, not too old, District 9-16, 20-21, 26-28 all fine. Anyway outside these zones would be considered based on location, interior, price... Send me some pictures. Work much better than bugging me anyway.

Next. Kids. Fun to play with but when they create all sorts of mess, you just gotta either hand them to the helper or even better, return them to their parents. Imagine having your own kids, can't shove it back, can't get rid of them, no matter how much you love them, my patience has a limit cap. Utterly impossible. Though many told me, when you have them it's different. Given the yuppie, carefree, drink when i want to, wakeboard when i love to, movies when i feel like, sleep when i need to, LOVELY lifestyle, why would i want to jeopardise that at all. Cynical as i may sound, i do love kids. Just not mine. Not yet, though.

When you see friends with kids, don't you wonder why you can't put them on leash or debark them, spray something onto your bags and shoes so they don't scratch or bite them, then you smile and say it with ultimate plasticity, "how cute". Seriously, i do love kids. Take LaLa for example. I love her to bits. But when she start to show lost in interest (in me), i couldn't find the energy to please her all over again and get her attention. I'd be like, "oh, whatever" right. And I'm glad i can return her to the helpers. Anyone of the helpers.

Funnily, i can't wait to have these troubles... Maybe in a few years time. Right now, i wanna go wakeboarding!

I Still Love A Good Pinot Noir.

You Are Chardonnay

Fresh, spirited, and classic - you have many facets to your personality.
You can be sweet and light. Or deep and complex.
You have a little bit of something to offer everyone... no wonder you're so popular.
Approachable and never smug, you are easy to get to know (and love!).

Deep down you are: Dependable and modest

Your partying style: Understated and polite

Your company is enjoyed best with: Cold or wild meat

How Apt!

You Are Animal

A complete lunatic, you're operating on 100% animal instincts.
You thrive on uncontrolled energy, and you're downright scary.
But you sure can beat a good drum.
"Kill! Kill!"

Krispy Krave

Many of you may already know that I'm fatally attracted to Krispy Kreme. Due to a series of unfortunate events, i haven't quite had my Krispy Kreme that i've been expecting to chomp down over the weekend. To counter this urge, which over the years, i also discover that many others out there has the same kind of craving, i could actually set up my own franchise. I have some grand plans, "sure work" plans and they sound really good. Given the "market survey", people queueing up for yucky donuts at Raffles City and they obviously haven't had Krispy Kreme before, i think it's feasible business... Until i saw this...

INTERESTED IN A KRISPY KREME FRANCHISE? HERE ARE THE CRITERIA FOR ALL CANDIDATES

Applicants must have current ownership and operating experience or previous ownership and operating experience of multi-unit food service operations in the market that you desire to develop.

Our franchisees must possess the capital sufficient to fund the development of the market. We currently grant franchises on an area development basis. Specifically, our area developers are required to build multiple stores (10 or more) in a market. The minimum net worth requirement is $30 million or $1,000,000 per store to be developed, whichever is greater. For instance, a 15-store market requires a minimum net worth of $30,000,000.

Area developers must have substantial familiarity with the market proposed for development and be willing to develop multiple units over a period of time. In addition, they must be willing to diligently exert full-time best efforts in performing their obligations under the area development agreement.

DO YOU MEET OUR QUALIFICATIONS? PLEASE SEND ALL OF THE FOLLOWING TO US:

1) A complete resume of any and all partners.
2) Information on the existing multi-unit food service operations that you currently own and
operate or previously owned and operated.
3) Verification of sufficient capital to warrant developing the market.
4) Evidence of meeting the minimum net worth requirement.

PLEASE SEND ALL INFORMATION ALONG WITH A LETTER OUTLINING THE MARKET YOU DESIRE TO DEVELOP TO THE FOLLOWING ADDRESS:

Krispy Kreme Doughnut Corporation
Executive Vice President
Worldwide Development
370 Knollwood Street, Suite 500
Winston-Salem, NC 27103 USA

We appreciate your understanding that we are unable to respond to all letters regarding franchise information. Therefore, should development be considered in your country, and you meet the basic requirements, you will be contacted at that time for further discussion. We are only able to respond to inquiries, which strictly meet the criteria. We sincerely appreciate your interest in Krispy Kreme.

Please be advised that all inquiries must be directed to our franchise department in the Krispy Kreme corporate office in Winston-Salem, NC. We do not grant franchise rights or explore joint venture agreements without meeting potential franchisees in person. For additional information or to inquire about available markets, please call 1-800-4KRISPY.

___________________________________________________________

Now, i don't wanna give up. Either somebody else makes the money or i help you make this money if you already had these money. Does that sound confusing? If you have the background and the capital, i will do all the dirty everyday runnings and set up. Now, show me the money!

Bottomline: I want my "dough"nut.

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Discrimination in Singapore

This is purely my opinion on discrimination issues since i wasn't quite awake to call Glenn Ong and the FD to voice my 2 cents worth.

I hope I'll have the time and energy to touch on, sex, age and racial discrimination.

Most of us may brush it off and insist that sex discrimination is no longer in existence in Singapore. Maybe we're all overlooking some things because it's always been there.

Taken from the Ministry of Foreign Affairs -
"Salary & Benefits - Fresh graduates with a good honours degree will be appointed as a Foreign Service Officer 13 with a gross monthly salary of up to $3,320 (without NS)."

Face it. Up to this point in time, the only people who have been through NS, if not all, are predominantly males, men, boys. Just because we, girls, haven't been through NS, does that make us anymore incapable to perform in a job. What is the reasoning behind this? Trust me, no explanation is sufficient as much as these guys want to think that they're more capable after the 2 years of training or that they should be compensated for time lost, we should purely be paid based on our capability. If someone, regardless of his/her gender, can prove to excel over a regular performer, by all means, this person should get a well-deserved pay raise. Nuff' said.

Guidelines taken from the Ministry of Manpower's website - "Employ older workers and re-employ those above age 62

14. The NWC strongly supports the recommendations in the final report of the Tripartite Committee on Employability of Older Workers which was released on 17 May 2007. The Council also welcomes the Government's decision to adopt the Committee's recommendation to introduce legislative changes to facilitate opportunities for older workers to work beyond age 62.

15. Over the next few years, before legislation is introduced, the NWC urges companies and unions to work together to implement policies and programmes to recruit and retain more older workers and re-employ those workers beyond the age of 62, by adopting the Tripartite Guidelines on the Employability of Older Workers above age 62. The NWC also urges companies to move to job-based, competency-based and/or performance-based wage systems3 so that workers are rewarded according to the value of the job and their contribution. Companies should also embark on job redesign to make jobs more suitable for older workers and encourage them to upgrade their skills and enhance their employability."

Why do we even need legislations like these? The answer is simple. Age discrimination does exist amongst us and let's not be ignorant to think that McDonald's is being a saint by hiring this tier of workers. Yes it should be encourage but they should not underpay them and make use of their financial vulnerability hence paying them peanuts.

Racial discrimination. I can't be cleared of these given my multitudes of racial jokes but i only do so when they have proven records that they do behave in a certain behavior. Otherwise, i do have non-Chinese friends and we're very close as well. I don't really wanna go into the Chinese being discriminated in China way back then.

To be continued...

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Summary of the Past Week

Wakeboarding is so so so so fun and I'm addicted. You just know it. I just learnt to manage my centre of gravity and controlling my direction with my balance. I think all of you should try, unless you've got shoulders that dislocates itself whenever someone tug on it.

Been feeling stressed up about work because i haven't been able to make a decent placement and i need it badly to prove my worth and all the last minute falling through isn't quite helping. One of my candidate is going for a final interview next Tuesday and i can only keep my fingers crossed. For those of you who believes in the power of prayers, please pray that this placement come through for me.

"The man in NY with UHU glue for a girlfriend" called me yesterday and was seeking emergency help. It wasn't even last minute because Fathers' Day was over. You guessed it - He forgot about Fathers' Day and didn't buy anything for his Dad and i had to do the shopping. The shopping part wasn't that bad had he not say no to all my suggestions before. I ended up with something really generic. Make a guess, you might just hit the jackpot.

So after i delivered it, his Dad wasn't around so i left it with his neighbour right. When i told him about it, he went like "oh no, don't pass it to the neighbour... blah blah...". Hey, there was no one around, I'm not going back to that place and your neighbour was there and was willing to help, so don't blame me alright. Next time, do not ask for a favour this overdue. I might have problems arranging the resources.

Anyway, i got my Dad something really generic as well. In fact i got the same thing for "Man in NY with UHU glue gf"'s Dad. Dad was so cute to call me yesterday to go into a 2 mins aimless conversation before breaking into a low and hoarse voice and if i didn't got it wrongly, he said, "Thank You". I'm glad my Dad likes it. Dad, Happy Fathers' Day!

Manicure, Anyone?



BR's shop joining in the GSS and offering you girls, or guys, a great deal. Call up to make an appointment.

Friday, June 15, 2007

Christmas Island

"Christmas Island" is coming to Singapore today and this is so exciting. We used to work together till she decided to leave this company earlier this month. I've always loved to chat with her either on Skype when we first joined or via email and on some days, we can go on for hours on the phone. She's not fun as it hilarious, it just so relaxing to just have a good chat and she's so selfless when it comes to sharing her expertise on recruitment.

This description is going to sound like it's outta the world but this is just who "Christmas Island" really is. She's really tall. Not relatively to my height. Genuinely tall standing at about 6 feet. I would think she would be at least 6 feet. She's tanned and gorgeous. Her ability to guzzle beer puts most guys in shame. She's just like a bloke, just doesn't look the part. I'm looking forward meeting her tonight.

Somehow, the thought of Christmas Island makes me crave for hairy crab. They're all red when cooked aren't they.

I love the pictures on this site by a photographer, Jurgen Freund. For the purpose of today's post, here's one on Christmas Island Migrating Red Crabs!

Thursday, June 14, 2007

26 years of Capricorning...

I never quite believe in horoscopes but how can you explain this? Haha...

You are 93% Capricorn

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Occupational Hazard

So nice to see the guys again. Since I left law school, a place where we hung out and talk rubbish everyday, we only manage to meet up a couple of times due to work schedule and the availability of everyone. Nothing much has changed. "Skinny Biker" is still crazy and her rubber face i still intact. "Twiggy" is still exceptionally scary and her want and need to put on weight sends me into streaks of jealousy. "Superbly Lucky But Extremely Blur Genius" is still the same person whom i can grumble to. "SB's" gf, "Queen of Estee Lauder Discounts" is still as sweet as ever. I genuinely think that both of them makes one of the best couples around. "SB" is just so lucky to have found "QELD", well not because of the private sale that she invites us to although that's like the super duper plus factor, she's really matured and i feel that she guides "SB" in such positive directly, i feel that things will only get better. "Twiggy's" new squeeze is this sweet, soft spoken girl. Let's just call her the "Indecisive Mont Blanc Girly". From her, i realised that i was unable to strike it off as easily as someone new anymore.

I really wished that i could like goes into endless conversation with her like i do with my candidates but i can't. It's so sad that i've lost the ability to go into any interesting conversation except when i'm at work. I guess due to the nature of my job, i'm being forced to talk too much and when it's off work, i feel so lethargic to attempt to speak to a new person. Nonetheless, i must say she's quite nice and sweet. It's just tragic that i'm becoming a victim of "occupational hazard". Even when everyone is talking, i find it tough to get into the conversation but people like "SB" never fails to crack me up with her mindless jokes which i suspect weren't meant to be a joke at all.

Hey "Twiggy", we shall get "IMBG" out some other time when i'm not so mentally tired with work on my mind. I think i'd probably be able to ramble off with her about shopping and make-up.

My eyes are so sore and tired, i think i should just get some rest.

Monday, June 11, 2007

Wakeboarding


Went wakeboarding with BR and ZCM yesterday and it was fun! It was a virgin try but i think i did pretty alright. Very proud to say, i managed to stand up and lasted for like 2 or 3 seconds. Well, many of you might say, hey chicken feet but mind you, i've never done it before and i consider it a feat. On top of which, i haven't done sports actively for very long and my sense of balance is totally off the charts. I can see myself doing this more often. Apart from the excitement, it's about time i catch up on some much needed sun after being cooped up in a small office small up 37 levels in one of the many buildings in Raffles Place.

There was also some activities day at the Sembawang Yacht Club yesterday so we could try out loads of activities for just S$3. How good can the deal be. So Tubby, BR, ZCM and myself went on the bananaboat and i bet my lost voice today can be rightfully attributed to too much screaming during one of the turns that the guy was trying to tip us over. It was hilarious because our "banana" refused to flip over and we were trying to hard to stay on board. Then again, we did got ourselves into the water at the end. It was helluva great time we had.

The rest of my weekend was pretty much spent catching up on sleep i lost and missed during the week.

BTW, did i not say that Monkey took some nice pictures and subsequently went into the air-conditioned games room to hide. I'm speculating that he can't stand the bloody heat.

Sunday, June 10, 2007

To Love And To Hold

The nightmare i had this morning woke me up sobbing before i slump myself back in bed for another 6 hours of sleep, trying to catch up on lost time during the work week. The last person on earth who would be in the mental mindset to commit suicide did so in my dream and i was telling myself that i should wake up. No matter how i tried, i couldn't. I can't bear the thought of losing someone i love so dearly. I've been out with several people in my life and none felt so precious that i had nearly cried my eyes out in my dream. It was a horrendous one.

As the dream progresses, i found out that the death was fake and when i saw him again, i really believed that i was having a bloody conversation with the dead. The later part of the dream revealed that the death was faked and he was trying to leave me. I could not believe that i had irritated some people so bad that they had to feign death to leave me. Besides, there was another girl whom i found out that he went to Cannes with behind my back. Then again, all these may not make much sense because it's just a God damn dream. I was crying so bad, i wouldn't be surprised if i found tear marks on my pillow. I was sobbing uncontrollably but thankful i actually woke up to find that the reality is not such.

I've always been an insecured person and was always afraid that I'm not being well-liked. I never knew why i was the commonly hated object but i did try to be a better person in the process. I reckon i was too self-centred and didn't quite care what others thought. Many people are such but I'm just a little too candid for my own good. I never thought of what i wanted to say and should be saying, i just blurt them out. Straightforwardness may be a positive aspect of a person's character but definitely not in my case. I'm just glad that people who loves me and know me, knows very well that I'm not such a person and have understood where i was coming from.

But had it not been the nightmare, i wouldn't be finding myself waking up to a pair of nice warm arms and shoulders i can lean on for life. It's only when your add some salt to your watermelon that you actually know how sweet and tasty it is. That is why we have salt added to cookies. Digressing?

I would never want to have such a frightening nightmare ever again but I'm sure, this has make me realise that life is so fragile. You may lose someone overnight and to regret means it's way too late for salvation. In reality, i wouldn't want to regret which is why i put in 101% in loving some people so i don't live on regretting my actions. Having said that, there are always people whom you can't be bothered with but i guess, to achieve being a better person, i will have to learn to love everyone and not be biased. Besides, we're all humans and living in the same world. Learning to protect and love one another is a life long continuous lesson that everyone should be learning. Cliche but it holds the truth that many of us are trying all ways to deny it.

Friday, June 08, 2007

Stuffed... Pppuuurrrrppppp....

I guess i had too much food for my own good. Usually I'll be craving for food, some sort, any sort, all the time.

As many of you may know, i don't usually have breakfast but i had a huge fulfilling breakfast today. Even after my usual breakfast, i was found chomping on cornflakes even though i was hungry or itching for food. It was merely a motion that makes me feel comfortable.

Just before lunch, i went for a walk with "Very Long Name For a Designation But Simply The Supreme Of Administration" and we got some cakes so at this moments, i have the cakes staring at my at the corner of my eyes and tempting me although my tummy is bulging out of my pants and my button is on the verge of popping off my shirt.

The cake would have been a treat had i not just done a huge lunch with "Zhao Cai Mao" at Marmalade Pantry. The linguine is one of the best I've tried but the soup and coke really overdid the meal.

To gross you guys out, i just burped. Wet burp. Just like wet fart. It stinks and it reminds me of puke. I think on a certain level, it's puke because it was so acidic, it was burning my throat and i so could taste and smell it. Now I'm sucking on a sweet and secretly hoping that my tummy will go down and not feel so guilty after all. It is obviously not working.

My cake is tempting me to eat it...

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Is Someone Trying To Assasinate me?

DisorderRating
Paranoid:High
Schizoid:Low
Schizotypal:High
Antisocial:Moderate
Borderline:Moderate
Histrionic:Very High
Narcissistic:High
Avoidant:Moderate
Dependent:High
Obsessive-Compulsive:High

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Gotham & 90% Naked Hot Bods

Gotham - One of those places that you're generally wary of because you don't know what you're heading into and even when friends raved about them, you just go like, "Oh, i should go someday." but never ever got around to do so.

When i went for drinks the night before with some friends, they were talking about the the hunks and the stripping dances. So we decided to check the place out.

As soon as we arrived, we saw some hot guys taking fabric off their body till they reveal this little hot shorts. The show "abruptly" ended when they pulled down the back and revealed the top end of their thongs.

When they announced the next show was coming up in an hour's time, we were hyped up again after all the groaning and sighing.

During this hour, i had a great time catching up with the bunch and filling them in with stuffs in my life. Well, since Tubby was there as well, there wasn't much to fill them in really. Had a little drink and went onto the dance floor. It's been some time since i last got down to a dance floor and they actually had space for me. We have received several lessons from St. James and unfortunately, we never seem to learn.

The show came back on at 12 and we couldn't stop blushing, screaming, raving... Now, i've lost my voice but i had a great time. I think when the crowd is right, you can simply have fun anywhere, everywhere.

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

I'm Gisele! HAHAHAHA!!!

You Are Most Like Gisele Bundchen

Slightly exotic and perfectly gorgeous

I Knew I'm Naughty But Innocent! And What's INTP?

Your Mind is PG-13 Rated

Your mind is definitely a little dirty. You're naughty, but not trashy.
You don't shy away from a dirty joke, and you're clearly not a prude.


Your Love Type: INTP

The Thinker

In love, you are honest and serious about commitment.
For you, sex is something you think about and desire a lot of the time.

Overall, you are pure in your affection and feelings.
However, you tend to be suspicious and distrusting at times.

Best matches: ENTJ and ESTJ

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

Black Tie?

This is going to be real exciting! I'm gonna meet up with some people whom i haven't met for some time and they have people who have left some footprints and has taught me lots of things regarding various aspects of my puny, insignificant life. We are so gonna have so much fun. I just feel bad about leaving out someone but due to unspecified reasons, i had to do just that.

Went for a meeting this morning and that was an excellent client. The likelihood of a much bigger job lies awaiting some sort of attrition. This week is going to be really busy but i rather busy than too free and i have nothing to work on and log. One of my likely offer has fallen through and i feel like trash now. On another hand, a candidate of mine will be attending her final round of interview so i really have to be good and keep my fingers crossed. I need more placements to prove myself! Besides, the first and only one was painfully puny and probably even smaller than i earlier anticipated it. Damn it!

End of this month, there will be a corporate function that is a black tie event and i have no idea what i should be wearing. Any suggestions?

Monday, June 04, 2007

Draw Your House and Here's Mine...

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Can't Risk 24 years of bad luck as much as i don't believe... What's your horoscope?

This is HOROSCOPE for you


Once you have opened this e-mail, there's no turning back. Below are true descriptions of zodiac signs, with traits from a book written 35 years ago by an astrologic predictor. Read your sign, then forward it
on . try ignoring it, and the first thing you'll notice is having a horrible day starting tomorrow morning - and it only gets worse from there.


SCORPIO - The Addict
EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humour. Energetic. Predict future. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Caring. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.


VIRGO - The One that Waits
Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.


LIBRA - The Lame One
Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! however not the kind of person you wanna mess with ... u might end up crying... 9 years of bad luck if you do not forward.


ARIES - The Liar
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, Addictive. Loud. 16 years of bad luck if you do not forward.


AQUARIUS - Does It In The Water
Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out. 2 years of bad luck if you do not forward


GEMINI - Irresistible
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in the you know where... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE. 9 years of bad luck if you do not forward


LEO - The Lion
Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.


CANCER - The Cutie
MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to. 12 years of bad luck if you do not forward.


PISCES - The Partner for Life
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. 5 years of bad luck if you do not forward.


CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to own Gemini's in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart. 24 years of bad luck if you do not forward.


TAURUS - The Tramp
Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth! 15 years of bad luck if you do not forward.


SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give.
Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in the you know where..!!!
Not the kind of person you wanna mess with- you might end up crying. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

Good Shrekky Parenting

I enjoyed my last weekend a great deal and i caught Shrek 3. It was absolutely hilarious and i loved it. It's been some time since i caught such a brainless yet funny film. It was great being able to catch up with my favourite cousin and her 2 girls.

We spoke a little and it's a pain when you realise that the people closest to you are talking behind your back and to make things worse, it's those unpleasant things you know you'd never say something like that about them. I don't like it when someone whom your umbilical cord was once tied to and that you have had so much respect and love for, say stuffs behind you and your respect for them seem to have eroded over the years due to such comments which have obviously been made known and propagated with the help of a couple of malicious chatterboxes.

I have always thought that my parents gave me limitless supply of freedom because they never asked about my life, interfered my relationships or nagged about my results. Slowly i came to realise, maybe they just can't be bothered. However, with that in view, i do secretly hoped that my parents do care and they just wanted to give me a free hand to handle my own affairs. This is clearly not the care. Hearing terrible remarks some people made behind my back, practising favouritism, are just some of the little and insignificant examples that i have to share. Everything i do or attempt to do puts me right on the higher end of the list amongst others on "How to be a good child to your parents". I'm not blaming life and all and i still think one of them loves me and has given me all he could but it's the entire package that comes with the gossip. I simply do not like it.

I'm glad i still have got my cousin, my brother when he doesn't quite irritate me and the man who has given me all he's got for the past 26 years.

Strangely, Tubby's Mom, someone whom i was terrified of, now pushes my head and tells me that lunch is getting cold, attempts to feed me udon salad is more like Mom. Not that she can ever replace anyone in particular but as i told Tubby last night that he should feel really lucky to have a Mom like her and had been there for him all the time. She has added alot of value into my life and giving me alot to look forward.

I digress.

Shrek's been a great film and i would encourage all of you to watch it. It's all worth it and there isn't a single boring moment. I give it 4 out of 5 popcorns!

Friday, June 01, 2007

Kissy Kissy

Your Kissing Technique Is: Perfect

Your kissing technique is amazing - and you know it.
You have the confidence to make the first move.
And you always seem to know what kissing style is going to work best.
Sometimes you're passionate, sometimes you're a tease. And you're always amazing!





Huh??

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you are a bit stingy.

You think good luck might come your way, but if it does you'll be so surprised you'll burst out laughing.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be methodical in your ways - with trouble adapting to the rules of society.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you don't have any particular type in mind, but you are inclined to look for someone who will say yes when you ask him / her out.

How can i be 60% boyish when Jo is 50% boyish?

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

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To Forgive & Give



Received this in my inbox earlier. I generally hate mass mails but they do have interesting stuffs every now and then which is why i never scream at my friends for sending them to me. This is one of those that doesn't look very good and would love to click trash then i started reading...

It's so meaningful. I didn't cry but i have to admit that my eyes welled. I guess it means a great deal just to be a little more patient with people around us, pay more attention to our parents before we can't do it again and learn to be a husband/wife all over again. Sometimes it wouldn't hurt to be more forgiving and giving. We will learn to appreciate life better when we learn to appreciate the people in our lives. It's a good start and i shall be less petty and think of all the good things you have done for me and not sulk.

I know when I'm peeved and i don't speak, it's really bad. I will try to be a better person. I'm not preaching over here and expect all of you to do what i say. It's more like a reminder for myself and i hope you will be feeling my sincerity very soon. To be trying is a step forward...