Too Little Too Much

Tucked myself into bed earlier after polluting my body with prescribed drugs last night thinking that more sleep would help my mind to rest. Subconsciously, I was hoping the phone would ring, be it a phonecall or a simple text message but the entire device just went mute. Having little trust in failing technology, I picked up the darn phone on an interval of every 3 minutes to check that it is not turned off like it usually does. The turmoil lasted through the night up till this morning. I could sleep no more, 8 hours was more than sufficient which is entirely unlike me. I used to go on a minimum of 12 hours sleep at any given day, whether be it to be during exams or when I had too much to drink, I could just sleep on. Could have been the "adult" working life routine and biological clock that my body has gotten used to but it could just be the g'zillion things going through my head. It is not me to be unreasonably demanding or have unreasonable expectations so I should stop thinking of dumb things "spoiling" my thoughts. I need to go wakeboarding. Cooping at home is not good for me. I need to fill my time with loads of stuffs.

Woke up and saw Urban Legend Wifey's tagline saying that she's lonely. I wasn't any better. At least hers did not last as long as mine did or rather still does...

同样的一场日落
同样你还是没说
只是抱紧我
时间一到就松手
你用一万个理由
都比沉默还温柔
为什么爱我又不断退后
你害怕的是什么
你想要的是什么
站在你背后
我连呼吸都痛
我要 相信你是爱我的
我要 相信你是勇敢的
我烦 时间是最残酷的
我怎么等
我要 相信你是爱我的
不要 当我每次唱情歌
眼里总有太多泪
不停拉扯
我用一万个答案
解释我们的距离
到最后发现我全都猜错
你害怕的是什么
你想要的是什么
站在你背后
我连呼吸都痛
我要 相信你是爱我的
我要 相信你是勇敢的
我烦 时间是最残酷的
我怎么等
我要 相信你是爱我的
不要 当我每次唱情歌
眼里总有太多泪
不停拉扯
你怀里有太多问号
告诉我怎么依靠
我要 相信你是爱我的
我要 相信你是勇敢的
我烦 时间是最残酷的
我怎么等
我要 相信你是爱我的
不要 当我每次唱情歌
眼里总有太多泪
不停拉扯

I have to go find something to occupy my mind...