遗失的美好

海的思念绵延不绝
终于和天在地平线交会
爱如果走得够远
应该也会跟幸福相见

承诺常常很像蝴蝶
美丽的飞盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言
就像一定会来的春天

我始终带着你爱的微笑
一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑过嘴角
就用你握过的手抹掉

再多的风景也从不停靠
只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好
但就是谁都替代不了

在最开始的那一秒有些事早已经注定要到老
虽然命运爱开玩笑真心会和真心遇到

This is the 3rd day in a row this week that I came in late today and it's Wednesday so technically, I haven't actually been early or even punctual. This is not an excuse, I was really insomniac last night. Tossing and turning, I reckon I actually fell into sleep at about 5. My eyes look like they have been soaked in acidic water overnight.

Thanks for coming over to see me yesterday. Over the months, you have no idea how much joy you've brought me. Everything else seems perfect. I love your family and they love me. I love the kids like my own. Your home feels more home than my own. But I'm probably not in the right mindset now to put anyone above myself. There's already so much at work, the stress, the money in the pipeline that goes on forever, the clients or lack thereof, the things I need to send out, the quota to meet on a daily basis... Things at home aren't any better with my parents up my neck looking out for the next paycheck, ransacking my mails for my financial information, my brother's education and his larger than life phonebills.

Having fun with friends is one of my outlets, if not the only one. Well, guess I still have wakeboarding. I can't prioritise so that one part of my life is more important than others. Guess that is my fault for not being able to manage my life and give certain things the right priorities. I might and will settle down for a comfortable pair of shoes in future but this pair of shoes is a little too big for me to fill at this moment. Believe me, I want to settle for a family and such but at this point in time, that's still settling.

There is nothing wrong with you as a person or a partner. You've been great. Ever supportive, you were always there when I needed you. I'm very sure I could have been better but maybe just not the right time. The communication wasn't what I thought it would be. Maybe there will be a day, I can tug on the shirt and the head will turn in the right place and I'm NOT looking for a puppet. It's communication in its best form... I don't even think I could ever do that...

This song has no bearing but I felt strongly for certain parts.

我不难过

又站在你家的门口
我们重复沉默
这样子单方面的守候
还能多久
终于你开口向我诉说她有多温柔
虽然你还握着我的手
但我已不在你心中
我真的懂
你不是喜新厌旧
是我没有
陪在你身边
当你寂寞时候
别再看着我
说着你爱过
别太伤痛
我不难过
这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流
我也不懂
就让我走
让我开始享受自由
回忆很多
你的影子也会充满我生活
我并不懦弱
你比谁都懂
虽然寂寞
这会是我
最后的宽容
抱紧我
再抱紧我
这一份感动
请你让我留在胸口
别再说是你的错
爱到了尽头
是非对错
就让它随风
忘了所有
过得比你快活
不要再说
或许这是最好的结果
现在分手
总好过你不爱我一拖再拖
松开你的手
离开你左右
我向前走
这会是我
真正的解脱