Mask

It's Chinese New Year. My mood is complex. I can't decipher how I should be thinking or feeling. It's a chore to even put them in words. I shall not attempt to depress you guys on this joyous occasion. Enjoy the long weekend!

If only I can hear what my heart is saying and if I can say what my heart wants to say...

I'm dressed to impress today but I don't have a ready set of audience. Maybe I do but are they the people I want to impress? I'm too tired to impress anyone. I want someone to hear me. The real me that's underneath all the make up, nice dresses and gorgeous heels.

Emptiness is hard to bear.

I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds
Strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy...happy

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here

I lay my head onto the sand
The sky resembles a backlit canopy
With holes punched in it
I'm counting UFOs
I signal them with my lighter
And in this moment I am happy...happy

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
Wish you were here

The world's a roller coaster
And I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care
But my hands are busy in the air saying:

I wish you were here
I wish you were

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
Wish you were here