When the email informing me of my training came in, I was a little disappointed. I should have expected that I'll be attending training in Singapore as compared to some others in the office as I haven't been amazing. At the back of my mind, I was wondering if given the same platform, would I have performed as well or even better? If the starting point is different, I only have myself to blame for being less than amazing. Logically, especially knowing how these P&L works, I know I'll be the one paying for them eventually but for me, it boiled down to personal achievements and how much of an asset you'd mean to the team and the man in charge.
I think I've broke too much rules since I came into this place. I never blogged about work, nor added colleagues on Facebook. So I'm gonna stuck the f*** up before I get myself into trouble. Just to qualify, I'm not unhappy with others but at my very own performance. I end up questioning myself if there's anything I could have done better. I too wish I can churn money like some of the better known "machines". Self-doubt will not help so constructive advice would be preferred.
I know my well-deserved holiday will come soon, hopefully. Weekends alone are so hard to survive...
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