After getting the warning for speeding in the newly opened KPE, I'm extra careful and I know exactly where the cameras are but mostly importantly, I just switch to cruise control and move on when my car decides when to step up and slow down. The letter clearly stated that I could be fined some X amount and gotten like 4 demerit points. Ouch!
By the way, I was going at 85km/h which is below the speed limit for the other expressways. No excuses because I know that the limit is at 70km/h but my grumble is that it's so easy with modern cars to go beyond 70km/h without really stepping on it. The speed limit is ridiculous.
I usually take it on my back from work because it requires little brain cells because no one would be overtaking as that would potentially earn you a ticket. On the way towars CBD, I've never quite taken during morning peak hours. Let me know if you have done so and how's the condition like before I decide to be suicidal and try on a new route.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Interpretation of Dreams - Broken Mug
Do you believe in dreams and what it might be telling you?
After reading messages on Skype that Moody Penguin sent me last night, it took my a while to realise what he type and even then, I had difficulties digesting the information. Apparently, he will be going away for a while for various reasons. I had these in anticipation but it just hit me of a sudden that this is finally happening. The thought of not being able to hold him when I'm feeling down is indeed a little depressing but I'm happy things are moving for him. To avoid any form of miscommunication due to the lack of it, we had to learn to be more patient with and understanding of one another. Although I can't wait for life to start, I'm also apprehensive of what it brings me.
Tossed and turned in bed the whole time last night and couldn't fall asleep which also explains why I'm rather zombie like today. I did however manage to catch some 20 winks. I vaguely remembered this morning that I dreamt of a broken mug so I hurriedly search the internet for an interpretation and guess what I found. Taken from the book - Ultimate Dictionary of Dream Language
Mug (Broken) - Lack of communication will result in a major set back. Think ahead in order to prevent this.
Scares me how dreams indicates what is on your mind. I refuse to believe that it foretells anything but I am impressed with the book and what it is telling me.
After reading messages on Skype that Moody Penguin sent me last night, it took my a while to realise what he type and even then, I had difficulties digesting the information. Apparently, he will be going away for a while for various reasons. I had these in anticipation but it just hit me of a sudden that this is finally happening. The thought of not being able to hold him when I'm feeling down is indeed a little depressing but I'm happy things are moving for him. To avoid any form of miscommunication due to the lack of it, we had to learn to be more patient with and understanding of one another. Although I can't wait for life to start, I'm also apprehensive of what it brings me.
Tossed and turned in bed the whole time last night and couldn't fall asleep which also explains why I'm rather zombie like today. I did however manage to catch some 20 winks. I vaguely remembered this morning that I dreamt of a broken mug so I hurriedly search the internet for an interpretation and guess what I found. Taken from the book - Ultimate Dictionary of Dream Language
Mug (Broken) - Lack of communication will result in a major set back. Think ahead in order to prevent this.
Scares me how dreams indicates what is on your mind. I refuse to believe that it foretells anything but I am impressed with the book and what it is telling me.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Out-Excess
Recession has gotten to me and I think I brought it upon myself. Retail therapy this week kept me sane for a while until I thought of my credit card bills. A cheque to A&E Quack hasn't been cleared and I still owe Amazing Race Partner the monies for my last Phuket trip. On top of all these, the senseless purchase of shoes and board shorts has hit me back to reality. To top it off, I received a reminder from my mobile phone service provider that my bill hasn't been paid.
Wakeboarding with a banker, an advertising chi-chi tai tai wannabe aka Alcoholic Empress Dowager was disastrous yet hilarious. The session ended among thunder, lightning and a bunch of screaming girls. 10 mins after the screaming, we were back on dry land discussing how we should save money because it's recession and how the bankers are having their meals at hawkers. It seems like elastic things like good food are the first to go in times like these.
My teeth whitening scheduled but beginning of next month has to go on but everything else would have to go. That includes excessive shopping, excessive travelling (overseas or in Singapore although petrol prices have dipped), excessive food (which is also good for the waistline). However, that made me think twice on how much money I have been wasting for the past months or years. Watching the bank account dip is not a good feeling at all. In an attempt to make my life better, I'm determined to be more thrifty. Until my next big pay check that is...
被现实推挤
梦想会变形
执着让人
觉得好吃力
我只是看着你
了解的神情
微笑扬起
又能继续
有时候爱是一种眼神
赶走所有苦闷
是你让我记得自己不是一个人
有你在什么都有可能
因为彼此信任
真的爱情不需要保证(会恒温)
你从不劝我
别逆风飞行
牵手陪我
向梦前进
Wakeboarding with a banker, an advertising chi-chi tai tai wannabe aka Alcoholic Empress Dowager was disastrous yet hilarious. The session ended among thunder, lightning and a bunch of screaming girls. 10 mins after the screaming, we were back on dry land discussing how we should save money because it's recession and how the bankers are having their meals at hawkers. It seems like elastic things like good food are the first to go in times like these.
My teeth whitening scheduled but beginning of next month has to go on but everything else would have to go. That includes excessive shopping, excessive travelling (overseas or in Singapore although petrol prices have dipped), excessive food (which is also good for the waistline). However, that made me think twice on how much money I have been wasting for the past months or years. Watching the bank account dip is not a good feeling at all. In an attempt to make my life better, I'm determined to be more thrifty. Until my next big pay check that is...
被现实推挤
梦想会变形
执着让人
觉得好吃力
我只是看着你
了解的神情
微笑扬起
又能继续
有时候爱是一种眼神
赶走所有苦闷
是你让我记得自己不是一个人
有你在什么都有可能
因为彼此信任
真的爱情不需要保证(会恒温)
你从不劝我
别逆风飞行
牵手陪我
向梦前进
Friday, October 17, 2008
TGIF
Thank God it's Friday. It's been a long time since I can relish this ability to rest well after a hectic working week. Unfortunately, I have nothing lined up but will take Mom and Dad to a good meal. Dad's been away and is only back tonight so dinner will be at the airport. After which, my Friday night will be spent right in front of the computer and telly. My pretty frock I chose to put on this morning is just a beautiful sight for my 2 new colleagues, not that they paid much attention to it anyway. Alone and lonely.
Having said the above, I don't think I want to be out drinking and partying so a bit of a quiet time is actually good. The only thing missing is a tight cuddle in bed.
Having said the above, I don't think I want to be out drinking and partying so a bit of a quiet time is actually good. The only thing missing is a tight cuddle in bed.
是我想太多?
Staring at my reflections as I was approaching my car this morning, I started to wonder where has the rest of me gone to. In terms of quantity, I have been seeing more of me but I couldn't see the soul that followed me through the ups and downs. I was caught in a blank moment...
你笑着说他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔
我的不安那么沉重
只有你不懂
他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
我想我没有错怪了什么
虽然你不说都是错在我
太晚我才懂爱了你太多
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
Glenn and the FD were monkeying around this morning as usual but I wasn't quite in the mood except for my traffic updates. The last I want is to be stuck on ECP on my way to work on a Friday plagued with meetings which essentially means, no casual Fridays for me. While switching between the "CD" and "FM" function, I paused when the hilarious DJs quoted from some SMSes on how women like to be treated. One of them was about gifts from guys. Girls like it even better when they come with cards with loads written on it. Not the canned messages but one handwritten by the sender. Words, the more the merrier. I couldn't agree more. Cards/Letters are things that weathers through the years and in time when you look back reading such messages, the exodus of memory will just rush out enough to drown you in an emotional storm. I did that a couple of nights ago and realised how colourful my teenage years actually were, filled with letters between girlfriends. These days, my gifts have become very unpersonalised as well. Some soul searching is in the pipeline...
The other SMS said that whenever we come back from work (either back to home or just seeing one another), all we want is for you to look at us in our eyes, give us a hug and tell us how much you missed us. I would not classify this as what guys should do for girls but in general, what everyone should do to their other half and not let this crazy world take the love away from the both of you.
Going back to my personal insignificant world, I do not like to be ignored. I guess no one does. I think it's fair if one has to do it for work but to do it in spite, you may think it's right but definitely not to me. Sincere apologies should be taken into account whether they are eventually being accepted or not. For weeks and weeks, I cared too much that I let every single thing affect me. Had I not cared so much, it may not have such a great impact on my life. But then again, have we all left our burdens from yesterday behind and move on or do we still have a million of things going through our heads when the last significant other calls or smses? Still living in someone else's shadow, I can't find my smile.
你笑着说他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔
我的不安那么沉重
只有你不懂
他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
我想我没有错怪了什么
虽然你不说都是错在我
太晚我才懂爱了你太多
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
Glenn and the FD were monkeying around this morning as usual but I wasn't quite in the mood except for my traffic updates. The last I want is to be stuck on ECP on my way to work on a Friday plagued with meetings which essentially means, no casual Fridays for me. While switching between the "CD" and "FM" function, I paused when the hilarious DJs quoted from some SMSes on how women like to be treated. One of them was about gifts from guys. Girls like it even better when they come with cards with loads written on it. Not the canned messages but one handwritten by the sender. Words, the more the merrier. I couldn't agree more. Cards/Letters are things that weathers through the years and in time when you look back reading such messages, the exodus of memory will just rush out enough to drown you in an emotional storm. I did that a couple of nights ago and realised how colourful my teenage years actually were, filled with letters between girlfriends. These days, my gifts have become very unpersonalised as well. Some soul searching is in the pipeline...
The other SMS said that whenever we come back from work (either back to home or just seeing one another), all we want is for you to look at us in our eyes, give us a hug and tell us how much you missed us. I would not classify this as what guys should do for girls but in general, what everyone should do to their other half and not let this crazy world take the love away from the both of you.
Going back to my personal insignificant world, I do not like to be ignored. I guess no one does. I think it's fair if one has to do it for work but to do it in spite, you may think it's right but definitely not to me. Sincere apologies should be taken into account whether they are eventually being accepted or not. For weeks and weeks, I cared too much that I let every single thing affect me. Had I not cared so much, it may not have such a great impact on my life. But then again, have we all left our burdens from yesterday behind and move on or do we still have a million of things going through our heads when the last significant other calls or smses? Still living in someone else's shadow, I can't find my smile.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Click Click
A&E Quack or rather, ENT Quack or soon to be Radiology Quack, whatever, we all know he's a quack... Well, dropped us a huge piece of news yesterday. Really happy for him and it's nice to be able to share the "frolicking" mood around the group. When he first told us, I was hesitant to believe what he said since it's a bit of crying wolf. He's not a habitual liar, don't get me wrong. But he's always joking about things, everything, that I tend to hold back a little whenever he breaks such news. Anyway, all of my very best wishes goes out to him.
Anyway, I've been talking about this forever. I want a camera. Not a point & shoot, I've got like 2000 of them (just a figure of speech, I'm not buried under them yet). I want a decent, complicated, confusing, cool looking SLR. From looking at the 40D since last year, I've been procrastinating the purchase ever since I got my Kokoro. Now that the 50D is out, I'm being tempted once again.
To be fair, like what Moody Penguin said, I don't need such a good camera as it would be a waste but it's such a cool gadget to have. So it has become my next goal when I close the next big thing. More like an encouragement. If I get to close a small one, I should be happy with the 450D. Having said all that, my suspension and exhaust are still in the pipeline building carbon... I mean collecting dust.
Meanwhile, I shall just stick to enjoying watching my man play with his expensive toys... That's what he's good at!
Anyway, I've been talking about this forever. I want a camera. Not a point & shoot, I've got like 2000 of them (just a figure of speech, I'm not buried under them yet). I want a decent, complicated, confusing, cool looking SLR. From looking at the 40D since last year, I've been procrastinating the purchase ever since I got my Kokoro. Now that the 50D is out, I'm being tempted once again.
To be fair, like what Moody Penguin said, I don't need such a good camera as it would be a waste but it's such a cool gadget to have. So it has become my next goal when I close the next big thing. More like an encouragement. If I get to close a small one, I should be happy with the 450D. Having said all that, my suspension and exhaust are still in the pipeline building carbon... I mean collecting dust.
Meanwhile, I shall just stick to enjoying watching my man play with his expensive toys... That's what he's good at!
Monday, October 13, 2008
TPE... PIE... ECP
Not about to list out all the E's in Singapore. Just a general observation that irks me on a daily basis. The exit to PIE from the TPE is jammed up every morning. Genuinely, I do sympathise with people who are left with no choice but to take that particular expressway but I'm going to rant anyway. Why is it that to turn into the small bottlenexk leading to the PIE, cars have to block up the entire stretch. This only applies to inconsiderate drivers who tries to beat the jam by cutting the queue and tries to join back in at the end of the stretch. The end result - A jammed up 4 lane expressway depriving of people who needs to head to ECP their chance of enjoying that stretch of jamless road and of course, the cost of fuel and environmental issues are becoming a real world problem. What happens to people who needs to head off to the airport during peak hours? Singaporeans have no idea how their behavior seriously affects others, don't they?
Oh well, I'm at work on time so...
Oh well, I'm at work on time so...
Friday, October 10, 2008
Waiting to be Waited On?
Clearing up after ourselves is a basic thing that should be indoctrinated to us but being Singaporeans and totally spoilt by be waited on at hand and feet for everything we do, food courts are filled with the older tier of the population cleaning up after us brats.
Graciousness is something the government has been trying to wash into our brains but some things take time and this is one of them. To try to change human behavior can not simply be done overnight. But let's just try it this once and let's start from fast-food restaurants where the food is not as messy to deal with as food courts and most of the stuffs are disposable.
For myself, I have been brought up to clear after myself but easy help breeds laziness and I have to admit, I leave it to the cleaners now more often than not. Thinking back, this is not something I would like to teach my kids so I shall endeavor to clean up after myself from today onwards.
Graciousness is something the government has been trying to wash into our brains but some things take time and this is one of them. To try to change human behavior can not simply be done overnight. But let's just try it this once and let's start from fast-food restaurants where the food is not as messy to deal with as food courts and most of the stuffs are disposable.
For myself, I have been brought up to clear after myself but easy help breeds laziness and I have to admit, I leave it to the cleaners now more often than not. Thinking back, this is not something I would like to teach my kids so I shall endeavor to clean up after myself from today onwards.
Martians and Women
Summary to a whole new world after a week - Let's just say with Singapore officially in recession, I'm naturally worried having just starting anew. Overcast loom across the hot sunny Singaporean day. The silence is killing everyone, the financial market is taking it's last breath before it goes into hibernation. The hyperinflation started from market prices and now, my GDP can't seem to follow up. Staying conservative, I can only do what I can and was good at. Whether am I still able, I haven't been able to ascertain myself till I finally get to see some numbers.
Not being the most numbers sensitive or financially sound person around, I just need to rant and let go of the dark clouds surrounding me. If only my work has that big an impact on me. The next thing that could drive me to this stage is by cutting a couple of onions.
Do girls generally ask for too much? Why is it when we know that it is not exactly that we're not being cared for but we just want that bit more, asking for a little too much? I'm so tired and although it's too early to feel so, I can't seem to find the energy to walk anymore. I just want to find a corner, take a rest and cry. But nobody really cares if you shed a tear or not. All they want is to not know about it. As the saying goes, see no evil. What I don't see don't hurt me?
Had a short chat during an unofficial break with Hair Gelled New Yorker about the interaction between guys and girls and I'm not telling how contrasting it is, I only know it's affecting me at this very moment.
When one is the willing giver, one can't blame the non-reciprocation. But is it wrong to feel down? You be the judge.
Not being the most numbers sensitive or financially sound person around, I just need to rant and let go of the dark clouds surrounding me. If only my work has that big an impact on me. The next thing that could drive me to this stage is by cutting a couple of onions.
Do girls generally ask for too much? Why is it when we know that it is not exactly that we're not being cared for but we just want that bit more, asking for a little too much? I'm so tired and although it's too early to feel so, I can't seem to find the energy to walk anymore. I just want to find a corner, take a rest and cry. But nobody really cares if you shed a tear or not. All they want is to not know about it. As the saying goes, see no evil. What I don't see don't hurt me?
Had a short chat during an unofficial break with Hair Gelled New Yorker about the interaction between guys and girls and I'm not telling how contrasting it is, I only know it's affecting me at this very moment.
When one is the willing giver, one can't blame the non-reciprocation. But is it wrong to feel down? You be the judge.
Thursday, October 09, 2008
Blackberry Storm
The iPhone has tempted me in some way but the more sensible part of me has refused to get one of those. Admittedly, it looks so darn cool, just like the iPod and whatever Mac there is. This may sound like sourgrapes but hey, it's still not a Blackberry in terms of email functions. I'm not the most technical person but I know I would like to feel my buttons when I'm typing an email. The qwerty is addictive and with the new Blackberry, many wonder how can a Blackberry ever be touchscreen. The ingenious part of this new BB device, although it's touchscreen, it gives you the "clicking" feeling so it does feel like a real BB. Gonna get one this November. I don't want one now. I need one!
Saturday, October 04, 2008
接下来
All I Wanna Do I Do it For You
心里能感觉 你们还在
如此靠近的遥远
想念的瞬间 不断浮现
接受啊 身边有点孤单
我准备 每个再见面
接下来 有好有坏
我只要 记得起点
接下来 我去迎接 不后退
接下来 可好可坏
有你们 陪在每一天
All I Wanna Do I Do it For You
All I Wanna Do I Do it For You
就算啊 偶尔我觉得累
是了解 推著我向前
接下来 有好有坏
我只要 记得起点
接下来 我去迎接 不后退
接下来 可好可坏
有你们 陪在每一天
All I Wanna Do I Do it For You
Do it I Do it For You
我们一起飞
飞得更远
All I Wanna Do I Do it For You
替我们实现
梦的极限
让我看得见
我的信念
Friday, October 03, 2008
5...4...3...2...1... BOOM!
Counting the number of days before I get back to the rat race, it is starting to get a little scary. Just imagine someone gave you 3 months to not do anything and just as you are getting comfortable, things have to revert to how it was like or even more more hectic than previously. During these 3 months, situations changed and comfort level has increased tremendously. The inertia to get back is finding it easy to easy to keep me where I am. But to achieve the lifestyle I want, the last I can or want to do is to sit back.
Just when you think life is going to be better, like a bad relationship, some things or people have to haunt you. So much for wanting to part on good terms, Sod's Law has never failed to work its magic. I've offcially sunken to my lowest point and felt that the world has come right down on me without warning. Thinking about some things makes you sick. Thinking about how you thought very well of certain people makes you even sicker. I can't blame others for being naive myself. To learn things the hard way is unavoidable. The bumps and bruises are part and parcel. To learn to love and hold again is a challenge.
I just want to put all the crap behind me and move on...
Just when you think life is going to be better, like a bad relationship, some things or people have to haunt you. So much for wanting to part on good terms, Sod's Law has never failed to work its magic. I've offcially sunken to my lowest point and felt that the world has come right down on me without warning. Thinking about some things makes you sick. Thinking about how you thought very well of certain people makes you even sicker. I can't blame others for being naive myself. To learn things the hard way is unavoidable. The bumps and bruises are part and parcel. To learn to love and hold again is a challenge.
I just want to put all the crap behind me and move on...
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Wedding March
This is a wedding galore post inspired by my nephew who got married on the 1st of October. Yes, this post is backdated. But information is dedicated to Skeeter Mom. The smile on her face when she went to finalise her ring is PRICELESS.
Vera Wang once said that your weding gown is your most public statement on the most private feelings you have for someone.
Overbudget is common when it comes to that ONE dress of your life time. Different people have different opinions. Some chose to be avant garde and whether they regret it years down the road remains a question but like what I always say, do whatever that makes you happy, it's YOUR moment. Having said that, I can't stress enough that it's not about how grand and lavish things are but what it means to the two of you. Was chatting with Skeeter Mom and wondered if it is sensible to tailor made specially for you and in another sense, buying THAT dress instead of mere rental. It all boils back down to budget and it is definitely insensible to blow them at the early stage as the cost of a Chinese wedding can possibly escalate the nearer you are to the wedding date. Even then, I would love to have mine specially made just for me. Which girl doesn't?
Our local gem - Tan Yoong
The legendary inspiration - Vera Wang
Some creme de la creme bridal gown designers if you have the budget to blow...
Romona Keveza
Reem Acra
Now, prepare your eyes for a bridal gown galore - The biggest collection of wedding gowns but not right here in Singapore so let me tempt you... Kleinfeld Bridal
Chinese dinners can be a big headache for many of us living here in Singapore and born and bred in Chinese families. Our folks want big and grand and it is a time for them to show their children off and how well life actually is. I often think that the wedding dinner is done for our parents than ourselves. Even then, I'll be happy to make my old man proud of his little girl. Right now, he's just got to wait for a couple more years. Thinking back, our parents were so worried that they might be grandparents before time and at my age, they are starting to panic sooner than I am and nothing is stopping them from asking when they can be grandparents even if it means that they become grandparents before they become parents-in-law. I think I'm way more conversative in that aspect.
If you do need a wedding planners, we do have several in Singapore. Be it individuals who are doing it out of passion (I do know one so contact me if you need the number) or little set ups like this to help you out.
Most importantly, don't drain yourself. It's your big day. Take your time or let someone else share your burden. Don't forget, your better half is always out there looking out for you. Pre wedding preparations can prove to be abrasive so you would want to watch that.
Vera Wang once said that your weding gown is your most public statement on the most private feelings you have for someone.
Overbudget is common when it comes to that ONE dress of your life time. Different people have different opinions. Some chose to be avant garde and whether they regret it years down the road remains a question but like what I always say, do whatever that makes you happy, it's YOUR moment. Having said that, I can't stress enough that it's not about how grand and lavish things are but what it means to the two of you. Was chatting with Skeeter Mom and wondered if it is sensible to tailor made specially for you and in another sense, buying THAT dress instead of mere rental. It all boils back down to budget and it is definitely insensible to blow them at the early stage as the cost of a Chinese wedding can possibly escalate the nearer you are to the wedding date. Even then, I would love to have mine specially made just for me. Which girl doesn't?
Our local gem - Tan Yoong
The legendary inspiration - Vera Wang
Some creme de la creme bridal gown designers if you have the budget to blow...
Romona Keveza
Reem Acra
Now, prepare your eyes for a bridal gown galore - The biggest collection of wedding gowns but not right here in Singapore so let me tempt you... Kleinfeld Bridal
Chinese dinners can be a big headache for many of us living here in Singapore and born and bred in Chinese families. Our folks want big and grand and it is a time for them to show their children off and how well life actually is. I often think that the wedding dinner is done for our parents than ourselves. Even then, I'll be happy to make my old man proud of his little girl. Right now, he's just got to wait for a couple more years. Thinking back, our parents were so worried that they might be grandparents before time and at my age, they are starting to panic sooner than I am and nothing is stopping them from asking when they can be grandparents even if it means that they become grandparents before they become parents-in-law. I think I'm way more conversative in that aspect.
If you do need a wedding planners, we do have several in Singapore. Be it individuals who are doing it out of passion (I do know one so contact me if you need the number) or little set ups like this to help you out.
Most importantly, don't drain yourself. It's your big day. Take your time or let someone else share your burden. Don't forget, your better half is always out there looking out for you. Pre wedding preparations can prove to be abrasive so you would want to watch that.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
To Love Or Be Loved
害怕?
The century old question that we repeatedly ask ourselves, is happiness the ability to love somebody or to be loved. We tend to ask ourselves and even people around us due to insecurities we can't get rid of. You will have the answer when you find that you wouldn't have to ask anymore because it doesn't matter the 0.2% more that you're giving because the contentment is way above what you think you're getting from the other person. Besides, some love can't be quantified with percentage or even how much it's being displayed.
However, we all bring scars into our relationships. Do scars make us stronger or allow the next cut to penetrate easier and deeper? Is it fair to let your current partner live in the shadow of your previous partner? The answer is clear but to live it is yet another challenge. When one is finally able to love the person for who the person is regardless of the emotional baggage carried over from past relationships, then all scars should just be superficial and merely a mark to prove that you've been there and you've done that. The process is painful but with the belief that tomorrow is to be filled up with more beautiful hopes and dreams, time will get us over this bridge.
Those of you who knows me on a personal level will know my favourite quote by George Sand. I believe in only one happiness in life and it shouldn't be in any way, be compromised.
害怕...
我突然觉得有点怕
爱跟生活的一切
你以为我知道怎么拆开
我们的想法落差
我的爱
是说停不能停
已经弄的不能说是曾经
也可说出我是错的
爱未曾变成真的
也没藏到多少你需要的爱
我不再 去执拙我是谁
我是我在夜里掉的眼泪
也可说我看不开的
为你我能做的
竟还没让你相信是爱情
左右你我
而哭泣都是因为爱
也逼自己不掉泪
让往日不只是有你
这网里我也撑着
拼了命的守着
The century old question that we repeatedly ask ourselves, is happiness the ability to love somebody or to be loved. We tend to ask ourselves and even people around us due to insecurities we can't get rid of. You will have the answer when you find that you wouldn't have to ask anymore because it doesn't matter the 0.2% more that you're giving because the contentment is way above what you think you're getting from the other person. Besides, some love can't be quantified with percentage or even how much it's being displayed.
However, we all bring scars into our relationships. Do scars make us stronger or allow the next cut to penetrate easier and deeper? Is it fair to let your current partner live in the shadow of your previous partner? The answer is clear but to live it is yet another challenge. When one is finally able to love the person for who the person is regardless of the emotional baggage carried over from past relationships, then all scars should just be superficial and merely a mark to prove that you've been there and you've done that. The process is painful but with the belief that tomorrow is to be filled up with more beautiful hopes and dreams, time will get us over this bridge.
Those of you who knows me on a personal level will know my favourite quote by George Sand. I believe in only one happiness in life and it shouldn't be in any way, be compromised.
害怕...
我突然觉得有点怕
爱跟生活的一切
你以为我知道怎么拆开
我们的想法落差
我的爱
是说停不能停
已经弄的不能说是曾经
也可说出我是错的
爱未曾变成真的
也没藏到多少你需要的爱
我不再 去执拙我是谁
我是我在夜里掉的眼泪
也可说我看不开的
为你我能做的
竟还没让你相信是爱情
左右你我
而哭泣都是因为爱
也逼自己不掉泪
让往日不只是有你
这网里我也撑着
拼了命的守着
Keeps Getting Better
My world is getting brighter and I can't wait to start my new life. Things are looking up. Life is good. I just need to work extra hard for the lifestyle that I've always wanted and whilst doing that, not forgetting my priorities. Hope I do not disappoint...
Some rough edges need to be sand down and I hold my breath.
Some conversations need to be finished and I wait.
Some trials are painful and I hang on.
It is all worth the ride because you're holding my right hand, walking down this colourful street with me, slowly but surely.
Bear with me...
Some rough edges need to be sand down and I hold my breath.
Some conversations need to be finished and I wait.
Some trials are painful and I hang on.
It is all worth the ride because you're holding my right hand, walking down this colourful street with me, slowly but surely.
Bear with me...
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Kokoro's Skin Colour
Kokoro is NOT about to undergo some plastic surgery but just some thoughts that has been running through my head. When I first got Kokoro, I thought it was going to be black. Need not be jet black kinda black but at least black enough but apparently, with the heavy silver/grey speckles in the paint, it reflects light differently during different times of the day. At times, it'll look purple or blue and other days, it'd look grey. At one point, I even suspected that VW gave me graphite blue in replacement of the black. I really want it black... ... ...
Very recently, a very mischievous idea went through my head. Maybe I should sticker the entire car matte black. But in order to do that, I could jolly well spray paint the entire car then I can have my favourite BMW's Alpine White on my not-so-atas Golf. Rationally, I would do none of these as the costs involved would be ridiculous. I even had to think about my coilovers a g'zillion times before I went to buy one and even after ordering them, I still gave up my order and chose to wait further. It's between some 2 very different choices now and before I decide, my swaybars will be sitting right in my boot.
Very recently, a very mischievous idea went through my head. Maybe I should sticker the entire car matte black. But in order to do that, I could jolly well spray paint the entire car then I can have my favourite BMW's Alpine White on my not-so-atas Golf. Rationally, I would do none of these as the costs involved would be ridiculous. I even had to think about my coilovers a g'zillion times before I went to buy one and even after ordering them, I still gave up my order and chose to wait further. It's between some 2 very different choices now and before I decide, my swaybars will be sitting right in my boot.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Basic Respect
Enlightened and inspired by my niece's blog - We may not always agree but what is more important is to respect the other person's opinion.
Sorry...
Sorry...
Monday, September 15, 2008
Have A Break...
3 months of sitting around is coming to an end very soon. It is not going to be easy to get rid of the lazy bone that grew slowly but surely on me over the past weeks. These free time has given me some space to catch up on sleep and explore what life has to offer. Due to budget constraints, my plans for long travels are shelved yet again. That gave me the opportunity to really rest my mind. A bonus that came with these extra hours was a new relationship I've gotten myself into and I've been spending more time than I could ever imagine myself to spend with another person and in the process nurturing what I've been trying very hard, using all my might, to protect and to treasure. Like a new seedling, I just watered and sheltered it from the harsh weather.
Very soon, I will have to go back to a faster paced lifestyle and be worried about the most practical yet coldest of all things, money. The root of all evils, the medium for a better life, the reason to push me forward and upwards. To get into the right mindset and not be lost in the process is a constant reminder I have for myself in order to not get stuck in the maze and forget about the more precious things in life. Dad once said that if there are any problems that money can solve, it is not a real problem.
Setting my priorities right would be a challenge but a must. To forget about what is true happiness is not an option. To seek to put happiness to a greater level is what I have to clear the clouds to see. Staying focused would only set the vision clearer.
This WILL be a good start...
Very soon, I will have to go back to a faster paced lifestyle and be worried about the most practical yet coldest of all things, money. The root of all evils, the medium for a better life, the reason to push me forward and upwards. To get into the right mindset and not be lost in the process is a constant reminder I have for myself in order to not get stuck in the maze and forget about the more precious things in life. Dad once said that if there are any problems that money can solve, it is not a real problem.
Setting my priorities right would be a challenge but a must. To forget about what is true happiness is not an option. To seek to put happiness to a greater level is what I have to clear the clouds to see. Staying focused would only set the vision clearer.
This WILL be a good start...
Thursday, September 11, 2008
WALL.E and OUR Environment
Shows with underlying meanings never fail to attract me. My first movie date with was Shadow Hell Rider (whom from today onwards shalt be called Wall.E to catch WALL.E. I like it that they take a piss at the US Congress and sends environmental messages to kids. Kinda reminds me of Captain Planet.
When I was visiting the Museum of Natural History in New York, there was this piece of statistic that shocked me. Singapore, by per capita, has the highest level of waste. Which means, we're the most environmentally unfriendly people who dumps everything. Let's just not take everything for granted and try to reuse whatever we can. On the same note, can I urge each and everyone of you, to take ONE less plastic bag whenever possible? Just one less plastic bag every now and then, you'd be amazed by how much you are doing to help Mother Earth.
Check this out!
Although I think Wednesdays as the BYOB day is silly because it wouldn't take off in a place like Singapore, I believe individually, we can definitely make a difference. Help me help yourself to help the world.
Thank you.
When I was visiting the Museum of Natural History in New York, there was this piece of statistic that shocked me. Singapore, by per capita, has the highest level of waste. Which means, we're the most environmentally unfriendly people who dumps everything. Let's just not take everything for granted and try to reuse whatever we can. On the same note, can I urge each and everyone of you, to take ONE less plastic bag whenever possible? Just one less plastic bag every now and then, you'd be amazed by how much you are doing to help Mother Earth.
Check this out!
Although I think Wednesdays as the BYOB day is silly because it wouldn't take off in a place like Singapore, I believe individually, we can definitely make a difference. Help me help yourself to help the world.
Thank you.
Monday, September 08, 2008
I Love The Whole World
I've been hearing this song on the TV every now and then while I'm either playing mahjong or snuggling in bed. Never occurred to me it's a Discovery Channel thingy. Thought I'd share it... It's pretty nice and makes you sing along. Alot of these people are unsung heroes who brings you a different world while you get to watch it in the comfort of your own home. Don't I sound like an ambassador of Discovery? *psst I can sell the top bar to the channel if they are interested.
Friday, September 05, 2008
Nothing Else Matters
If my memory serves me right, I blogged on me being on a rollercoaster ride some time ago. A familiar feeling is rushing up and drowning me and definitely not very pleasant. Not being able to share the thoughts and emotions, the next best thing is to ensure being the best emotional and mental support anyone could hope for, which also led to the overcompensation mentioned in the last post. A willing mind and soul to do that doesn't mean a person is equipped with the strength and capability to pull it through. Prayers tide the mind for a short period of time and calms it down but just the very next moment, one would be gasping for the air and wanting to make it to the surface and not get drowned in the process. To be able to distant myself is a brand new resolution made mid way through the year that you know as per every other resolutions made during new year, it is so not going to last. However, it is afterall, a resolution.
Reluctant to put anyone through the misery and pain, with enough complaints that my blog is always so dark and upsetting, I will keep this very short. So much so, I only want to say, "As long as you know I'm here, nothing else matters."
And I mean every word of it.
Reluctant to put anyone through the misery and pain, with enough complaints that my blog is always so dark and upsetting, I will keep this very short. So much so, I only want to say, "As long as you know I'm here, nothing else matters."
And I mean every word of it.
Thursday, September 04, 2008
Reassessing
Over-compensating is not what I'm good at doing but one would naturally go into that when they are in love. Refraining from doing it is my utmost priority now. When things are starting to feel like a one way street and a totally different direction from where it began, it seems to be the time to take a step back and assess the situation. Having too much time at home doesn't seem like the right solution but only makes things worse. I have more than enough time on my hands to solve problems and subsequently, create them. Right now, I just need to give time to everything and be doing something to take my mind off.
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
You Make Me Smile
If I can't be someone who makes you smile, then what am I?
I'm so tired, I just wanna scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so tired, I just wanna scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Loose Not Your Grip
When you said you trusted me, I trusted that you trust me. I trust that you meant what you say and trust me, I'll keep my side of the bargain.
My sixth sense has never served me better though I wish in a better way. Awoken by the message ringtone from my mobile, I picked up as swift as I can imagine myself to when I'm drowsy, falling in and out of sleep. To begin with, my ability to sense things aren't quite right has never been more accurate. I couldn't quite get to sleep. The message read what I most feared.
To not blog about my relationship is my last attempt to protect it from any harm and to shelter it in order to create room for it to grow. But I could no longer find any reasonable outlet to pour my pain.
When told I'm not a rebound, I believed in every word of it because I believed in the person who said it. However, some part of me refused to admit that there's a flaw in that sentence. The person who said it was absolutely sincere and I do not for one second, doubt that. His belief and the actual fact may not agree with one another.
In fear that if I probe further, it will lead to cutting myself in the wrist yet again so I went into hiding and zipped up. I could see the pain and sorrow but yet I'm not ready to let go of the happiness that accompanied me for the last month. Why is it so difficult to put in everything yet not feel hurt?
To not dwell anymore is my way of avoiding things and I do believe things will only get better. Genuinely. To walk away is not a measure I'm prepared to take because I'm selfish.
Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
All I want to do is to find a way back into love... Do not let go of my hand...
My sixth sense has never served me better though I wish in a better way. Awoken by the message ringtone from my mobile, I picked up as swift as I can imagine myself to when I'm drowsy, falling in and out of sleep. To begin with, my ability to sense things aren't quite right has never been more accurate. I couldn't quite get to sleep. The message read what I most feared.
To not blog about my relationship is my last attempt to protect it from any harm and to shelter it in order to create room for it to grow. But I could no longer find any reasonable outlet to pour my pain.
When told I'm not a rebound, I believed in every word of it because I believed in the person who said it. However, some part of me refused to admit that there's a flaw in that sentence. The person who said it was absolutely sincere and I do not for one second, doubt that. His belief and the actual fact may not agree with one another.
In fear that if I probe further, it will lead to cutting myself in the wrist yet again so I went into hiding and zipped up. I could see the pain and sorrow but yet I'm not ready to let go of the happiness that accompanied me for the last month. Why is it so difficult to put in everything yet not feel hurt?
To not dwell anymore is my way of avoiding things and I do believe things will only get better. Genuinely. To walk away is not a measure I'm prepared to take because I'm selfish.
Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
All I want to do is to find a way back into love... Do not let go of my hand...
Monday, September 01, 2008
Mildly In Shock
I can't seem to say enough of this but I am just so glad to be home. Still a little detached. Not very keen to speak to anyone. Maybe still in a mild state of shock. Those of whom I gave a one world reply or not reply your smses or return your calls, I really don't feel like talking at this point in time. But I'm fine. I was still able to laugh and joke with SHR. Give me a while but this is good as well. Only means I have more things to blog about.
Amazing Race - Phuket
This is definitely good for reality TV and as good as the amazing race, except that we have no idea how many teams there are. Woke up this morning not knowing if our flight could take off since the Phuket airport remains closed. While arranging for possible way out of Phuket, we met people on the same boat as ourselves and frantically trying to make our ways out of Phuket. We were given several ideas and of which, the idea to make a road trip up to Bangkok stayed etched and similarly with the other travelers, we were all trying to make our way to Bangkok International Airport.
The catch: The ride is at least a good 10 hours on a route we didn’t know if it was safe and it was the road less traveled. Together with 4 other desperate travelers, we booked a van to take us to Bangkok but that would set us back by another SGD800 but money at this point in time, didn’t mattered that much. We wanted to get out real bad! Unfortunately, an American couple left their luggage at some train station and they wouldn’t get there in time to grab their luggage before they set off on their planned flight in Bangkok. For Fongster and me, it’s ridiculous to go on a more than 10 hours unknown trip when we could just wait to travel home on a 1.5hour flight. Well, that was a problem as we have no idea when exactly would the Phuket airport be opened. We were playing a waiting game, waiting for God to take pity on us.
News of the Phuket airport opening excited us and we have decided to come straight to the airport even if it means aimlessly waiting for a flight to fly out to Singapore or Bangkok. The next flight to Singapore from Bangkok was either 7pm tonight or 7am tomorrow morning. Either way, we needed to get our arses to Bangkok. So we camped here in the Silkair office as the Thai Airways authorities refused to entertain us. Even as a Star Alliance member, holding a SQ ticket got us nowhere.
News of the Thai airways landing would also mean other planes could land. By then, Silkair would send their planes here. That would be another hour later so we waited and had our lunch at Burger King. After lunch, we continued with bugging the Silkair ticketing girl. That paid off and while on an attempt to change our flight out from Bangkok to flying out of Phuket on Silkair straight back to Singapore, she managed to confirm a flight for us in a few hours time. Now, while keeping my fingers crossed and hoping that the airport remains open and flights could take off and land safely, I’m waiting patiently to get my butt on that MI flight and my arms around Shadow Hell Rider.
Stamped: 4.27pm Phuket time, Phuket International Airport
The catch: The ride is at least a good 10 hours on a route we didn’t know if it was safe and it was the road less traveled. Together with 4 other desperate travelers, we booked a van to take us to Bangkok but that would set us back by another SGD800 but money at this point in time, didn’t mattered that much. We wanted to get out real bad! Unfortunately, an American couple left their luggage at some train station and they wouldn’t get there in time to grab their luggage before they set off on their planned flight in Bangkok. For Fongster and me, it’s ridiculous to go on a more than 10 hours unknown trip when we could just wait to travel home on a 1.5hour flight. Well, that was a problem as we have no idea when exactly would the Phuket airport be opened. We were playing a waiting game, waiting for God to take pity on us.
News of the Phuket airport opening excited us and we have decided to come straight to the airport even if it means aimlessly waiting for a flight to fly out to Singapore or Bangkok. The next flight to Singapore from Bangkok was either 7pm tonight or 7am tomorrow morning. Either way, we needed to get our arses to Bangkok. So we camped here in the Silkair office as the Thai Airways authorities refused to entertain us. Even as a Star Alliance member, holding a SQ ticket got us nowhere.
News of the Thai airways landing would also mean other planes could land. By then, Silkair would send their planes here. That would be another hour later so we waited and had our lunch at Burger King. After lunch, we continued with bugging the Silkair ticketing girl. That paid off and while on an attempt to change our flight out from Bangkok to flying out of Phuket on Silkair straight back to Singapore, she managed to confirm a flight for us in a few hours time. Now, while keeping my fingers crossed and hoping that the airport remains open and flights could take off and land safely, I’m waiting patiently to get my butt on that MI flight and my arms around Shadow Hell Rider.
Stamped: 4.27pm Phuket time, Phuket International Airport
Day 3 on Saturday
Day 3 is comparatively exciting. Besides worrying for our flight and the riot for the first half of the day, we were barely affected. Signing a minutely hefty credit card bill, I was whisked into another 3 full hours of massages and a Jurlique facial. It can only be described as a aromatic experience. The rose mist that was sprayed on my face after every facial procedure helped tremendously in soothing the cramps that I was experiencing. My acnes are also getting worse which is why I chose this day to start on the Pill. Hoping to see a difference, I’m also living in fear that this puts on me the higher risk group for breast cancer, not forgetting I’m as already in the high risk group. The cramps and water retention is killing me slowly so the Pill would probably ease all the PMS.
Dinner was initially booked for a party of 3 at Baan Rim Pa, an award winning restaurant here in Phuket. Alkie ED couldn’t make it so Fongster and myself went ahead. To grab a tuk-tuk or taxi there will cost us 300baht and the vendors here refuses to budge. So we resorted to renting a scooter. Here’s the catch, neither of us could ride. Of course, Fongster with the longer legs would probably be the safer rider. He’s got the set of “brakes” I don’t have. Without “power steering”, the “brakes” were crucial when we were making the u-turns. Upon reaching the restaurant, I thought we achieved something great that day by evading the mini oligopoly here on Karon beach. By the way, the bike rental costs us a total of 200baht and another 40baht for gasoline. Trip to the restaurant and back would easily set up back by at least 600baht. For the two of us who just spent nearly 6000baht on dinner, we didn’t quite save much but it was definitely the highlight of the trip.
The last we’ve heard from Alkie ED, there were flights scheduled to come in from Singapore so we are likely to have a flight back home tomorrow. Fingers still tightly crossed.
Dinner was initially booked for a party of 3 at Baan Rim Pa, an award winning restaurant here in Phuket. Alkie ED couldn’t make it so Fongster and myself went ahead. To grab a tuk-tuk or taxi there will cost us 300baht and the vendors here refuses to budge. So we resorted to renting a scooter. Here’s the catch, neither of us could ride. Of course, Fongster with the longer legs would probably be the safer rider. He’s got the set of “brakes” I don’t have. Without “power steering”, the “brakes” were crucial when we were making the u-turns. Upon reaching the restaurant, I thought we achieved something great that day by evading the mini oligopoly here on Karon beach. By the way, the bike rental costs us a total of 200baht and another 40baht for gasoline. Trip to the restaurant and back would easily set up back by at least 600baht. For the two of us who just spent nearly 6000baht on dinner, we didn’t quite save much but it was definitely the highlight of the trip.
The last we’ve heard from Alkie ED, there were flights scheduled to come in from Singapore so we are likely to have a flight back home tomorrow. Fingers still tightly crossed.
Saturday, August 30, 2008
The Unrest Continues...
I thought Thai Botak exaggerated the situation when he told me the worst case scenario is to make a break for the Thai Border and grab a flight back from Penang. I'm beginning to get worried after reading this article. Good thing being, I'm not in a rush to go home and everything at the beach seems rather peaceful so I guess I'll cross the bridge when I get to it.
Here's an article taken off AsiaOne:
Police scuffle with protesters as turmoil spreads through Thailand
BANGKOK (AFP) - Thai police on Friday fired tear gas and scuffled with protesters who are demanding the premier step down, as escalating turmoil in the kingdom heaped pressure on the seven-month-old government.
As protests spread across the country, shutting airports in the southern tourist hotspots, Prime Minister Samak Sundaravej insisted he was not going to give in to the protesters' demands.
"I will not quit. At this moment, I will not declare emergency rule, I will wait and see tomorrow," he told reporters.
Up to 25,000 protesters aligned with the People's Alliance for Democracy (PAD) have barricaded themselves in the main government complex, accusing Samak of being a figurehead for ousted premier Thaksin Shinawatra and calling for him to resign.
Skirmishes erupted throughout the day as police used shields and batons to deal with angry mobs, causing slight injuries to a few protesters.
About 2,000 demonstrators left the besieged Government House compound and marched to the nearby police headquarters on Friday evening to demand the officers involved in the clashes be handed over, prompting police to fire tear gas, witnesses at the scene said.
A government-run medical emergency centre said it had treated 35 people after the incident.
A meeting of the government's ruling coalition made up of Samak's People Power Party (PPP) and five others was quickly called on Friday evening, and an urgent parliamentary debate was scheduled for Sunday to discuss the crisis.
Asked if the debate could pacify protesters, Banharn Silpa-Archa, leader of the PPP's main coalition partner Chart Thai Party, said: "I don't know, it's up to PAD."
But retired general Chumlong Srimuang, one of PAD's leaders, has repeatedly said protest rather than parliament was the only way to solve Thailand's political problems.
Samak has vowed to end the demonstrations without violence, a promise he reiterated earlier Friday.
"Police will still adhere to my earlier order - they merely went to post a court order, not to clear protesters," Samak told reporters, referring to a court injunction put up at the site ordering protesters to leave.
Deputy national police spokesman Major General Surapol Tuanthong said the crowds had swelled and 25,000 people were now in the grounds of the compound.
As the situation spiralled Friday, the powerful army chief reassured the nation the military would not intervene unless asked.
"There will be no coup because a coup will not be able to solve the problems," General Anupong Paojinda told reporters, adding: "I am confident that police are able to oversee the situation."
Police, however, appeared to be struggling to contain the demonstrators, with Surapol telling AFP that all the officers who were stationed inside the compound had now withdrawn because of the risk of clashes.
"There are now up to 3,000 police deployed outside Government House," Surapol said.
The restraint of the police seems to have emboldened the protest movement. "I am convinced that the military will not forcibly crack down on us," PAD spokesman Suriyasai Katasila told reporters.
"PAD must go ahead and intensify the protest - we think that more unions will join us and it will lead to more airport closures."
PAD has been demonstrating against Samak for months, but events took a new turn on Tuesday when protesters stormed a TV station and barricaded themselves inside the Government House grounds.
The courts have ordered the protesters to leave the site and issued arrest warrants for nine of the ringleaders on charges including rebellion.
Outside Bangkok, thousands of protesters forced the closure of three airports in the south. Phuket International Airport was the first to shut its doors after PAD sympathisers invaded the runway.
Similar rallies soon prompted officials to close Hat Yai and Krabi airports, said Sereerat Prasutanont, president of Airports of Thailand.
The State Railways of Thailand, meanwhile, said 248 drivers and mechanics called in sick on Friday, halting a quarter of all services in the kingdom.
PAD - which despite its name is trying to bring down Samak's elected government - began its campaign at the end of May, just over three months after the coalition government was formed.
PAD protests helped lead to the 2006 coup that unseated Thaksin, and the entry into government of his ally Samak after elections in December has infuriated the country's old power elites in the military and palace.
They also object to Samak's plans to amend a constitution drafted and approved under military rule following the coup.
All I want now is to be home with my Shadow Hell Rider...
Here's an article taken off AsiaOne:
Police scuffle with protesters as turmoil spreads through Thailand
BANGKOK (AFP) - Thai police on Friday fired tear gas and scuffled with protesters who are demanding the premier step down, as escalating turmoil in the kingdom heaped pressure on the seven-month-old government.
As protests spread across the country, shutting airports in the southern tourist hotspots, Prime Minister Samak Sundaravej insisted he was not going to give in to the protesters' demands.
"I will not quit. At this moment, I will not declare emergency rule, I will wait and see tomorrow," he told reporters.
Up to 25,000 protesters aligned with the People's Alliance for Democracy (PAD) have barricaded themselves in the main government complex, accusing Samak of being a figurehead for ousted premier Thaksin Shinawatra and calling for him to resign.
Skirmishes erupted throughout the day as police used shields and batons to deal with angry mobs, causing slight injuries to a few protesters.
About 2,000 demonstrators left the besieged Government House compound and marched to the nearby police headquarters on Friday evening to demand the officers involved in the clashes be handed over, prompting police to fire tear gas, witnesses at the scene said.
A government-run medical emergency centre said it had treated 35 people after the incident.
A meeting of the government's ruling coalition made up of Samak's People Power Party (PPP) and five others was quickly called on Friday evening, and an urgent parliamentary debate was scheduled for Sunday to discuss the crisis.
Asked if the debate could pacify protesters, Banharn Silpa-Archa, leader of the PPP's main coalition partner Chart Thai Party, said: "I don't know, it's up to PAD."
But retired general Chumlong Srimuang, one of PAD's leaders, has repeatedly said protest rather than parliament was the only way to solve Thailand's political problems.
Samak has vowed to end the demonstrations without violence, a promise he reiterated earlier Friday.
"Police will still adhere to my earlier order - they merely went to post a court order, not to clear protesters," Samak told reporters, referring to a court injunction put up at the site ordering protesters to leave.
Deputy national police spokesman Major General Surapol Tuanthong said the crowds had swelled and 25,000 people were now in the grounds of the compound.
As the situation spiralled Friday, the powerful army chief reassured the nation the military would not intervene unless asked.
"There will be no coup because a coup will not be able to solve the problems," General Anupong Paojinda told reporters, adding: "I am confident that police are able to oversee the situation."
Police, however, appeared to be struggling to contain the demonstrators, with Surapol telling AFP that all the officers who were stationed inside the compound had now withdrawn because of the risk of clashes.
"There are now up to 3,000 police deployed outside Government House," Surapol said.
The restraint of the police seems to have emboldened the protest movement. "I am convinced that the military will not forcibly crack down on us," PAD spokesman Suriyasai Katasila told reporters.
"PAD must go ahead and intensify the protest - we think that more unions will join us and it will lead to more airport closures."
PAD has been demonstrating against Samak for months, but events took a new turn on Tuesday when protesters stormed a TV station and barricaded themselves inside the Government House grounds.
The courts have ordered the protesters to leave the site and issued arrest warrants for nine of the ringleaders on charges including rebellion.
Outside Bangkok, thousands of protesters forced the closure of three airports in the south. Phuket International Airport was the first to shut its doors after PAD sympathisers invaded the runway.
Similar rallies soon prompted officials to close Hat Yai and Krabi airports, said Sereerat Prasutanont, president of Airports of Thailand.
The State Railways of Thailand, meanwhile, said 248 drivers and mechanics called in sick on Friday, halting a quarter of all services in the kingdom.
PAD - which despite its name is trying to bring down Samak's elected government - began its campaign at the end of May, just over three months after the coalition government was formed.
PAD protests helped lead to the 2006 coup that unseated Thaksin, and the entry into government of his ally Samak after elections in December has infuriated the country's old power elites in the military and palace.
They also object to Samak's plans to amend a constitution drafted and approved under military rule following the coup.
All I want now is to be home with my Shadow Hell Rider...
Friday, August 29, 2008
No Scrubs
Day 1 in Phuket was exactly what we expected. The sky was gloomy but thankfully, the rain stayed away except for some temporal showers. Immediately after we landed, Fongster and myself checked into some excellent spa treatment which started the whole holiday.
Day 2 was filled with massages and more massages. We even had to skip lunch as the back to back massages didn’t allow us to have a break. I tried everything from a wrap to an oily aromatherapy massage to the traditional Thai massage, with the exception to a scrub. My last experiences with scrubs were painful and I had to remind myself time and again not to fall into the trap of a spa package that includes scrubs of any sort. But all these might change and I’m very tempted to get myself a good scrub after all the epilating and waxing to achieve that super smooth effect. THAT is what I call, pampering myself. As I can almost predict, tomorrow is going to be filled with more massages.
An unexpected phone call came. It was Alcoholic Empress Dowager. Scheduled to fly in this evening to join us, she had to call to inform us of the bad news. All the flights to Phuket are now grounded. Flights on the way there had to turn back. The Phuket airport is officially close as the workers are allowed to join in the anti-government protest. That leaves Alkie ED with a 2D1N trip even if she is able to fly out of Singapore tomorrow morning. With the romantic dinner for 3 all planned for tomorrow, we might have to cancel all our activities and stick to more massages. I can only pray that Alkie ED can fly in first thing tomorrow morning at a discounted rate as it would be ridiculous for her to pay the full flight amount for a short sleepover. The thunderstorm that Fongster and I pray for is actually brewing right now and if anything sensible were to happen from now till tomorrow, the rioters should go home in amidst of this bad weather.
Fingers all crossed, the thing should end soon and we should be able to fly home on Sunday as scheduled.
Day 2 was filled with massages and more massages. We even had to skip lunch as the back to back massages didn’t allow us to have a break. I tried everything from a wrap to an oily aromatherapy massage to the traditional Thai massage, with the exception to a scrub. My last experiences with scrubs were painful and I had to remind myself time and again not to fall into the trap of a spa package that includes scrubs of any sort. But all these might change and I’m very tempted to get myself a good scrub after all the epilating and waxing to achieve that super smooth effect. THAT is what I call, pampering myself. As I can almost predict, tomorrow is going to be filled with more massages.
An unexpected phone call came. It was Alcoholic Empress Dowager. Scheduled to fly in this evening to join us, she had to call to inform us of the bad news. All the flights to Phuket are now grounded. Flights on the way there had to turn back. The Phuket airport is officially close as the workers are allowed to join in the anti-government protest. That leaves Alkie ED with a 2D1N trip even if she is able to fly out of Singapore tomorrow morning. With the romantic dinner for 3 all planned for tomorrow, we might have to cancel all our activities and stick to more massages. I can only pray that Alkie ED can fly in first thing tomorrow morning at a discounted rate as it would be ridiculous for her to pay the full flight amount for a short sleepover. The thunderstorm that Fongster and I pray for is actually brewing right now and if anything sensible were to happen from now till tomorrow, the rioters should go home in amidst of this bad weather.
Fingers all crossed, the thing should end soon and we should be able to fly home on Sunday as scheduled.
A Whole New World
Written on the way to Phuket 28 August 2008
Reluctant to blog on a new relationship for fear of jinxing it, I couldn’t care less any more. I just need to scream about how happy I’ve been over the past few days/weeks. Things didn’t quite go off on a smooth note. Things weren’t what I can ever expect. Says who that lightning never strikes twice on the same spot? I beg to differ. I have 2 radically different individual telling me how eaten by guilt that are and the backseat was where I really belong. Unlike the last time, I didn’t allow fate to take me where it wanted to. I didn’t want to go with the flow and be swept by the waves. Like Manuka said after everything closed, that I give my man the freedom to choose and decide and more often, that results in the other person walking further away.
Sitting in my mini Silkair economy class seat to Phuket which by the way, was planned less than 24 hours ago and here I am, hitting the sun, the sand and the sea. Only catch, it’s still monsoon season over in Phuket. It’s a break Alcoholic Empress Dowager, Fongster and I needed before we start our new jobs. Yes, all 3 of us are starting our new jobs very soon.
What I have left behind in Singapore this time is a man whom I know I can trust to love his car more than he can ever love anyone. The Shadow Hell Rider is someone I would never imagine myself to be with. First and foremost, I have never dated anyone younger than myself. Like most sound advice that I’ve heard, patience is a virtue that I must nurture. Meanwhile, there are a lot of sanding down, fender rolling, rebound damping adjustment to do before the ride gets comfortable. A willing party, I know I’m here to stay. It’s amazing and comforting to start noticing or realizing that the number of couples there are actually out there in our shoes. But the energy to walk on didn’t root here. It’s the sincerity and the absolute genuine personality that broke my defence. Like floodgates, once you open it, it’s hard to close it back. Not like I have any intentions to.
Let’s work on it and see how tomorrow is like. I know it can only be better.
Reluctant to blog on a new relationship for fear of jinxing it, I couldn’t care less any more. I just need to scream about how happy I’ve been over the past few days/weeks. Things didn’t quite go off on a smooth note. Things weren’t what I can ever expect. Says who that lightning never strikes twice on the same spot? I beg to differ. I have 2 radically different individual telling me how eaten by guilt that are and the backseat was where I really belong. Unlike the last time, I didn’t allow fate to take me where it wanted to. I didn’t want to go with the flow and be swept by the waves. Like Manuka said after everything closed, that I give my man the freedom to choose and decide and more often, that results in the other person walking further away.
Sitting in my mini Silkair economy class seat to Phuket which by the way, was planned less than 24 hours ago and here I am, hitting the sun, the sand and the sea. Only catch, it’s still monsoon season over in Phuket. It’s a break Alcoholic Empress Dowager, Fongster and I needed before we start our new jobs. Yes, all 3 of us are starting our new jobs very soon.
What I have left behind in Singapore this time is a man whom I know I can trust to love his car more than he can ever love anyone. The Shadow Hell Rider is someone I would never imagine myself to be with. First and foremost, I have never dated anyone younger than myself. Like most sound advice that I’ve heard, patience is a virtue that I must nurture. Meanwhile, there are a lot of sanding down, fender rolling, rebound damping adjustment to do before the ride gets comfortable. A willing party, I know I’m here to stay. It’s amazing and comforting to start noticing or realizing that the number of couples there are actually out there in our shoes. But the energy to walk on didn’t root here. It’s the sincerity and the absolute genuine personality that broke my defence. Like floodgates, once you open it, it’s hard to close it back. Not like I have any intentions to.
Let’s work on it and see how tomorrow is like. I know it can only be better.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Seeking Refuge
Back with a vengence...
Over the past weeks, I've been typing so much but published none of them. My life is undergoing another rollercoaster ride. I no longer have any courage to face the pain. For the first time, I found my face soaked in tears. Thankfully, I'm no longer doubting if I'm stuck in a bunch of lies. I'm threading my next step with my current step and by ensuring this one is stable, I have the confidence to walk down the very next.
The past weeks have been anything but peaceful. Although I should be resting my soul, things have been more turbulent than ever. I'm not complaining because I've been smiling more than ever. It's not exactly the best time to talk about things as they are changing before I could put my finger on to vaguely have a good sense of things.
Believing that tomorrow will be better, I push on...
For the benefit of those who don't understand, this song reminds me of my Grandma. And whenever things don't work out, I would always run back to the refuge she used to provide me. Now that she's gone, I could only stare at her face and hope life is good for her.
Here it is:
When I was younger, I was Grandma's favourite
She'll always leave the best for me
She'll bring me around and watch others
She kept telling me to study hard
So when I grow up, I would be better than Dad
At that time, nothing gets into my ears
What was Grandma actually talking about?
When I was older, I slowly understood her words
I'll always pout this in my heart
As things change, some are still as unforgettable
As time passes, I'll still think of you all the time
Grandma, where are you now?
I'm calling you, can you hear me?
Can you see my dedication and my success?
Can you hear me holler for you?
Grandma, how are you?
Are you well taken care of?
Hoping that the younger generations could also feel your love
And be your grandchild forever
Calling you... Ah Ma...
Over the past weeks, I've been typing so much but published none of them. My life is undergoing another rollercoaster ride. I no longer have any courage to face the pain. For the first time, I found my face soaked in tears. Thankfully, I'm no longer doubting if I'm stuck in a bunch of lies. I'm threading my next step with my current step and by ensuring this one is stable, I have the confidence to walk down the very next.
The past weeks have been anything but peaceful. Although I should be resting my soul, things have been more turbulent than ever. I'm not complaining because I've been smiling more than ever. It's not exactly the best time to talk about things as they are changing before I could put my finger on to vaguely have a good sense of things.
Believing that tomorrow will be better, I push on...
For the benefit of those who don't understand, this song reminds me of my Grandma. And whenever things don't work out, I would always run back to the refuge she used to provide me. Now that she's gone, I could only stare at her face and hope life is good for her.
Here it is:
When I was younger, I was Grandma's favourite
She'll always leave the best for me
She'll bring me around and watch others
She kept telling me to study hard
So when I grow up, I would be better than Dad
At that time, nothing gets into my ears
What was Grandma actually talking about?
When I was older, I slowly understood her words
I'll always pout this in my heart
As things change, some are still as unforgettable
As time passes, I'll still think of you all the time
Grandma, where are you now?
I'm calling you, can you hear me?
Can you see my dedication and my success?
Can you hear me holler for you?
Grandma, how are you?
Are you well taken care of?
Hoping that the younger generations could also feel your love
And be your grandchild forever
Calling you... Ah Ma...
Friday, August 15, 2008
The End Of The End
本以为这完整了爱的定义
那就乖乖的守护着你
Since law school, I have slowly understood procrastination is the thief of time but time and again, I push things to a later date. I was supposed to post this days ago but I needed to sort out my own thoughts before I can announce them. However I wasn't able to come to a mental closure until I remembered my blog, my outlet. This blog has it's miraculous healing effect on me and so the process begins...
我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
Was told maybe lines should be clearly drawn. Instead of drawing lines, I got snapped out of my daze which I should have done so very long ago. Believing in what may seem like the integrity of a person and hope that God will have the best for me and be fair to the amount of love in the output system, I stood there in what I believe to be a rather strong stance. Strong winds blew, water flooded the area and emotions gushed, I remained unmoved. Never felt any stronger in my life, my refusal to waver eventually caused much pain.
Throughout the months, I have forbidden myself to shed a single drop of tear because I know everything will be fine or rather, I was told so and I believed in the person who told me so. I suppose it is not wrong, everything is indeed fine. Just that the level of expectations fell far below the satisfactory mark. What happened to great expectations? Great expectations has led to bruised heart, sore love and swollen eyes. I have finally allowed myself to cry. The sea carried it's therapeutic effect and I threw it all back to the sea. What is yours will be yours and the opposite holds equivalent weight.
If it's a broken part, replace it
But, if it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it
And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your own name
And go your own way
And everything will be fine
Everything will be fine
Everything is over and I've packed it all up. Not looking back is a step forward to set myself to keep walking be it for the better or for worse. Even at this point in time, I still believe the time we spent were genuine and there weren't lies. Time just wasn't right and we were not meant to be. I should find my life ahead of me and I know I will get there. The car ride to no where after Christmas lunch has become a piece of the memory that will remain beautiful and kept in bona fide. I have never once asked, "why would you want to hurt me?" but right now, the question lingers. A question I'll never have an answer to.
幾多愛歌給我唱 還是勉強
台前如何發亮 難及給最愛在耳邊
低聲溫柔地唱
人质在这一刻得到释放
相爱的纯粹落得如此下场
你满意吗我们都别说谎
其實心裡最大理想 跟他歸家為他唱
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Not Quite The Time Of My Life
One day, I will be singing this song to celebrate that time of my life. Not quite here yet but I believe this day will come. I thought that day was in January this year, I couldn't be more wrong but part of me still believe that I'm not. Well, I should just stop talking about it. Otherwise, I'd be accused of whining and although this is my blog, my space, we all can't stop other people from talking can we? Worst of all, when accused of a compromise of your very own integrity, should one just walk off or confront of what the truth may be. Call me a wuss, I'm walking away. I'm walking away to see a brighter day and for those who believed in me, my character & personality, I will emerge the same person, not any better nor any worse. Some will try to stir the ink to make the water clearer but I'm sorry, this will never happen because since day 1, I wasn't the one who put the ink in, you did. If you think this is cryptic, think again. I'm as straightforward as you can get for a person and I am as direct as one can get based on my last few lines.
Don't piss me any further...
I’ve been waiting for my dreams
To turn into something
I could believe in
And looking for that
Magic rainbow
On the horizon
I couldn’t see it
Until I let go
Gave into love and watched all the bitterness burn
Now I’m coming alive
Body and soul
And feelin’ my world start to turn
And I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time
To be more than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life
Holding onto things that vanished
Into the air
Left me in pieces
But now I’m rising from the ashes
Finding my wings
And all that I needed
Was there all along
Within my reach
As close as the beat of my heart
and I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life
And I’m out on the edge of forever
Ready to run
I’m keeping my feet on the ground
My arms open wide
My face to the sun
I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
This is the time
This is the time of my life.
This is the time of my life.
Don't piss me any further...
I’ve been waiting for my dreams
To turn into something
I could believe in
And looking for that
Magic rainbow
On the horizon
I couldn’t see it
Until I let go
Gave into love and watched all the bitterness burn
Now I’m coming alive
Body and soul
And feelin’ my world start to turn
And I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time
To be more than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life
Holding onto things that vanished
Into the air
Left me in pieces
But now I’m rising from the ashes
Finding my wings
And all that I needed
Was there all along
Within my reach
As close as the beat of my heart
and I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life
And I’m out on the edge of forever
Ready to run
I’m keeping my feet on the ground
My arms open wide
My face to the sun
I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
This is the time
This is the time of my life.
This is the time of my life.
Monday, August 04, 2008
Spectator Trackie
Sitting here looking at someone else wash my car is such a luxury. I'm at a priceless carwash today watching Kokoro getting pampered down to its engine bay. Life is goooood.
As a preview, the topic today to catch up on lost time would be mainly on the small accident that I got into and the two Track Days that I was there as a spectator.
Let's start with the track days...
As Kokoro wasn't track ready, being in stock condition, I decided at the very last minute to hitch a ride up to Sepang and bring my helmet along just to grab taxi-rides. And that was exactly what I did...
The very first one was on the 28th July and it was a joint track day with the Porsche Club. The cup cars were there deafening my ears with their super duper loud exhaust. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. To see them fly from one end to another and to be able to hear the up and down shifts, was sheer pleasure I'm sure many of you petrol heads out there can relate to. It was an eye opener to see Superman Mechanic aka BVO's A&E at work on 55's red devil. Although it was running on one eye with one of the headlights out, that machine was still zooming past me at what I choose to believe to be supersonic. And he was LOUD... Totally dig his exhaust. After taking a ride in an E46 M3, I felt so sick, I couldn't bring myself to get anymore rides from the other cars. A huge disappointment but for my first experience, it was awesome.
The second one was much better knowing exactly what to expect, I held tight to the handles reducing as much involuntary roll as possible and I remembered to actually breathe. Took 2 rides - One with one of the fastest cars on track that day and the other in Shameless' little monster. He was on semi-slicks and clocked his personal best so that only went to show - I'm not THAT heavy after all. Geez... Benchmarc did exceptionally well in his twin turbos considering it was his virgin Track Day. Impressive... Got to see many GTis that day and when Kokoro grows up, Kokoro wants to be like them as well. Kokoro looks up to the CW King of GTi.
The accident at Bukit Batok is another whole new episode that I'm too lazy to paint out the picture. Shall we pencil this in for tomorrow?
As a preview, the topic today to catch up on lost time would be mainly on the small accident that I got into and the two Track Days that I was there as a spectator.
Let's start with the track days...
As Kokoro wasn't track ready, being in stock condition, I decided at the very last minute to hitch a ride up to Sepang and bring my helmet along just to grab taxi-rides. And that was exactly what I did...
The very first one was on the 28th July and it was a joint track day with the Porsche Club. The cup cars were there deafening my ears with their super duper loud exhaust. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. To see them fly from one end to another and to be able to hear the up and down shifts, was sheer pleasure I'm sure many of you petrol heads out there can relate to. It was an eye opener to see Superman Mechanic aka BVO's A&E at work on 55's red devil. Although it was running on one eye with one of the headlights out, that machine was still zooming past me at what I choose to believe to be supersonic. And he was LOUD... Totally dig his exhaust. After taking a ride in an E46 M3, I felt so sick, I couldn't bring myself to get anymore rides from the other cars. A huge disappointment but for my first experience, it was awesome.
The second one was much better knowing exactly what to expect, I held tight to the handles reducing as much involuntary roll as possible and I remembered to actually breathe. Took 2 rides - One with one of the fastest cars on track that day and the other in Shameless' little monster. He was on semi-slicks and clocked his personal best so that only went to show - I'm not THAT heavy after all. Geez... Benchmarc did exceptionally well in his twin turbos considering it was his virgin Track Day. Impressive... Got to see many GTis that day and when Kokoro grows up, Kokoro wants to be like them as well. Kokoro looks up to the CW King of GTi.
The accident at Bukit Batok is another whole new episode that I'm too lazy to paint out the picture. Shall we pencil this in for tomorrow?
Thursday, July 31, 2008
A NEW Comment on a November 2007 Article
Before I embark on my next posts on my Track Day today, let me just clarify something. I received a comment today on a post dated November in 2007. Please click HERE for a good read. To give people who are going to read this article with a short forenote:
- This article was written in November 2007. I have since moved on from wanting to buy a bimmer to actually having bought a Volkswagen. They are still German but for totally different reasons.
- If I have not made it clear enough, it wasn't the blue, white and black logo that attracted me but it was the sheer handling of the car. BMWs being RWD with 50-50 weight distribution and having built award winning 4 and 6 potters, the engines are gems from years of R&D. Read the article again, I did NOT say Rex = Beng and Bimmers not. I said Rex does have a beng image/factor which is objectively objective. Ask any tom, dick, harry on the street...
- As for your newly rich, crass over class and your interpretation of HDB, you're merely looking down on people living in HDB flats and think that they are crass. Mind you, I grew up with proper upbringing and education, crass is last on the list. The fact that you actually said what you did, you do know crass to a great extent. Go ahead and dwell in your own tiny world.
- Association of BMWs owners and snobs? Read my article carefully. There are STILL people out there and I HAVE personally met and spoken to these people. It may be in the 70s and 80s but these people aren't dead yet! So poor people like you walk to Orchard. Congratulations on your wealth that you can flaunt off and call yourself poor. You obviously have not worked a single day in your life to know how hard it is to earn your own keeps and be able to afford your own ride. I may not drive a very fancy car but I have pride and I'm glad to say I earned every cent of it myself. Of course, I'm not poor enough to pay the whole sum and I'm effectively 100k in debt, paying the bank off in installments for the next 10 years.
Now I have no mood to talk about my Track Day. Have the guts to leave your name if you have the intentions to leave such sarcastic remarks. Wuss!
- This article was written in November 2007. I have since moved on from wanting to buy a bimmer to actually having bought a Volkswagen. They are still German but for totally different reasons.
- If I have not made it clear enough, it wasn't the blue, white and black logo that attracted me but it was the sheer handling of the car. BMWs being RWD with 50-50 weight distribution and having built award winning 4 and 6 potters, the engines are gems from years of R&D. Read the article again, I did NOT say Rex = Beng and Bimmers not. I said Rex does have a beng image/factor which is objectively objective. Ask any tom, dick, harry on the street...
- As for your newly rich, crass over class and your interpretation of HDB, you're merely looking down on people living in HDB flats and think that they are crass. Mind you, I grew up with proper upbringing and education, crass is last on the list. The fact that you actually said what you did, you do know crass to a great extent. Go ahead and dwell in your own tiny world.
- Association of BMWs owners and snobs? Read my article carefully. There are STILL people out there and I HAVE personally met and spoken to these people. It may be in the 70s and 80s but these people aren't dead yet! So poor people like you walk to Orchard. Congratulations on your wealth that you can flaunt off and call yourself poor. You obviously have not worked a single day in your life to know how hard it is to earn your own keeps and be able to afford your own ride. I may not drive a very fancy car but I have pride and I'm glad to say I earned every cent of it myself. Of course, I'm not poor enough to pay the whole sum and I'm effectively 100k in debt, paying the bank off in installments for the next 10 years.
Now I have no mood to talk about my Track Day. Have the guts to leave your name if you have the intentions to leave such sarcastic remarks. Wuss!
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
你好吗
This will be a super short and fast post. Yes, come call it is a quickie.
Anyway, Kokoro met with its first accident yesterday. It was a slight brush and all it needed was some cosmetic surgery. Details would be up soon but right now, I need sufficient sleep for my next track day kaypohing around.
温柔的时间抚平我们的亏欠
过几天过几年伤会好一点
多久没见面孩子气有没有变
还记得我们从前笑的那么甜
baby 我想起你你有了他
是否依然为了爱变的很傻
我想起你你有一个他
好久都没说的话你好吗
温柔的缠绵我也放下了依恋
过几天过几年伤会好一点
我收着照片安静在盒子里面
回忆是你我剩下唯一的关联
baby 我想起你你有了他
是否依然为了爱变的很傻
我想起你你有一个他
好久都没说的话你好吗
问候是我对你好想说出的话
现在你过的好吗
我想起你你有了他
是否依然为了爱变的很傻
我想起你你有一个他
好久都没说的话你好吗
A specific hug was left at lost & found...
Anyway, Kokoro met with its first accident yesterday. It was a slight brush and all it needed was some cosmetic surgery. Details would be up soon but right now, I need sufficient sleep for my next track day kaypohing around.
温柔的时间抚平我们的亏欠
过几天过几年伤会好一点
多久没见面孩子气有没有变
还记得我们从前笑的那么甜
baby 我想起你你有了他
是否依然为了爱变的很傻
我想起你你有一个他
好久都没说的话你好吗
温柔的缠绵我也放下了依恋
过几天过几年伤会好一点
我收着照片安静在盒子里面
回忆是你我剩下唯一的关联
baby 我想起你你有了他
是否依然为了爱变的很傻
我想起你你有一个他
好久都没说的话你好吗
问候是我对你好想说出的话
现在你过的好吗
我想起你你有了他
是否依然为了爱变的很傻
我想起你你有一个他
好久都没说的话你好吗
A specific hug was left at lost & found...
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
My First Track Day
I wasn't crazy enough to track Kokoro as yet but it was truly an experience. Now I want more for my Kokoro...
Back to Track Day, I taxied my way up just to have a taste on how the convoy would be like up and down so that I have enough courage to bring Kokoro up on Thursday. Highly likely...
Upon reaching there, people started to unpack and unload. It was just so much fun even to watch. Very soon, we heard the Porky Cup Car's exhaust blasting away, almost deafening but definitely sweet. You could hear exactly when the car downshifts from the pit itself! No pictures but there will be another one on Thursday. Stay tuned.
Back to Track Day, I taxied my way up just to have a taste on how the convoy would be like up and down so that I have enough courage to bring Kokoro up on Thursday. Highly likely...
Upon reaching there, people started to unpack and unload. It was just so much fun even to watch. Very soon, we heard the Porky Cup Car's exhaust blasting away, almost deafening but definitely sweet. You could hear exactly when the car downshifts from the pit itself! No pictures but there will be another one on Thursday. Stay tuned.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Clean White Sheet Of Fabric
Have been refraining myself from posting too emotional stuffs and living in an illusion that my life is not that messed up. Unfortunately, I can't deny myself any further. I'm allowing myself to be entertained and mesmerised for that 20-30mins every now and then when the honey drips and life have to revert to it's normal form after that. I call it reality. I could of course force myself to stay away but doing so would practically kill me. Let me live in my dream and hopefully one day, dreams do come true.
Would you draw the details on our fabric with me? The clear, white sheet of fabric that never came...
Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads and
Breaking yourself up
If it's a broken part, replace it
But, if it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it
And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your own name
And go your own way
And everything will be fine
Everything will be fine
Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
And everything, everything will be fine
Everything
Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?
Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.
Yeah everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything
Hold your own
And know your name
And go your own way
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling? (Go your own way)
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic (Go your own way)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine?
Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own, know your name)
Hell no reason go on and scream
If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing
Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold
Would you draw the details on our fabric with me? The clear, white sheet of fabric that never came...
Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads and
Breaking yourself up
If it's a broken part, replace it
But, if it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it
And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your own name
And go your own way
And everything will be fine
Everything will be fine
Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
And everything, everything will be fine
Everything
Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?
Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.
Yeah everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything
Hold your own
And know your name
And go your own way
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling? (Go your own way)
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic (Go your own way)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine?
Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own, know your name)
Hell no reason go on and scream
If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing
Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold
Friday, July 25, 2008
What's That Smell? Something's Burning... My Pocket!
If you're a road idiot like myself, you will need a navigation system. I know once upon a time, we used to have road directories in the car and some of you may still have them. There's absolutely nothing wrong with them, different strokes for different folks. This is just very positive feedback from me, one unique user. Had it not been the GPS, I might have wasted alot more petrol even though it doesn't always give me the best route. Take for example, when there's a choice for me to head home either via the AYE, ECP route which is my preferred choice, it'd always chow the CTE, PIE. And everytime I pass by Ang Mo Kio, my ERP just beeps non stop. Yes, it led me to a heavily congested road and I even have to pay the government for it. However, it will always bring me to where I need to be eventually. I thank God everyday for technology.
Over the last few days, I'm been contemplating making a trip. A backpacking trip. I can imagine some jaws dropping just about NOW. You can imagine me bringing my credit card along and swiping my way into a swanky hotel after 2 days. Well, even 48 hours seem a tad too long for me roughing it out. Truth it, I'd be happy to do it. To shock the skeptics even further, I had in mind to do seasonal jokes like plucking apples, shearing sheeps, providing my 3 lbs of brute strength to vineyards. And yes, paying my way just to do the jobs of $10 an hour. I see it as a pure life learning process, a once in a lifetime priceless experience. I really hope I can find something...
Being a boy trapped in a girl's body, I have quite an array of interests and most of them are really expensive to upkeep. Apart from a usual girl's fetish for bags and shoes, I love cars and anything that makes it go faster and look better. That alone is very damaging for teh bank account. As of today, I have so much in my pipeline I want to do to Kokoro (my car's not so masculine name), I think I'll have to work alot harder come October.
Right now, I hope I'll have excess to play with cameras. I really love the Canon 40D and I'll get it when my bank account eventually grows. Right now, the suspension, anti-roll bars, the exhaust, the chip... is at the top of my priority list. Let me speak to Santa Claus and see what he can do. He's got now till December to save up...
Over the last few days, I'm been contemplating making a trip. A backpacking trip. I can imagine some jaws dropping just about NOW. You can imagine me bringing my credit card along and swiping my way into a swanky hotel after 2 days. Well, even 48 hours seem a tad too long for me roughing it out. Truth it, I'd be happy to do it. To shock the skeptics even further, I had in mind to do seasonal jokes like plucking apples, shearing sheeps, providing my 3 lbs of brute strength to vineyards. And yes, paying my way just to do the jobs of $10 an hour. I see it as a pure life learning process, a once in a lifetime priceless experience. I really hope I can find something...
Being a boy trapped in a girl's body, I have quite an array of interests and most of them are really expensive to upkeep. Apart from a usual girl's fetish for bags and shoes, I love cars and anything that makes it go faster and look better. That alone is very damaging for teh bank account. As of today, I have so much in my pipeline I want to do to Kokoro (my car's not so masculine name), I think I'll have to work alot harder come October.
Right now, I hope I'll have excess to play with cameras. I really love the Canon 40D and I'll get it when my bank account eventually grows. Right now, the suspension, anti-roll bars, the exhaust, the chip... is at the top of my priority list. Let me speak to Santa Claus and see what he can do. He's got now till December to save up...
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Brief Movie Reviews
Part of the grand plan to fill up my 3 months of not doing anything is to lunch with different people everyday. The laughs and jokes shared during lunches is something I should be thankful for as long as I don't choke. To keep my readers entertained since I've ran out of daily ramblings and grumbles, I'll have a wider range of what-not to talk about. Come to think of it, haven't I been doing this all along... Getting senile for spending too much time home.
Caught Dark Knight at Gold Class over the weekend. It was kinda cool as we had enough people to book an entire cinema. Come to think of it, 24 seats wasn't hard to fill. No doubt, it was fun to have everyone in the cinema people you know rather well. Doing silly things which you wouldn't usually do in the other theatres were inevitable. As for the movie, I was glad that they managed to portray Batman for who Batman really is and not a superhero. Although not my favourite genre of movie, I enjoyed it tremendously. A good 2.5hours spent in the cinema.
Today, managed to catch "10 promises to my Dog". Not a usual nor popular vote among my friends. All in all, the graphics were rather fake BUT the plot was worth all the while. As a dog lover, I was able to empathise with the lead character. After I got home, I gave my dog a big fat hug and played with him. It has always been easy for me to advocate the fact that our dogs only have us when we have our lives. Doing it myself is a totally different story. With busy work schedules and frantically trying to squeeze the remaining of life into my life, I have barely any time with Tiger. Day after day, he's always there waiting for my return and even when I'm out of the country, he'll still hide in my room whenever there's a thunderstorm. If you love dogs like I do, grab the DVD since I reckon it should be off the charts pretty darn soon.
Caught Dark Knight at Gold Class over the weekend. It was kinda cool as we had enough people to book an entire cinema. Come to think of it, 24 seats wasn't hard to fill. No doubt, it was fun to have everyone in the cinema people you know rather well. Doing silly things which you wouldn't usually do in the other theatres were inevitable. As for the movie, I was glad that they managed to portray Batman for who Batman really is and not a superhero. Although not my favourite genre of movie, I enjoyed it tremendously. A good 2.5hours spent in the cinema.
Today, managed to catch "10 promises to my Dog". Not a usual nor popular vote among my friends. All in all, the graphics were rather fake BUT the plot was worth all the while. As a dog lover, I was able to empathise with the lead character. After I got home, I gave my dog a big fat hug and played with him. It has always been easy for me to advocate the fact that our dogs only have us when we have our lives. Doing it myself is a totally different story. With busy work schedules and frantically trying to squeeze the remaining of life into my life, I have barely any time with Tiger. Day after day, he's always there waiting for my return and even when I'm out of the country, he'll still hide in my room whenever there's a thunderstorm. If you love dogs like I do, grab the DVD since I reckon it should be off the charts pretty darn soon.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
No Commercial Break
So much for having nothing to do, I should have time to blog more often but truth is, I'm spending much lesser time in front of the computer and more burning some petrol.
Zhoos is now back in Singapore. His Dad passed away last week from a heart attack. I knew his Dad as a very nice man and good father. Over the years, I've always told Zhoos how wonderful his Dad was but he doesn't seem to see it. Like everything else in life, when we're in it, we just don't see how lucky we all are. I started to look at everything in another light and began to view my folks differently. As much as Mom drives me nuts at times, I'm happy she's still around and still grumbles, only cuz she cares.
Finally collected my belongings from the office yesterday. I didn't even had the chance to step into the office for one last look but that was expected and I reckon good for a non-emotional separation. Having been here for a little more than 2 years, I left feeling totally unappreciated for the work I've put in for 2 years. It is selfish to blurt out something like this as I think Comedy Boss has put in alot of effort to keep my unscathed. But from the company, in my perspective, just seems to be doing things in absolutely mala fides. I can't express how disappointed I am.
Spending these few days running from garage to garage just irritates the hell out of me. In a good way though... I got reminded of how much I need to do to Kokoro and voluntarily and knowingly got myself poisoned. The irony is that it takes about 3 more months to get my engine cranking again and start firing up for a brand new career. I know I will get there...
"La teh" session with The Fat Club was enjoyable as usual. And nothing out of the norm, the focus of night was on me. I just made it sound glamourous when in actual fact, it was pain, bitter sweet sort of pain (if that is how I can describe it). Let's just say I was the target of jokes and the spotlight never quite left me with occasional commercial break on "Psyduck's Chick". The jokes last night got a bit more to the counseling session type of awkward situation. I was caught defending myself for the silly decisions I make and possibly bad judgement of character. I knew they could jolly well be right. At one point, I wanted to break down and wail but the stubborn me wanted them to know that I know what I doing and hopefully my choice isn't wrong. Knowing exactly why they are convincing me otherwise, I was fending off all the protection and love they were trying to surround me with. I almost got angry with them for not seeing what I'm seeing. It is not possible to prove a point but to hang on to what I genuinely believe in and knowing that if I have to fall real bad one day, I will have several chubby shoulders to lay my head on. All in all, I know they care a shitload for me. At the same time, I also hope that they can give me the necessary blessings I need to tide over this crazy faith and belief.
Zhoos is now back in Singapore. His Dad passed away last week from a heart attack. I knew his Dad as a very nice man and good father. Over the years, I've always told Zhoos how wonderful his Dad was but he doesn't seem to see it. Like everything else in life, when we're in it, we just don't see how lucky we all are. I started to look at everything in another light and began to view my folks differently. As much as Mom drives me nuts at times, I'm happy she's still around and still grumbles, only cuz she cares.
Finally collected my belongings from the office yesterday. I didn't even had the chance to step into the office for one last look but that was expected and I reckon good for a non-emotional separation. Having been here for a little more than 2 years, I left feeling totally unappreciated for the work I've put in for 2 years. It is selfish to blurt out something like this as I think Comedy Boss has put in alot of effort to keep my unscathed. But from the company, in my perspective, just seems to be doing things in absolutely mala fides. I can't express how disappointed I am.
Spending these few days running from garage to garage just irritates the hell out of me. In a good way though... I got reminded of how much I need to do to Kokoro and voluntarily and knowingly got myself poisoned. The irony is that it takes about 3 more months to get my engine cranking again and start firing up for a brand new career. I know I will get there...
"La teh" session with The Fat Club was enjoyable as usual. And nothing out of the norm, the focus of night was on me. I just made it sound glamourous when in actual fact, it was pain, bitter sweet sort of pain (if that is how I can describe it). Let's just say I was the target of jokes and the spotlight never quite left me with occasional commercial break on "Psyduck's Chick". The jokes last night got a bit more to the counseling session type of awkward situation. I was caught defending myself for the silly decisions I make and possibly bad judgement of character. I knew they could jolly well be right. At one point, I wanted to break down and wail but the stubborn me wanted them to know that I know what I doing and hopefully my choice isn't wrong. Knowing exactly why they are convincing me otherwise, I was fending off all the protection and love they were trying to surround me with. I almost got angry with them for not seeing what I'm seeing. It is not possible to prove a point but to hang on to what I genuinely believe in and knowing that if I have to fall real bad one day, I will have several chubby shoulders to lay my head on. All in all, I know they care a shitload for me. At the same time, I also hope that they can give me the necessary blessings I need to tide over this crazy faith and belief.
Monday, July 14, 2008
To Rest Is To Take A Further Journey
After countless pairs of shoes, bags and bags of clothes, guilty amount of food, I'm finally broke with a frightening credit card bill waiting for me at home. I am a now happy camper. Almost towards the end of my retreat, just as I thought I'm ready to go back and fight a war, my energy wouldn't have a home till early October. Meanwhile, I shall stare at my wall and hope to get some form of response. More holidays await so ammunitions would have to be sensibly allocated to tide me over the next few months. Clever amortisation will guarantee a tight but reasonably comfortable quarter of doing absolutely nothing at all. After this few months, you will see very little of me or my writings. My soul would be loaned to what people deem as career and where I have my undivided passion for what I think I do best and will continue to do better.
Krispy Kreme anyone?
I miss my Kokoro!!!
Krispy Kreme anyone?
I miss my Kokoro!!!
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Random Useless Thoughts
Been walking, eating, shopping, buying, looking non-stop. Was so tired last night, I was totally concussed. Haven't had that happening to me in ages. Did some thinking as I sat here a moment ago focusing on surfing Facebook within the 1 hour internet usage I paid for. As we grow older by the day, from our younger days of living on love and believing love works wonder and constantly feeling the need to feel in love, we start to age and as the aging process takes place, we begin to feel rather jaded and slowly losing the understanding of what love really is.
When I met Urban Legend months ago, I thought I found the one. In fact, I still do. The feel is still the same but circumstances aren't. I started to not believe in life and what it can give anymore. I thought I could be irresponsible to myself and not care about things anymore. No matter what I did, I couldn't walk too far away nor ignore what others deem as harmful to me. I kept walking nearer and nearer to danger. Reluctant to get really hurt, I hide. Beneath the lively exterior, lies bags of tears waiting to be released.
Underlying every of my action is the urge to tell you how much you mean to me and what is it that I can actually do to make things right? I should just learn to walk away...
Right now, I should just be happy that Krispy Kreme is about 50 steps away from me.
When I met Urban Legend months ago, I thought I found the one. In fact, I still do. The feel is still the same but circumstances aren't. I started to not believe in life and what it can give anymore. I thought I could be irresponsible to myself and not care about things anymore. No matter what I did, I couldn't walk too far away nor ignore what others deem as harmful to me. I kept walking nearer and nearer to danger. Reluctant to get really hurt, I hide. Beneath the lively exterior, lies bags of tears waiting to be released.
Underlying every of my action is the urge to tell you how much you mean to me and what is it that I can actually do to make things right? I should just learn to walk away...
Right now, I should just be happy that Krispy Kreme is about 50 steps away from me.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Blank Thoughts, Blank Life
Current announcements via the PA system is still not asking me to board my flight. In dire need of sleep, I'm staring blankly into thin air in hope of catching some sleep during the 4 hour flight. In our life, we often do things that doesn't quite flush with our intentions and sometimes, we just play with fire till we burn our fingers. Good thing being, well, burning the tip of the fingernails. Things could have been worse but I'm not giving myself an easier time. I only have myself to blame all in the name of fun.
Got a shocking letter yesterday and finally faced up to reality that this world is just too mercenary. When you have lost your value to people, be prepared to be treated like trash and without the least bit of respect that you would expect to command. To be fair, I began with hoping for the best and since this is not the worst, I should be counting my blessings.I suppose there's a reason for everything but this means, I'll just be poor for the next 6 months or so. Gives me all the more reasons to keep pushing myself to scale greater limits. Allowing myself to take my own sweet time is no longer an option, it is deemed obsolete. And with the impending excessive rest, I will only emerge tougher.
Time to board...
Got a shocking letter yesterday and finally faced up to reality that this world is just too mercenary. When you have lost your value to people, be prepared to be treated like trash and without the least bit of respect that you would expect to command. To be fair, I began with hoping for the best and since this is not the worst, I should be counting my blessings.I suppose there's a reason for everything but this means, I'll just be poor for the next 6 months or so. Gives me all the more reasons to keep pushing myself to scale greater limits. Allowing myself to take my own sweet time is no longer an option, it is deemed obsolete. And with the impending excessive rest, I will only emerge tougher.
Time to board...
Friday, July 11, 2008
Lucky... Am I? *shrug
The soft spot I have for you doesn't seem to go away. I don't quite know if I ever want it or for myself to go away. By now, I should be furiously avoiding and retaliating, I am not. All I find myself doing is to accept what come may. Never have I felt so vulnerable, waiting for pain to invade. The refusal to believe that you may never be mine hasn't quite hit home. Being all alone believing in myself and of course, the belief to believe in you doesn't quite go down very well with everyone else. Most thinks I'm stupid and I should be shaken out of the daze. I think have faith. God told me just have faith and he'll take care of everything. I trust that I will breeze through the blades without getting cut. I can only refuse to wake up and convince myself that I'm invincible. The tears aren't helping... All I want is for you to step into the picture you drew for me and complete it. Maybe I should just wake up from this dream or was it a nightmare?
Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
More so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
More so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Fossil At Work. Not.
It's been a couple of days of rotting at home. Well, I won't say rot since I've been shuttling between the garage to mahjong games to watching the boys play futsal. It's been a good few days of not doing anything but I can't take this any longer. Leaving me floating in the air not knowing if I should not give a damn on something that is greyishly invalid or be really worried that I'll get into some form of tug of war. Haven't seen Silver for ages and it's been just a few weeks, this man is totally changed. I've never seen him so prudent and I must say it is a pleasant change. Being totally inspired to plan for my retirement life and when I plan for it to start. He also gave me to encouragement to work hard enough so that I can build some form of passive income. Let's plan... How about my first million by 30? GO!!!
Will be leaving for Hong Kong around this time tomorrow. It's the rainy season but this is not gonna deter me. I needed a break badly and Ex-Sir's Sir wanted to just get away. Perfect and off we go, planned just less than a fortnight ago. I just can't wait for Tokyo...
你还记得吗记忆的炎夏
散落在风中的已蒸发
喧哗的都已沙哑
没结果的花未完成的牵挂
我们学会许多说法
来掩饰不碰的伤疤
因为我会想起你
我害怕面对自己
我的意志总被寂寞吞食
因为你总会提醒
过去总不会过去
有种真爱不是我的
假如我不曾爱你
我不会失去自己
想念的刺钉住我的位置
因为你总会提醒
尽管我得到世界
有些幸福不是我的
你还记得吗记忆的炎夏
我终于没选择的分岔
最后又有谁到达
Will be leaving for Hong Kong around this time tomorrow. It's the rainy season but this is not gonna deter me. I needed a break badly and Ex-Sir's Sir wanted to just get away. Perfect and off we go, planned just less than a fortnight ago. I just can't wait for Tokyo...
你还记得吗记忆的炎夏
散落在风中的已蒸发
喧哗的都已沙哑
没结果的花未完成的牵挂
我们学会许多说法
来掩饰不碰的伤疤
因为我会想起你
我害怕面对自己
我的意志总被寂寞吞食
因为你总会提醒
过去总不会过去
有种真爱不是我的
假如我不曾爱你
我不会失去自己
想念的刺钉住我的位置
因为你总会提醒
尽管我得到世界
有些幸福不是我的
你还记得吗记忆的炎夏
我终于没选择的分岔
最后又有谁到达
Monday, July 07, 2008
Life's Jigsaws
Had a real bad fall from wakeboarding yesterday. It wasn’t so bad that my contacts fell out but when I hit the water, it felt as if someone slapped my face real hard and instantly, I knew I was going to get whip lashed. True enough, I can barely move my head today. Although the pain is bordering on my threshold, I am a real happy girl. I had bigger air yesterday. With my heels dug in, great efforts put in not to jerk my body and keeping my handles low, I had higher jumps though not far enough for my 2 wake but I believe if I get the whole “riding up” smoothly, I don’t have to be bothered how “far” I was jumping. Besides, with the right basics, I know I’ll get there so for now, it’s just a matter of time. Just like everything else in life, once you can get your principles and directions in line, the others will fit themselves in nicely like jigsaws.
My cousin’s little celebration for his second ROM was totally following family tradition – Bordering disastrous. As usual, the young people had the good fun – Food, beer, kids running around, amusing you.
Side anecdote – Little Javier, my nephew, said something that really amused me.
Snugloft: When’s your birthday?
Javier: 10th November
Snugloft: Which year?
Javier: Every year!
We have heard this every year joke too many times but coming from an 8 year old and the fact that it was instantaneous, cracked everyone present up.
Another conversation I heard between Javier and Shermen (my other nephew) when someone asked where Javier’s Mom was.
Shermen: Javier’s mommy working at the airport.
Javier: Not airport, she works on the plane.
Shermen: She went to the airport yesterday to work.
Javier: My Mommy went to the airport but she works ON THE PLANE.
Shermen: No! Airport!
Javier: (Sigh!) Children just don’t understand.
Haha… Too funny!
Back to the little party, apparently Golden Mushroom Auntie just didn’t get it that you have to let the kids do whatever they want. My cousin is in his 30s and this is second marriage. She was throwing tantrums in front of the guests and said that she was not being respected since my cousin didn’t invite more relatives from “our” side. I feel that we should just give him all our blessings and hope he lives happily ever after and not creating more problems for him. After watching the entire drama, I was glad my parents are rather open and let me do whatever I wanted. They have never quite interfered in my decision making processes. Though they’ve been bugging me on certain things and how certain legends went silent. While believing in what I believe in which at this point no one apart from myself knows that for a fact, I didn’t want them to question my actions nor decisions in anyway (not that they would but I just don’t like the hassle). So I avoided potential questionings. I don’t like the “see I told you” talks but I’d rather shut them up with real actions. When things are there, they are there.
Having a live-in maid can be inconvenient but let me tell you, my unique situation has been God sent. During this period when I’m all busy and ready to fire off the rocket, my part-time helper needed a place to stay. Her current employer doesn’t have a place for them to stay. Together with her friend, I now have 2 live-in helpers. Apart from the weekly thorough cleaning up they do for us, they still pack bit by bit around the house. Half my wardrobe looks like it’s been through war since the other half looks incredibly neat. The contrast is just like heaven and hell. My room is still a bit of a hell hole right now but I’m sure it’ll be better very soon. Taking a day off to pack my own room will help them keep it organized in future.
With the “deed” done on Friday, I will very soon have some time to pack up my room before I embark on my new journey. This is going to be a tough journey as I’ll be all on myself but with enough determination and hunger to spur me on, I know I will be able to do it. I don’t believe in spoonfeeding where you create a creature who leeches on to wherever that gives food. I’m starting to feel like a leech so I think it’s time I gain some independence and feel how rough outside world can be and grow up accordingly. My plans are to grow out of proportions, out of my shell and surprise everyone else. I will do it and I know I can. Now, I have to bring myself to start doing it.
My cousin’s little celebration for his second ROM was totally following family tradition – Bordering disastrous. As usual, the young people had the good fun – Food, beer, kids running around, amusing you.
Side anecdote – Little Javier, my nephew, said something that really amused me.
Snugloft: When’s your birthday?
Javier: 10th November
Snugloft: Which year?
Javier: Every year!
We have heard this every year joke too many times but coming from an 8 year old and the fact that it was instantaneous, cracked everyone present up.
Another conversation I heard between Javier and Shermen (my other nephew) when someone asked where Javier’s Mom was.
Shermen: Javier’s mommy working at the airport.
Javier: Not airport, she works on the plane.
Shermen: She went to the airport yesterday to work.
Javier: My Mommy went to the airport but she works ON THE PLANE.
Shermen: No! Airport!
Javier: (Sigh!) Children just don’t understand.
Haha… Too funny!
Back to the little party, apparently Golden Mushroom Auntie just didn’t get it that you have to let the kids do whatever they want. My cousin is in his 30s and this is second marriage. She was throwing tantrums in front of the guests and said that she was not being respected since my cousin didn’t invite more relatives from “our” side. I feel that we should just give him all our blessings and hope he lives happily ever after and not creating more problems for him. After watching the entire drama, I was glad my parents are rather open and let me do whatever I wanted. They have never quite interfered in my decision making processes. Though they’ve been bugging me on certain things and how certain legends went silent. While believing in what I believe in which at this point no one apart from myself knows that for a fact, I didn’t want them to question my actions nor decisions in anyway (not that they would but I just don’t like the hassle). So I avoided potential questionings. I don’t like the “see I told you” talks but I’d rather shut them up with real actions. When things are there, they are there.
Having a live-in maid can be inconvenient but let me tell you, my unique situation has been God sent. During this period when I’m all busy and ready to fire off the rocket, my part-time helper needed a place to stay. Her current employer doesn’t have a place for them to stay. Together with her friend, I now have 2 live-in helpers. Apart from the weekly thorough cleaning up they do for us, they still pack bit by bit around the house. Half my wardrobe looks like it’s been through war since the other half looks incredibly neat. The contrast is just like heaven and hell. My room is still a bit of a hell hole right now but I’m sure it’ll be better very soon. Taking a day off to pack my own room will help them keep it organized in future.
With the “deed” done on Friday, I will very soon have some time to pack up my room before I embark on my new journey. This is going to be a tough journey as I’ll be all on myself but with enough determination and hunger to spur me on, I know I will be able to do it. I don’t believe in spoonfeeding where you create a creature who leeches on to wherever that gives food. I’m starting to feel like a leech so I think it’s time I gain some independence and feel how rough outside world can be and grow up accordingly. My plans are to grow out of proportions, out of my shell and surprise everyone else. I will do it and I know I can. Now, I have to bring myself to start doing it.
Friday, July 04, 2008
Flusters - One At A Time
One thing at a time. I must learn to manage my fidgety moments more efficiently. Heart attacks a looming. Palms are sweaty, feet are cold, head is spinning. Constantly reminding myself, money is secondary. Building of an empire is awaiting. Help!
How can someone tell you that they like you but they have a totally separate life that they are leading? Isn't being together for 2 individuals the coming together of 2 wholesome beings and forming a much better entity complementing one another? Apart from being 2 great wholesome independent individuals, nothing else actually comes close of creating togetherness. How would anyone think it is ok? I for one, will not allow myself to get used to it and will not even think that this is an acceptable situation. Nothing anyone say is ever going to change my mind. I wavered once and once is all I am allowing. I am a highly favoured individual and I should know that fact very well. Sinking into a point of no return is totally unacceptable.
We don't talk the way we used to talk
It's hurtin' so deep
I've got my pride, I will not cry
But it's makin' me weak
I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me, baby
How can someone tell you that they like you but they have a totally separate life that they are leading? Isn't being together for 2 individuals the coming together of 2 wholesome beings and forming a much better entity complementing one another? Apart from being 2 great wholesome independent individuals, nothing else actually comes close of creating togetherness. How would anyone think it is ok? I for one, will not allow myself to get used to it and will not even think that this is an acceptable situation. Nothing anyone say is ever going to change my mind. I wavered once and once is all I am allowing. I am a highly favoured individual and I should know that fact very well. Sinking into a point of no return is totally unacceptable.
We don't talk the way we used to talk
It's hurtin' so deep
I've got my pride, I will not cry
But it's makin' me weak
I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me, baby
Thursday, July 03, 2008
I'm Yours
Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved
So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
Scooch closer dear
and i will nibble your ear
I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what i be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
this is our fate, I'm yours
Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find the sky is yours
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
A lá one big family
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
No please, don't complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
No please, don't hesitate
no more, no more
It cannot wait
The sky is your's!
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
Plans Plans Plans... Just Go!
It's been a while since I walked down Orchard Road and do nothing but shop around. Took a day off since BFG Uncle is here from Toronto. Was supposed to bring him out shopping but I ended up getting myself this nice LBD. Hot! For once, we were rambling on about our passion for cars face to face. Awesome! We even checked out Honda's showroom before heading for Vivocity for dinner. He's totally in love with the Civic Type R. It's about time for a trip to Toronto... And Whistler!
It actually feels amazing to be comfortable with oneself. But one big prickling issue persists...
Well, we can't please everyone. Everyone will have their piece of mind for the moment and what they think, as much as we would want to think it's not important, how the image runs in their mind is utterly important in terms of upholding a proper image. An attempt to right the wrongs is in the pipeline but trust me, pipelines never quite go according to plans. Thou shalt be who thou is. The faith that aids the process will definitely make things better. Like I always say, "my conscience is clear..."
A brand new start awaits. A holiday to Hong Kong is in place really soon and I mean REALLY SOON... Like nest week! Despite the storms and all, Ex-Sir's Sir and myself decided that we should get away for a good breather and embark on bigger things when we return. That's another part of my suspension gone to a holiday I desperately need. It should be worth the while. I simply can't wait...
It actually feels amazing to be comfortable with oneself. But one big prickling issue persists...
Well, we can't please everyone. Everyone will have their piece of mind for the moment and what they think, as much as we would want to think it's not important, how the image runs in their mind is utterly important in terms of upholding a proper image. An attempt to right the wrongs is in the pipeline but trust me, pipelines never quite go according to plans. Thou shalt be who thou is. The faith that aids the process will definitely make things better. Like I always say, "my conscience is clear..."
A brand new start awaits. A holiday to Hong Kong is in place really soon and I mean REALLY SOON... Like nest week! Despite the storms and all, Ex-Sir's Sir and myself decided that we should get away for a good breather and embark on bigger things when we return. That's another part of my suspension gone to a holiday I desperately need. It should be worth the while. I simply can't wait...
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